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Warning: For those of you who don't know, there is YAOI in this fanfic. Yaoi refers to male/male relationships, so if this offends you, I'd advise you to take your closed mind elsewhere.
"Ahhh! Please! Please no!" Sirius sat bolt upright in bed, breathing heavily. He had been having the most vivid dream, the dementors of Azkaban had been closing in around him. Peering through the early morning rays that fell through his open bed hangings, he realized that it was silly, he was only a fifteen year old boy, and dementors certainly wouldn't be coming for an innocent student. In the bed across from him he could hear Remus stirring slightly, making small noises. Above him James shifted and yawned. Peter was still motionless above Remus, Sirius knew this for a fact, because the first thing little Pettigrew usually did in the morning was fall to the floor with a crash.
"S'that you Padfoot?" James said thickly from above, "S'you having bad d-d-dreams again?" He punctured his last sentence with another yawn, two socked feet dangled down, pulling on one of them Sirius extracted a shriek of laughter from his friend. "C'mon Padfoot! You know I'm ticklish." James said in mock anger.
"You two should be more considerate about those of us who are trying to rest." Remus complained as he also sat up, "It's Sunday, you know, that day where some of us like to sleep in." Sirius felt his heart skip a beat as Remus' tired gray eyes bored into his own dark ones. He had been feeling rather funny around his werewolf friend lately, and he had no idea why.
"Sorry Moony..." Padfoot mumbled sheepishly, James jumped from his bed and landed rather awkwardly on the floor. He kicked Sirius playfully as he went to his trunk.
"Is Wormtail still in bed?" James asked incredulously, "after all the noise we've been making?"
"It appears so, lucky him." Remus replied sarcastically, Sirius's heart gave another funny jolt. If James noticed the cynicism dripping from Remus' every word, he didn't say anything about it, he just smiled as he shoved the fat little boy known as Wormtail out of the top bunk. There was a loud "Oy!"
"Are you all ready for a nice day of studying?" Remus continued, as if school friends regularly toppled from the sky... which in this case they usually did. James stared at him open mouthed in horror,
"We studied last night! Maybe that's why you're so tired!"
"It would do you all some good." Remus said casually, "O.W.L's are this year, don't forget." James scowled at him and turned to Sirius.
"It's the Hogsmeade trip today!" James cried desperately.
"Well maybe we could study, and then go to Hogsmeade." Peter suggested hopefully, he had stood up and was now rubbing his backside.
"That doesn't sound like a bad idea actually," Remus said with a smile, "I fancy some butterbeer myself actually." James grinned and ruffled Sirius's long black hair, "Hear that Padfoot? Let's crack some books!" He got up, not even bothering to change his clothes and ran down the stairs to the Gryffindor common room. Huffing and puffing as he was not in tip top physical condition, Peter followed his idol excitedly.
"Shall we?" Remus asked Sirius with raised eyebrows, "I imagine you'll take your time getting dressed first." Sirius grinned roguishly he was a known procrastinator.
Remus turned from him, and getting up from the bed started pulling off his P.J's. Taken off guard Sirius felt the smile fade from his face immediately, Remus's back was covered in little scars and scratches, from his monthly transformations into a werewolf. He seemed beautiful in some strange way to Sirius, his shoulder length brown hair was disheveled, and he wasn't heavily muscled or anything, but the morning sun turned him into something otherworldly.
"What's wrong Padfoot?" Remus had seen him staring.
"Oh... um, just looking for my wand." Sirius lied, as a result he fell painfully to his knees and feigned a frantic search for the object.
"It's on your bedside table." Remus said softly.
"Oh, right, thanks." Shuffling over to the table he grabbed the wand and started undressing himself.
"Padfoot." Remus had interrupted again, "Is something bothering you? I heard Prongs say that you had been having bad dreams again?"
"It's nothing." Sirius said truthfully, dreams didn't matter. He hurriedly got dressed, and by the time he was done saw that Remus had gone to the common room. With a sigh of relief he sat back down on his bed with a plop. He had just realized... his feelings for Remus, were not friendly feelings... In fact, they could even be termed as a crush. "This isn't good." He sighed, running a hand through his hair, "Not at all."
