Introduction :

Mikan sixteen years old

Natsume : sixteen years old

Natsumes friends : sixteen years old

School : Alice academy

C1

The sound of footsteps echoed the school hallway. The people hiding behind classrooms all looked through to see the lone girl walking. She had her earphones plugged in and was oblivious to the grins and glares directed her way.

" there's the psycho" someone said and the whispers rocked the students.

" ready" one said

" aim" another

" FIRE" they all yelled and the girl was pelted with eggs and tomatoes.

Opening her eyes she blinked twice in surprise and then once again closed them and walked off to the rooftop. The one place no one dared to follow her.

Mikan Pov

'" I like it" I thought to myself sitting on the rooftop. The new song I was listening to was really good. I closed my eyes and listened to it a few times then stood up and stared at the sky, buildings and city.

" eww'' I whispered picking the egg shells off of me. It was happening more often now. The initial phase of being scared off me has worn off and now it was the bullying and harassment phase. I guess they really did hate me and my so called obsession with Natsume.

Natsume and I used to be best friends. In fact I used to be best friends with the 'popular' group at Alice Academy. Natsume, Ruka, Koko, kitsuneme, yuu, Hotaru, Nonoko, Anna, Sumire and Luna. Natsume and I were childhood best friends. I first confessed when I was ten and he rejected me coldly. That didn't stop me I continued for six years and each time I was rejected. He started dating Luna when he was fifteen and it broke my heart. But that still didn't stop my friendship with him. I tried my best to still be normal around him and it worked for awhile. Then on August the 25th 2015 he broke my heart by ending our friendship. It was July 2016 now and I still wasn't over it. Obviously he had a reason to end our friendship and the reason was that I tried to kill his girlfriend on that day. He slapped me and left me in the dark taking my friends and Luna with him. They ignored me after that, word got around that I was a psycho, rumours started that I had been seducing him since I was ten and I was called a slut, a whore, a bitch, someone who didn't need to live in this world. Every single secret I had ever told them got out. When I wet my pants when I was six, when I cried because Natsume asked Ruka to be his bus partner when I was eight, when I tried too kiss Natsume when I was fourteen. The darkest and worst ones also got out. I became scared, scared of life, scared of people. I didn't like people anymore, I couldn't trust anyone. I was so scared of big places that I moved out of home to a small apartment on the opposite side of the town. So now I go to school and go home every day. Nothing more, nothing less. I don't talk too people if I can help it. My best is going two weeks without talking to anyone. I don't make eye contact, I get my things delivered. It's easier this way. The fear is still there but it's lessened. Sitting down once more I get lost in the music and like every other day I drone out the world.

Natsume Pov

" she's doing the same as yesterday" Ruka said matter of factly

" like she's been going for the last eleven months" Hotaru said

" it's like she doesn't care" Koko said sadly

They all nodded. I nodded too. Missing Mikan was an understatement. It was like half of me was missing and the worst part it was all my fault. When I found Luna bleeding and Mikan with a knife in her hand all my rage blew onto her.

" what did you do" I hissed at her, shocked at her obsession with me. The worst she had done was push a girl to the ground. When I had asked her why she pushed the girl she simply replied to me with a smile on her face " she called you annoying". I had been shocked.

The same shock overtook me that day too.

She didn't reply instead looked blank. Mikan went as far as harming another girl, my girlfriend in fact because of me. I slapped her, pushed her away, took Luna and walked away leaving her forever. Luna told me in the hospital that she did in fact try too kill her and that was all the convincing I needed. I cut ties with Mikan and for the next eleven months I managed not to speak to her at all. Instead we watched her at a distance, every single day. The gang missed her, I missed her more than words could describe but we couldn't help but think she didn't miss us. I watched as she moved houses, got called names, stayed in her house only going to school and she became a mystery to me. The Mikan who loved adventure and new places was gone and I knew it wasn't just because of us.

" I wonder what she's listening to" I mused to myself

" why do you care" Luna said.

Luna had never fully forgiven Mikan as did all of us but hate was a strong word and Luna hated Mikan more than any of us.

'' I don't" I replied again turning away from Mikan and following the hand to our Sakura tree.

" you know she can probably see us here" Anna said, she like nonoko was still a bit scared of what Mikan could do and what she did.

" she can't because she always has her eyes closed" Hotaru stated

The bell rung and we walked back to class. Mikan was in our class ( everyone except Luna) but she was always looking out the window so the teachers gave up on her.

I tried not to stare but it was hard, Mikan had never looked in my direction or anyone's direction in the last eleven months and that hurt too. She used to tell me she loved me but now it was as if I had never existed in her life.

Mikan Pov

I sat tightly on the train with my eyes closed. My stop came up and quickly I stood up which was a bad idea. I stood up so suddenly without looking that I was now inches away from someone's face. I felt the breathing. I opened my eyes and met his. The familiar Crimson colour made me shiver. It was my first time seeing Natsume in six months. I had stopped trying to notice him six months ago and fully given up. Once I gave up it was so easy not too see him at all now even the smallest sight of him scared me. Memories threatened to take ahold of me but I suppressed them. Bowing my head I side stepped and tried to got off my stop. Closing my eyes and I felt for the open door. Unluckily for me the doors had closed and the train moved. I fell suddenly and I waited for the floor. It didn't come, someone caught me. I didn't bother looking at the person because I felt the touch, the same touch I had felt for the last 5 months when I first fell on the train. I had just moved into my apartment and the sudden movement had made me fall. The voice that came with the blurry face had laughed and told me that I had fell for him. I didn't laugh, I remember, instead a cry of pain escaped me and I quickly walked off the train. It wasn't a familiar touch as in it definitely wasn't Natsume or his friends instead someone different. The person stood me up and with my eyes still closed I felt for the pole that he always put me near.

" open your eyes" the voice said.

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