AN: This is my first crack at writing a full fanfic so I'm sorry if my writing is not up to par. But I love Firefly and Wash is such an amazing character so this is my ode to him. So enjoy. Also I do not own Firefly or any of the characters, though I wish I did.

Zoë woke up a start. Panting hard and sweating, tears threatening to spill over her eyes, in a panic she swiveled around to see if Wash was still by her side. Thankfully he was, and he always was when she woke from this same recurring nightmare.

The nightmare was always the same. It took her back to the day Serenity landed on Miranda and the Reaver harpoon came crashing into the ship, only Wash was still there, he had never gotten up to check on her, and he died right in front of her. She used to wake up screaming, but once she realized that he was there and he just barely missed death she began to relax again.

"Zoë?" Wash sat up and rubbed his eyes then let the focus on his wife who was now crying. "What! What? What is it? Are you ok?" Though he already knew the answer, and he guessed it was about her dream again. He just sighed and pulled his wife into his arms and cradled her to his chest.

"You do know that I'm alive right? Look I am totally a-ok." He gave her a warm smiled and gently wiped a stray tear away with his thumb.

"I know… I know Wash, but I almost lost you. If you would have stayed in that damn seat…" She began to sob a littler harder. Wash couldn't do anything but try and soothe her; they had both been dealing with this for a month now.

"Maybe why should leave the boat, and try and live a normal life, have a few kids, enjoy living." Wash kissed his wife's forehead and gently rubbed at her back.

"You… Want to leave Serenity? But you love this ship Hoban. I love this ship. This is our home." Zoë was completely calm now, and she laid herself back down on the bed and stared up at her husband, who was looking at her with a grim face.

"I do love this ship… But I love you more, and I hate waking up to this every night, we have had more near death experiences than any couple in the verse… With me being kidnapped with Mal and almost being harpooned, I just think its time we settled down."

Zoë sat back up quickly and glared at Wash, she was not ready to leave this ship, yes she loved her husband but she could never picture them settling down. She couldn't see their lives without Mal, Jayne, Kaylee, Sheppard, Simon, or River. She didn't even want to talk on this subject. "No Hoban. This is our home."

Wash threw his hands up as to surrender and began to curse in another language. "Fine. Maybe the next time Mal gets us into a sticky situation I will die, I mean my time must becoming up right? I've dodged death more than once." Wash got up and got dressed and stormed out to go sit in the cock pit. The only thing he loved about this ship now was he got to fly, and that always calmed him down.

Zoë sighed in anger and laid herself back down to sleep. Wash was acting like a child, he knew how that conversation was going to end, she didn't know why he always insisted about bringing it up.

"Rawr! I will win this fight because I am the captain! I make the rules!" "No! I will win because I am the husband, I make the rules! Rawr! Oh god! Oh dear God in Heaven!"

"Uh… What are you doing Wash?" Kaylee laughed as she walked over to sit in the seat next to him.

Wash threw his dinosaurs down and tried to regain his composer. "Um just a little midnight flying couldn't sleep." He smiled sheepishly. "Ignore the scene you just saw."

Kaylee just nodded and picked up the T-Rex and started talking with it. "Grr what's wrong Washy? I will attack you if I don't get an answer." She laughed softly and set the toy back on the dash and looked up at the pilot waiting for his answer.

"It's nothing really, it always nothing with her." Wash looked down and took the ship off of auto-pilot and started to steer again.

"Oh? Do you want to tell me what's going on? Or do you want to keep it to yourself? But I know if me and Simon should ever get in a fight I would like to turn to someone for comfort." Kaylee reached over and touched Wash's shoulder gently.

"She had the nightmare again, and she always wakes up crying, it drives me crazy to see her hurt so much. So I just asked her to consider us leaving Serenity to settle down where we don't have the risk of dying everyday and she got mad… Like she always does."

"She still has the death dream of you?" Kaylee's expression went to sadness then, she could understand where Zoë was coming from.

"Yes, even though I'm perfectly alive and well." Wash had anger underlining his voice. "This ship just had to many ghost that haunt us, their tearing us apart and she can't bare to leave her Captain."

Kaylee just nodded and stood up and gave Wash a big hug. "Things will get better… She just loves you and I know she still fears what could have happened… I mean that day was almost a nightmare Wash, we all almost died. Give her time."

And with that Kaylee left to go to sleep Wash hoped. He wanted the ship to himself tonight since the bunk was no longer a wanted place for him.

Well this is the first chapter. I promise the rest will be up soon. Reviews would be lovely! and again this is my first time i know its a little rough:]