She walked out of the house, she couldn't believe she had just admitted that she was leaving Jacob. She was going to be changed and be made into a beautiful marble statue. But was this something she really wanted. The entire time she was talking to Jacob she had doubts in her mind. He looked in so much pain and she knew it was not because of the shattered bones in his body. She had tried to hug him goodbye, her hand lingering gently on his arm. Slowly Bella left. She got into her truck and drove home. Charlie was asleep on the sofa, he was aware of Jacob's injury and was waiting for Bella to return, clearly he had dozed of watching the sports channel. She walked over to him and placed the patchwork afghan of the back of the sofa over him. She was happy he was safe. The fishing trip worked and he got back late enough that he wasn't in any danger from the new borns. She patted his shoulder gently, turned the TV off and then walked up to her room. Edward was already sat in the rocking chair in the corner of her room. He looked like a statue, a beautiful statue. He looked up when she walked in and then patted his knee, she hurried over and sat down. She watched her hand as it wrapped around his neck, the ring sparling in the light from the lamp. She sighed. Something was missing. There was something tugging at her heart. Edward looked at her.
"Why did you take so long? Carlisle returned an hour ago." She shrugged and looked at him properly.
"I was with Jacob. It wasn't fair to just leave him like that when he was in so much pain. He needed comfort but I had to tell him that I was leaving." Her voice began to get quieter. "I am not sure that is what I want though." Edward's head jerked up at the sound.
"What do you mean?"
"Edward, Jacob loves me. I have always loved him and you know that. I know you hated seeing me kiss him on the mountain but I had to show him I cared. Being away from him would kill me. Even more so knowing that if I was actually dead but was a walking, talking replica of myself, he would not touch me. He wouldn't even talk to me. People like you creep him out. You are his natural enemy." She dipped her head as she finished her speech.
"People like me?" He muttered. She slipped out of his arms and walked over to the bed, she sat on the edge and looked at him.
"I didn't mean it like but as I said you are his natural enemy, the reason why they are phasing is because vampires turned up. You turned up. That is why Sam phased all those years ago."
"Since when did you care about Sam?" He asked, his voice gradually getting louder.
"Edward, calm down, Charlie is asleep you will wake him up."
"Bella don't you get it? You just messed this all up. You chose him over me. I can see it in your eyes. I can see that you don't want to be with me. You don't want to be a vampire because you value your life too much? Since when was this a concern for you?" She swallowed hard.
"Jacob has always been a big part in my life. Just because I liked you and picked you over him doesn't mean that I don't love him. You spent the few months after you came back making sure I couldn't go anywhere near him. We had to send notes to each other! Even then that didn't work. You disassembled my truck to make sure that I didn't go near him. That isn't fair Edward!" She rose to her feet and opened the door.
"I think you should leave." He nodded slowly and slipped out of the window. She shook her head and closed the door and then slammed the window into it's frame. She stood staring into the trees eventually moving to her bed where she fell asleep on the covers with her clothes and shoes still on.

Bella was awoken abruptly by Charlie. Edward was gone and there were no signs of him reappearing in the night and she felt like she was having a nightmare again. She looked around in a hurry.
"Dad, whats wrong?" She looked at her fathers face, it was creased with worry, sweat covered his face.
"It's Jacob. He's gone." She sat bolt upright and looked at him in disbelief.
"Do you know where he went?"
"They don't have a clue. Billy phoned me and all he said is that he left in the middle of the night."
She pulled herself out of bed and gathered some clothes into her arms and ran to the bathroom. She was changed in a couple of minutes. She pulled her toothbrush from the cup next to the sink and pulled the door open and entered her bedroom, her dad was still standing there looking at her like she was crazy. She was dashing around the room pulling a large duffle bag from her closet and began to stuff it with clothes and essentials. She moved to her bedside table and pulled out an old letter box her mom had given her. She then pulled out at least $150 enough to keep her going for the time being. She then pushed her purse into the bag as well. Her emergency credit card from Charlie fit snug in one of the slots. Her college fund on another. She had no future plans for college. She pulled her big parka of the back of her desk chair and then momentarily paused looking at her hand wrapped around the jacket. The large oval ring sat proudly on her finger. She sighed and eased it off and left it on the desk next to the necklace Rosalie had given her for her birthday last year, the night that Jasper had given in.
"Bells...are you not taking that with you?" She shook her head.
"I told him I need to be near Jacob and that I love him...as a friend." She threw in the little white lie to make it seem like I hadn't been doing anything wrong.
"He wasn't happy and was getting angry. I was scared he would wake you so I asked him to leave."