"Coming Padfoot?" Peter's squeaky little voice carried up the stairs, "We're going to the library."
"Don't you want to get dressed first?" The faint voice of James could be heard also. Laughing Sirius left the common room, and his confused thoughts.
The library was rather warm for late winter, and finally even Remus gave up and said that they deserved a break. Since the Hogsmeade visit wasn't going to take place until after lunch, the four boys had half an hour to pursue a leisure activity. Remus was found immersed in a good book, and Sirius had a rousing game of Wizard's Chess with James while Peter cheered James on with increasingly louder squeals, until Remus told him gently to shut up. They made their way to the Great Hall, chattering contentedly while other students mingled around them, Sirius remembered that he had forgotten his cloak in the common room. Telling the others to save him a seat, he doubled back.
Walking fast up the stairs he found himself caught on one set as they changed. Swearing under his breath as he realized he would have to go round a longer route, Sirius froze as he saw someone move in the shadows.
"Snivellus..." He breathed softly. Sure enough Severus Snape was seen with another figure that Sirius identified as Lucius Malfoy. In the darkness the two could be seen close together, well this was suspicious, Snivelly and Malfoy together, probably planning a way to get at James. They were leaning toward each other, what were they doing now?
Feeling his stomach lurch, Sirius realized they were kissing, He turned right around and ran the other way, not caring that it would take ages to get back to the common room.
Concerned about Sirius because he hadn't turned up for lunch, Remus, James and Peter raced up to Gryffindor tower to get him.
"What's the matter Padfoot, you never turned up for lunch." Peter said anxiously, peering at him out of watery eyes.
"Oh nothing, I just wasn't hungry... Sorry guys." Sirius said with much difficulty, "So are we going to Hogsmeade or what?"
Remus still looked concerned, but the others took this nonchalant manner as another of Sirius's little quirks, the ending result had them all bundled in cloaks and shivering, making their way over to the Leaky Cauldron. Inside they took a seat among other chattering students, there was no one there that they knew really well, which Sirius found as a relief, he didn't want to be surrounded by anyone else at the moment. A heavyset witch with a mole on her chin came to take their orders, James ignored everyone's protests and bought them all butterbeers. Sirius drank deeply and was uncharacteristically silent, allowing James and Peter to make most of the conversation. Remus however, kept shooting glances his way, and also seemed slightly disconnected from the conversation.
"Wow, whats up with you Padfoot?" James asked later as they left the Leaky Cauldron, "You were quieter than Moony in there." He messed up his untidy black hair, trying to look cool.
"Just tired." Sirius replied shortly.
"Hey listen," Serious hazel eyes peered out of thick-rimmed glasses, "would you wait for me before dinner? I have something I need to tell you."
"All right." Sirius agreed tiredly, he wondered distantly what James could possibly have to say to him that he wouldn't talk about in front of Peter and Remus, but it probably didn't matter.
Before dinner James kept shooting him meaningful looks in the common room over their textbooks, after a while this got slightly annoying. Now that he had decided on forgetting what he had seen on his way to get his cloak, Sirius was overwhelmed with curiosity. Did James have some awful secret he could only reveal to his best friend? That had to be the only logical explanation.
Dinner came, and students started filing out of the common room, Peter left right away with Remus, who paused and waited for Sirius and James.
"We'll catch up." Sirius said, Remus nodded and followed Peter out.
"What did you want to tell me?" Sirius asked breathlessly as soon as he was sure they were alone.
"Well, this is difficult for me to say, but I trust you won't let anything get in the way of our friendship, right?" Sirius nodded his assent, more curious than ever, James continued hurriedly, "Well the thing is, I've noticed lately that... I'm in love with you."
Author's Note: Yay a cliffhanger! Now that I've got you all anxiously awaiting the installment... ;;; or not... Well anyway, I have big plans for this! I'm so excited about writing my first Sirius fanfic, so please review and tell me if I've missed anything. Thanks!