Hiya everyone, this is your author, Stephanie here.. *sheepish grin* I hope
you like my story. It'll get better, I swear it will, I just had to start
it off angsty because I'm weird like that! *hands out cookies* I know you
all know this, *rolls eyes* But I've gotta go through it. *sigh*
Warning: these characters are not mine! Unless I make up one, in which case I will tell you! And.. The original story belongs to the amazing, beautiful, ingenious Rumiko Takahashi. *bows* donke! (German for thank you)
Kagome stood in the dark forest, her back pressed against the cool, rough bark of the ancient tree where Inu-Yasha had been kept captive in a sleep- spell for fifty years. Sighing, she looked at the chain around her neck. The silver gleamed dully, and the jewel attached to it shone with an inner light. The Shikon no Tama: Sacred Jewel of Four Souls. She had given up so much, suffered so much for the harmless looking jewel. Her whole life had changed- some for the worst, though much for the better, in an odd sort of way. She had had a life with a loving mother, brother, grandfather, and friends, and so much more back in her own time. But she had a life here, too, with her friends who she had passed through death with, ones who meant more to her than her own family. Not that it was easy to admit. And then, there was Inu-Yasha. Sighing, Kagome fingered the jewel. This was all Inu- Yasha wanted, he cared nothing for her. Soon, he would come for it. And what could she do then? Though her powers had grown immensely, she knew she could do nothing to hurt him- he had saved her life too many times, and held her heart too firmly. Yet he would hurt her, and take the jewel to become a full demon. This she knew she could not allow. Inu-Yasha had said barely more than three words to her after they had defeated Naraku and found the rest of the jewel shards to complete the Shikon no Tama, and had barely come around her- or at least if he could avoid it. But soon, Kagome thought bitterly, soon he will try to take the jewel from me to become his full demon form for good. Or worse. What if he decides the wants to become a human, to live with and love Kikyo, who could also use the power of the jewel to become full living, restoring her body of clay and bones to flesh and blood? The thought made her wince.
I don't care. No, it's not true.. I do care, but I shouldn't let myself." Kagome muttered to herself, furiously gripping her skirt in white- knuckled fists. But even as she spoke the words, she knew they weren't true, she loved loving Inu-Yasha. With one last sigh she walked back to the village, deep in thought.
Inu-Yasha sat brooding in a small hut, trying to figure out why he was feeling so depressed. The jewel he had so longed for was complete; he was free to take it and use it. The only hang up was the prayer beads Kagome controlled with a spell, and the girl herself. He wondered if the jewel was still what he really wanted. "Damn girl.. It would be better if she just left!" He growled out, remembering all the small, half hidden gestures of affection Kagome seemed to show him without noticing. The ones that made his pulse quicken and his heart beat louder. "oh no." He muttered, smelling Kagome's sweet, singular scent of wild flowers and mint. She stepped hesitantly through the doorway, spying the hanyou.
"I-I, uh.. Wanted to." She trailed off, and shook her head. Why had she come? To tell him that she was leaving- that was a given- forever. But now she knew it was just a stupid idea- Inu-Yasha was wearing his stubborn face. He would only try to stop her. Kagome thought she should leave, yet something stopped her. Glancing at the floor, she stepped into the hut and let the reed covering fall shut. Inu-Yasha sighed a little, making Kagome look up.
"Well, what d'ya want?" He demanded in a gruff voice.
"Inu-Yasha." Her voice quavered. She cleared her throat, her voice steadying. "I came to say goodbye." His face remained unreadable, but he stood up quickly, fists clenched. "I've got to go. If I stay, the power of the jewel will lure demons here. They will try to take it. And you." Inu- Yasha growled softly, then shook his head.
"So, the only way you can't prevent that from happening is to leave for good." Kagome was surprised with his calm response- she had expected the hot headed hanyou to at least call her an idiot or tell her she wasn't allowed to leave.
"Yeah, that's pretty much it. But, Inu-Yasha, you can't- don't try to stop me." The half demon snorted
"Oh, right. Like I would want you to stay. Tell me another one." Yet his face had drawn out, making him look tired.
"You do want me to stay, don't you." Kagome said in an accusing voice, glaring at him. The nerve, to say he didn't want her to stay! He glared back.
"Why the hell would I want that? You're annoying, stupid, ugly, you can't take care of yourself, you try to boss be around, you smell like-" He stopped to take a breath and noticed the girl's bottom lip tremble slightly. Yet her voice wasn't affected.
