The Good Left Undone
The same nightmare, every night. No hope, no salvation, no end. Just the loneliness ripping through your soul like fire; the realization that there is no one. No one waiting in the wings to catch you, no one leading you out of this oblivion.
Alone.
There is silence before anything else. Before your screaming or his excuse; a simple, taunting, heart-breaking excuse. Melodic, twisted, beautiful against your own suddenly hollow life. A final symphony, his last gift to you. Your body slowly falls apart to it's rhythm.
You concentrate on your breathing: erratic, painful, hollow. Underwater there are no memories. No way to look back and feel that familiar hole in your chest. Youre grateful at first, but then a new pain consumes you. Physical, bruising and undeserved.
Everyday is just another onslaught of hostile emotional fears. Your nights aren't much better. It's a new kind of pain, one that your fragile human body is not accustomed to. The emotional damage isn't that hard to deal with, but this…this monster claws its way to the surface whenever you close your eyes.
Ruby eyes, wide and empty stare at you from behind restless eyelids. The monster he always wanted you to see in him: bloodthirsty, ruthless, gone.
"Come and play," she whispers softly to you. You realize this is your reflection; you've been staring at yourself on the oceans smooth surface. What have you got to lose? Nothing. He left you with nothing to give, nothing to lose, nothing to take.
Dragged to the bottom of the ocean, trapped there by unseen hands and watched by hidden eyes. Everywhere. It's everywhere. Like little insects, it crawls onto your body. Itchy, slimy, scaly legs. You want to scream, scream until your lungs burst, but in this fucked up fairy-tale, you have no voice. Just as if Ursula had taken it and used it to lure your prince charming away.
Its your own screaming that finally wakes you up, but youre not sure if that's a good thing. You glare at the sunlight that lights the bruises etched all over your body: another reason to hate the sun.
"Tomorrow is just another day of hostile emotional fears.."
All because of you
I haven't slept in so long
And when I do
I dream
Of drowning in the ocean
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