A/N: this is my first Bobby fic but I really enjoyed writing it. Right now its just a one shot but read it and let me know if you think I should keep it goin!

Disclaimer: yea right.

It's been years since I've seen her but she'll be here, she always is even when I don't want her , but need her. She always knows.

Ma's dead. This funeral is too much for Jack. God I can't do this. At least the funeral is finally over.

Here she comes. She looks good, her hair is shorter but it looks good still dark but shorter but good.

"hi Bobby" she smiled at me, well she tried it was kinda strained.

"hey Drew" I couldn't help but hug her, I just needed to feel her, be close to someone I loved.

She leaned up into me and whispered in my ear, "how ya holdin up sweetie"

I held on to her tighter, "its fine" I lied, she knew.

She pulled away and cupped the side of my face with her hand, her thumb trailed the tear stain that was left from twenty minutes ago.

"I know" that's all she had to say. She looked over at Jerry and Jack.

"he's taken it pretty hard huh" I knew she was talking about Jack.

I nodded, "yea"

"wheres Angel" she asked scanning the crowd.

I automatically balled up my hands, "damned bastard didn't come"

She closed one of her hands around my fist, "don't worry he'll be here when it matters"

Drew killed me in how well she knew my mind, knew what I was planning before I even had it figured out.

She let go of me and walked over to Jack. He looked like he was gonna jump into the ground with Ma. She finally got to him, he took one look at her and fell straight into her arms, crying on her shoulder. Damn this is hard.

Drew said something to Jack but I couldn't make it out, whatever it was it worked cause Jackie stopped balling, stood up straight and kissed her forhead.

I didn't like that. But today I'll let it slide.

I didn't see her again until after Jerry's when we all went home. Angel finally showed, just like she said he would.

We walked inside and were met with the smell of food, which was good cause this shit takes a lot out of ya.

I walked into the kitchen and saw her pulling brownies out of the oven.

She looked over at me and smiled.

"pot roast, mashed potatoes, and green beans because you're supposed to eat green shit, and brownies with walnuts your favorite, and"

she turned towards the counter and grabbed a green bottle, "Heineken your other favorite"

I walked over to her and leaned my forhead against hers.

"thanks" I kissed her lips lightly.

She smiled. I love her smile. "no problem , I'll be upstairs, Ma's room?"

I nodded and she was gone up the stairs.

I walked into the dining room and saw the food on the table, four place settings, and a different colored bottle at each place. She always knew

Heineken for me.

Miller for Jack.

Straight Whiskey for Angel.

Water for Jerry. Pansy.

The guys walked in and we ate in silence.

I finally made it upstairs about an hour later. I walked into Ma's room and saw Drew layin on the bed, she changed into her pajamas black shorts and a tshirt, actually that was my tshirt, some old hockey thing.

"hey" she was so quiet.

"I'm going to the bathroom"

She gave me about a minute before she opened the door and saw me crying, she walked in a kicked the door closed, sat on the counter and flicked the lights off.

She knew I hated people to see me cry, when it was dark no one could.

I laid my head on her shoulder and wrapped my arms around her waist.

Her hands landed on my sides one eventually ended up in my hair, just stroking my head.

I forgot what it was like to have someone just hold you, without an agenda.

"I love ya Drew"

"I know sweetie, I love you too". She turned on the lights and turned the water on , she wiped my face and dried it with the hand towel. "now go talk to them, you know Angel gonna try and bring the crazy psycho bitch home right"

"damn I forgot about her" I replied walking out of the room.

I came back, shit I don't know how long it was till I went back. Anyway I went back , she looked peaceful laying there on her side hugging a pillow, I turned towards the TV, ESPN she really did know.

I turned back and found her eyes open and staring at me, "you comin to bed yet"

I smiled and stripped down to my boxers and wife beater. I climbed in and laid down next to her, she got up quickly.

"whats wrong"

"have you grown accustomed to sleeping with the light on"

I thought for a second, "no guess not"

"I didn't think so" she smirked before turning the lights out.

She crawled back into bed and scooted closer to me, laying her head down on my chest.

"the guys really appreciate what you've done"

"I love you guys I couldn't not do it" I felt her smile.

"I love you baby"

She leaned up and kissed my neck, the only thing she could reach without moving too much, "I love you too sweetie, and I know you don't like the sappy shit but its gonna get better I promise and I wont leave until you want me too"

I held her tighter against me and ran my fingers through her hair.

I never want her to leave.

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