She headed out of the bedroom and down into the kitchen.
"Dad, I will stay in touch. I promise, I don't know how long I will be gone. I could be back tonight or it could be a few months. I promise I will be back though. You know where the food money is? Please don't eat too many take aways. I love you." She hugged him and then left for the truck. She punched the gas pedal and turned the key in the ignition to get the truck going. She drove recklessly to La Push and skidded to a halt in front of the little red house. She jumped out of the truck and ran forwards and jumped the stairs to the porch and entered, not bothering to knock. She found Billy in the living room a worried look on his face. She didn't bother to say hi, there was no time.
"Did he say where he was going?" She asked as she strode in and crouched in front of his wheelchair. He shook his head, clearly in shock. She couldn't help but hug him.
"Billy, I will get him back for you I promise." He nodded and pulled me into a hug.
"I've called Sue to come and help you. Rachel will be back soon. I may have rang her too." I saw tears come to his eyes.
"Thank you Bella." She smiled softly and hugged him back until a thought hit her.
"Billy...did he leave in wolf form?" He nodded. She raced to his bedroom and pulled some clothes into her arms ready to stuff into his bag. She knew he might not have any. After a deep breath and a look around his room she walked over to his dresser. There was a wooden carved wolf, larger than the one which she wore on her wrist. She pocketed it and then left. She kissed Billy on the cheek.
"I will have him back to you in one piece. I promise."

She drove herself to the house of Sam and Emily. Something as big as this must have had the pack on his tail. She knocked gently on the door and was welcomed by Emily; Sam was pacing in the kitchen. She stalked over to him and stared up into his eyes.
"Sam, I know you hate me right now, Jacob got hurt protecting me and I am sorry for that but we need to find him. Did you hear any of his thoughts last night?"
He shrugged, his eyes couldn't be taken of her hand which was empty of the glittering ring.
"He tried to block it out but he slipped. He mentioned your name a lot and then Canada. It was hard to pick up where in Canada but he is heading that way. Bella, where is your ring?" She didn't really have time to discuss this but she sunk into a chair and looked up at the Alpha.
"I left him. My life is something to be cherished not thrown away. He got a bit annoyed the other night when I left him to check on Jacob. He doesn't seem to understand that I hold a light for Jacob and since Edward left that time the light for him has dimmed but the one for Jacob just burned brighter. Plus, how could I leave you guys?" She smiled weakly and then lifted herself up from the chair.
"I can ring you if I find him?" Sam nodded and Emily gave her a hug goodbye.
"Good luck." She whispered. Bella nodded and left without another word.

She filled up her truck with enough gas to get her so far and then set off. The wooden carving of the wolf was pinned to her dashboard, all she could think of was Jacob. She drove for what felt like hours until she had to stop at a hotel. She couldn't drive all night and she had promised Charlie she would be safe, driving when she was this tired was stupid and reckless. She took a deep breath and got out of the truck. Just as she was about to walk into the hotel she heard a familiar sound. A loud howl coming from the forest a few miles away. She recognised the sound. No one made a sound like that unless they were over five foot tall and in the shape of a wolf. She jumped straight back into the bed of the truck and headed for the forest not too far away. Relief started to grab a hold of her but she knew she was far from being near him.