Asphalt Lullabye

by Beautifully-Damaged

I'd rate this 'G' if I could simply because it's so timid for me. John's pov. Mentions of Mary, Dean and Sam. John drives the roads hard while his memories go wild. nothing spectacular 'bout this one.

During all the back roads traveled and through the thousand hypnotizing white lines, the roar of the engine lulls me into memories I don't want to recall.

Thoughts and images begin to consume me..

i'm alone

Dean learning to throw knives.
The huge loo-sided grin he would get when he believed I was proud.
what kind of father remembers these things???

The countless times Bobby has stitched my wounds while reminding me
'you almost didn't make it this time John'

Sam

A wave of frightening comfort washes over me thinking of Sam alone with Dean.
he's good for Dean, at least for now

Through all the sleepless nights and asphalt induced dreams, I realized I never think of you.

Despite myself and no matter how hard I try, the worst moments for me are when I realize I keep forgetting I've forgotten about you.

I'm sorry Mary.