A/N: Just a little drabble. Jess gets the feeling again. The feeling that it is time to move on. But this time there is someone to leave behind.
You look so peaceful sleepin'
You don't know that I'm leaving but I'm gone
Well I did my best to beat them
But in my head the demons said "move on"
It's there again. That feeling. I have to leave. I have to get up, get my bags and get moving. Keep moving until the feeling is gone. Until I have found peace again, even if it's just for a little while. I know I am fooling myself when I think I'll ever settle down, ever will be able to stay and be truly happy. Not getting the wiggins, not having to fight the urge to leave everytime. I got so damn close this time.
You wake up, you're gonna curse my name
As some time goes by, I hope and pray...
When you think of me
Remember the way that I used to be
Remember the times I held you tenderly
Remember the way that I love you
I didn't want to hurt you. Don't. But I know I will only make you unhappy by staying. You will end up wondering if it hadn't been better to just let me go. I don't want you regretting the decisions you made, so I'm making them for you. You can curse me, yell at me, be angry with me, but at least you won't blame yourself.
I think about the night I met you
I swore I will never forget you
Well I won't
I think about the way you live and breathe
Inside my dreams forever
You'll be better when I'm gone
You'll be better when I'm gone..
You will be. I know you will. You have seen me, seen how restless and rude I was lately. You know something was wrong and you were blaming yourself, when the only one to blame was me. When I'm gone you'll be happier eventually. Your mom never liked me anyway, and Lorelai wasn't the only person who rather saw my backside if you know what I mean. So now they're getting what they want.
'cause I know you're gonna fall in love again
I'm sorry this is how it has to end
The thought that you will fall in love with someone else eventually hurts me really bad. I don't know if I'll ever feel this way again. I can't be sure that I will look back in the end, an old man, realizing that this might have been the best thing I ever had. But it wasn't good enough. It couldn't make me stay.
When you think of me
Remember the way that I used to be
Remember the times I held you tenderly
Remember the way that I love you
When you think of me
I hope in time you will remember the fun stuff we did. The hours we spent talking at the bridge, the times we spent in silence, wandering in a bookstore. The kisses we shared, eventhough sometimes I tried to push my luck.
I'll pick up these bags and turn around
I say a little prayer and hope somehow
When you think of me
Remember the way that I used to be
Remember the times I held you tenderly
Remember the way that I love you
When you think of me
Before I pick up my bags I'm giving you one last kiss Rory. One last goodbye. I'm not good at goodbyes, you know that. So please forgive me for leaving this way. Please understand that it's the only option I have left.
I slowly kiss your cheek and you mumble something in your sleep, something that vaguely resembles the words 'don't go'. My heart goes out to you. It aches, knowing that you will wake up feeling desolated in the morning.
I slowly wipe the strands of hair out of your face and kiss you goodbye once again. Your whisper those words again and it is almost like you know I'm going. I bite my lip and fight the tears that are starting to show up.
"I won't" I softly whisper in your ear.
"I will always be with you"
And in your heart, I hope I will be.
Review please!!!
You look so peaceful sleepin'
You don't know that I'm leaving but I'm gone
Well I did my best to beat them
But in my head the demons said "move on"
It's there again. That feeling. I have to leave. I have to get up, get my bags and get moving. Keep moving until the feeling is gone. Until I have found peace again, even if it's just for a little while. I know I am fooling myself when I think I'll ever settle down, ever will be able to stay and be truly happy. Not getting the wiggins, not having to fight the urge to leave everytime. I got so damn close this time.
You wake up, you're gonna curse my name
As some time goes by, I hope and pray...
When you think of me
Remember the way that I used to be
Remember the times I held you tenderly
Remember the way that I love you
I didn't want to hurt you. Don't. But I know I will only make you unhappy by staying. You will end up wondering if it hadn't been better to just let me go. I don't want you regretting the decisions you made, so I'm making them for you. You can curse me, yell at me, be angry with me, but at least you won't blame yourself.
I think about the night I met you
I swore I will never forget you
Well I won't
I think about the way you live and breathe
Inside my dreams forever
You'll be better when I'm gone
You'll be better when I'm gone..
You will be. I know you will. You have seen me, seen how restless and rude I was lately. You know something was wrong and you were blaming yourself, when the only one to blame was me. When I'm gone you'll be happier eventually. Your mom never liked me anyway, and Lorelai wasn't the only person who rather saw my backside if you know what I mean. So now they're getting what they want.
'cause I know you're gonna fall in love again
I'm sorry this is how it has to end
The thought that you will fall in love with someone else eventually hurts me really bad. I don't know if I'll ever feel this way again. I can't be sure that I will look back in the end, an old man, realizing that this might have been the best thing I ever had. But it wasn't good enough. It couldn't make me stay.
When you think of me
Remember the way that I used to be
Remember the times I held you tenderly
Remember the way that I love you
When you think of me
I hope in time you will remember the fun stuff we did. The hours we spent talking at the bridge, the times we spent in silence, wandering in a bookstore. The kisses we shared, eventhough sometimes I tried to push my luck.
I'll pick up these bags and turn around
I say a little prayer and hope somehow
When you think of me
Remember the way that I used to be
Remember the times I held you tenderly
Remember the way that I love you
When you think of me
Before I pick up my bags I'm giving you one last kiss Rory. One last goodbye. I'm not good at goodbyes, you know that. So please forgive me for leaving this way. Please understand that it's the only option I have left.
I slowly kiss your cheek and you mumble something in your sleep, something that vaguely resembles the words 'don't go'. My heart goes out to you. It aches, knowing that you will wake up feeling desolated in the morning.
I slowly wipe the strands of hair out of your face and kiss you goodbye once again. Your whisper those words again and it is almost like you know I'm going. I bite my lip and fight the tears that are starting to show up.
"I won't" I softly whisper in your ear.
"I will always be with you"
And in your heart, I hope I will be.
Review please!!!