"I know you don't want me to go! And you didn't mean that... Inu- Yasha?" He sighed even deepened, and his amber eyes stared intensely into her own.
"No, you're right. I didn't." That was all Kagome needed. With a broken sob she threw herself into Inu-Yasha's arms, in need of comfort to steel herself for leaving, yet also needing something else she couldn't quiet identify. He almost pushed her away, embarrassed, but instead found himself clasping his arms tightly around her torso.
"Inu-Yasha." She mumbled, her face buried in his red fire-rat coat. "There's something else.. I didn't want to tell you, but I think I need to. " Inu-Yasha abrubtly caught her by her shoulders, holding her at arms' length.
"Don't," He said sharply, and Kagome shook her head faintly in response, cheeks flaming.
"No, Inu-Yasha, I have to."
"Don't say it!" HE exclaimed more urgently. The girl's eyes glittered, tears threatening to squeeze out.
"Inu-Yasha, I've got to! I-"Before she could say anything, he desperately clasped his hand over her mouth.
"Shut up!" He growled, shoving her roughly away from him. Kagome could feel the tears spill over, and she angrily wiped them away. They always came at the worst possible times, tears that showed how weak she was compared to Inu-Yasha. Why was he rejecting her like this? She pounded on his chest with her fist, the tears turning from ones of hurt to frustration. It didn't hurt him physically, but that he had caused his- caused Kagome so much pain stung him like a knife. He caught her wrists in his hands, stopping her movement, then abruptly turned away from her and her tears. Hoarsely he said,
"Kagome, go home. You don't belong here." She wrenched one wrist from his restraining hand and touched him on the cheek, softly, as if it were forbidden to touch. Her hand shook. She removed her fingers, and ran them through the hair at the base of his neck. She grasped it tightly, then hauled his face in towards hers.
"Inu-Yasha, what this is, it's.. it's special. I have got to say it. I'" He stood up abruptly, shoving her again away from him. She didn't look up, and her hair masked her face. But he could see her crumple, see her shoulders shake, see her tears splash out onto the gnarled wooden floor. She had been willing to give herself to him, despite the danger with the Shikon no Tama, to love him, but he adamantly refused her. He felt himself choke a bit. He knew that if she stayed he would only hurt her, betray her, and it was something he wanted never to happen. Kikyo was out there, and she had first claim to him, though it would mean his life.
"Kagome. We can't. we don't belong together." He stated, his voice breaking. She looked up then, eyes blazing.
"Don't we? And why not, Inu-Yasha?" The hanyou only shook his head in answer, and she slumped again, defeated. "Kagome." He started, in a patronizing tone. Kagome knew it was her fault- she had thrown herself at him and been turned away. And she knew why" He still loved the dead miko, Kikyo.
"Don't you 'Kagome' me. Don't you even dare. I know what your problem is! You don't want to. to get emotionally involved. Because you are only going to kill me. Isn't that what you want, my blood on your hands? All for the jewel. So that you can be a human and live with your beloved bag of bones- who, I think someone has forgotten to mention to you- hates you, wants to kill you and drag you into hell, not be loved by you-" Inu-Yasha growled again, growing angry. But Kagome wouldn't let him cut in. "And that's probably good. Because I'm not going to give you the chance to kill me and go on with your idiotic plans. Now I can go. And you know what, baka? I am going to walk out this door, and you aren't going to see me again. And I'm going to laugh. Laugh at my stupidity, thinking you could have anything else in your heart but.. Kikyo and. ice. Laugh at you, knowing you aren't ever going to get what you want." Inu-Yasha could almost feel his heart break. He stared at the ground.
"Kagome." He whispered, begging. He wished he could tell her what was really burning inside of his heart, the one thing that gave him joy in the mornings and lulled him to sleep with a smile at night. There was no answer. He looked up, and she was gone. Inu-Yasha cried for the first time since his mother had died. Something else had died tonight, and that something was his heart.
