I stepped into the house and she greeted me smiling, as always. Her smile faltered, though, as she attempted to decipher my expression. "Sumiko…is something troubling you..?"
My best friend died today. The one I've known for years. But you needn't worry, Mayu, it was my fault after all. As with my mother, it's only one less reason for me to live.
Also, I think I might be failing school this year. With all that's been going on in my mind, I just can't seem to bring myself to try, anymore.
My father still rejects me, and refuses to let me prove myself to him, even though he knows how important that is to me.
Everyone I love is leaving me. I have no one to talk to. Whether by death, or betrayal, they're gone.
It's becoming more and more difficult to smile for you.
I'm falling further with each passing day, and Mayu, I just don't know what to do. The problem is all that, and so much more.
I turn to smile, hoping, praying, with all that I am, that this will ease your fears. "No. It's nothing at all."