As Kagome ran, she felt the tears that had come unbidden start to subside. The wind rushing past her felt cool and reassuring on her damp cheeks: it helped to calm her. Up ahead she made out the shape of the Bone Eater's Well, and she slowed to a jog. Before she quiet realized it, she had jumped into the well, feeling hollow and drained, emotionless except for the tiny flicker of despair that threatened to explode into a full fledged bonfire.
a/n: please, please comment, even flamers are welcomed! I'll love you forever if you say to keep writing and you like it, I really will. I'll even mention you in my next chapter, which is soon to come. ^_^ *more cookies*
Warning: these characters are not mine! Unless I make up one, in which case I will tell you! And.. The original story belongs to the amazing, beautiful, ingenious Rumiko Takahashi. *bows* donke! (German for thank you)
Kagome stood in the dark forest, her back pressed against the cool, rough bark of the ancient tree where Inu-Yasha had been kept captive in a sleep- spell for fifty years. Sighing, she looked at the chain around her neck. The silver gleamed dully, and the jewel attached to it shone with an inner light. The Shikon no Tama: Sacred Jewel of Four Souls. She had given up so much, suffered so much for the harmless looking jewel. Her whole life had changed- some for the worst, though much for the better, in an odd sort of way. She had had a life with a loving mother, brother, grandfather, and friends, and so much more back in her own time. But she had a life here, too, with her friends who she had passed through death with, ones who meant more to her than her own family. Not that it was easy to admit. And then, there was Inu-Yasha. Sighing, Kagome fingered the jewel. This was all Inu- Yasha wanted, he cared nothing for her. Soon, he would come for it. And what could she do then? Though her powers had grown immensely, she knew she could do nothing to hurt him- he had saved her life too many times, and held her heart too firmly. Yet he would hurt her, and take the jewel to become a full demon. This she knew she could not allow. Inu-Yasha had said barely more than three words to her after they had defeated Naraku and found the rest of the jewel shards to complete the Shikon no Tama, and had barely come around her- or at least if he could avoid it. But soon, Kagome thought bitterly, soon he will try to take the jewel from me to become his full demon form for good. Or worse. What if he decides the wants to become a human, to live with and love Kikyo, who could also use the power of the jewel to become full living, restoring her body of clay and bones to flesh and blood? The thought made her wince.
I don't care. No, it's not true.. I do care, but I shouldn't let myself." Kagome muttered to herself, furiously gripping her skirt in white- knuckled fists. But even as she spoke the words, she knew they weren't true, she loved loving Inu-Yasha. With one last sigh she walked back to the village, deep in thought.
Inu-Yasha sat brooding in a small hut, trying to figure out why he was feeling so depressed. The jewel he had so longed for was complete; he was free to take it and use it. The only hang up was the prayer beads Kagome controlled with a spell, and the girl herself. He wondered if the jewel was still what he really wanted. "Damn girl.. It would be better if she just left!" He growled out, remembering all the small, half hidden gestures of affection Kagome seemed to show him without noticing. The ones that made his pulse quicken and his heart beat louder. "oh no." He muttered, smelling Kagome's sweet, singular scent of wild flowers and mint. She stepped hesitantly through the doorway, spying the hanyou.
"I-I, uh.. Wanted to." She trailed off, and shook her head. Why had she come? To tell him that she was leaving- that was a given- forever. But now she knew it was just a stupid idea- Inu-Yasha was wearing his stubborn face. He would only try to stop her. Kagome thought she should leave, yet something stopped her. Glancing at the floor, she stepped into the hut and let the reed covering fall shut. Inu-Yasha sighed a little, making Kagome look up.
"Well, what d'ya want?" He demanded in a gruff voice.
"Inu-Yasha." Her voice quavered. She cleared her throat, her voice steadying. "I came to say goodbye." His face remained unreadable, but he stood up quickly, fists clenched. "I've got to go. If I stay, the power of the jewel will lure demons here. They will try to take it. And you." Inu- Yasha growled softly, then shook his head.
"So, the only way you can't prevent that from happening is to leave for good." Kagome was surprised with his calm response- she had expected the hot headed hanyou to at least call her an idiot or tell her she wasn't allowed to leave.
"Yeah, that's pretty much it. But, Inu-Yasha, you can't- don't try to stop me." The half demon snorted
"Oh, right. Like I would want you to stay. Tell me another one." Yet his face had drawn out, making him look tired.
"You do want me to stay, don't you." Kagome said in an accusing voice, glaring at him. The nerve, to say he didn't want her to stay! He glared back.
"Why the hell would I want that? You're annoying, stupid, ugly, you can't take care of yourself, you try to boss be around, you smell like-" He stopped to take a breath and noticed the girl's bottom lip tremble slightly. Yet her voice wasn't affected.
"I know you don't want me to go! And you didn't mean that... Inu- Yasha?" He sighed even deepened, and his amber eyes stared intensely into her own.
"No, you're right. I didn't." That was all Kagome needed. With a broken sob she threw herself into Inu-Yasha's arms, in need of comfort to steel herself for leaving, yet also needing something else she couldn't quiet identify. He almost pushed her away, embarrassed, but instead found himself clasping his arms tightly around her torso.
"Inu-Yasha." She mumbled, her face buried in his red fire-rat coat. "There's something else.. I didn't want to tell you, but I think I need to. " Inu-Yasha abrubtly caught her by her shoulders, holding her at arms' length.
"Don't," He said sharply, and Kagome shook her head faintly in response, cheeks flaming.
"No, Inu-Yasha, I have to."
"Don't say it!" HE exclaimed more urgently. The girl's eyes glittered, tears threatening to squeeze out.
"Inu-Yasha, I've got to! I-"Before she could say anything, he desperately clasped his hand over her mouth.
"Shut up!" He growled, shoving her roughly away from him. Kagome could feel the tears spill over, and she angrily wiped them away. They always came at the worst possible times, tears that showed how weak she was compared to Inu-Yasha. Why was he rejecting her like this? She pounded on his chest with her fist, the tears turning from ones of hurt to frustration. It didn't hurt him physically, but that he had caused his- caused Kagome so much pain stung him like a knife. He caught her wrists in his hands, stopping her movement, then abruptly turned away from her and her tears. Hoarsely he said,
"Kagome, go home. You don't belong here." She wrenched one wrist from his restraining hand and touched him on the cheek, softly, as if it were forbidden to touch. Her hand shook. She removed her fingers, and ran them through the hair at the base of his neck. She grasped it tightly, then hauled his face in towards hers.
"Inu-Yasha, what this is, it's.. it's special. I have got to say it. I'" He stood up abruptly, shoving her again away from him. She didn't look up, and her hair masked her face. But he could see her crumple, see her shoulders shake, see her tears splash out onto the gnarled wooden floor. She had been willing to give herself to him, despite the danger with the Shikon no Tama, to love him, but he adamantly refused her. He felt himself choke a bit. He knew that if she stayed he would only hurt her, betray her, and it was something he wanted never to happen. Kikyo was out there, and she had first claim to him, though it would mean his life.
"Kagome. We can't. we don't belong together." He stated, his voice breaking. She looked up then, eyes blazing.
"Don't we? And why not, Inu-Yasha?" The hanyou only shook his head in answer, and she slumped again, defeated. "Kagome." He started, in a patronizing tone. Kagome knew it was her fault- she had thrown herself at him and been turned away. And she knew why" He still loved the dead miko, Kikyo.
"Don't you 'Kagome' me. Don't you even dare. I know what your problem is! You don't want to. to get emotionally involved. Because you are only going to kill me. Isn't that what you want, my blood on your hands? All for the jewel. So that you can be a human and live with your beloved bag of bones- who, I think someone has forgotten to mention to you- hates you, wants to kill you and drag you into hell, not be loved by you-" Inu-Yasha growled again, growing angry. But Kagome wouldn't let him cut in. "And that's probably good. Because I'm not going to give you the chance to kill me and go on with your idiotic plans. Now I can go. And you know what, baka? I am going to walk out this door, and you aren't going to see me again. And I'm going to laugh. Laugh at my stupidity, thinking you could have anything else in your heart but.. Kikyo and. ice. Laugh at you, knowing you aren't ever going to get what you want." Inu-Yasha could almost feel his heart break. He stared at the ground.
"Kagome." He whispered, begging. He wished he could tell her what was really burning inside of his heart, the one thing that gave him joy in the mornings and lulled him to sleep with a smile at night. There was no answer. He looked up, and she was gone. Inu-Yasha cried for the first time since his mother had died. Something else had died tonight, and that something was his heart.
As Kagome ran, she felt the tears that had come unbidden start to subside. The wind rushing past her felt cool and reassuring on her damp cheeks: it helped to calm her. Up ahead she made out the shape of the Bone Eater's Well, and she slowed to a jog. Before she quiet realized it, she had jumped into the well, feeling hollow and drained, emotionless except for the tiny flicker of despair that threatened to explode into a full fledged bonfire.
a/n: please, please comment, even flamers are welcomed! I'll love you forever if you say to keep writing and you like it, I really will. I'll even mention you in my next chapter, which is soon to come. ^_^ *more cookies*