Disclaimer: I will never own HP so don't sue me. I'm poor with no money to bye manga.
Pairing: LMSS & ADSS
Summary: Severus and his thoughts of his own ironic life and living it. More so a contemplation of something he's already realized or so he thinks.
Date: Jan 4, 2006
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Melancholy Thoughts.
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"Your beautiful."
"You will always lie to me."
"It is not a lie."
"More lies."
Severus stepped away from Lucius and turned to stare out the large window and its vast landscape. Every hill lay covered in thick wet snow turning the world into a fairytale for a short few days.
"I hate the snow Lucius."
"Then it will never snow again." Lucius whispered into his ear.
Severus laughed lightly at the false promise. "Another lie. Should I ignore the flakes that are falling now?"
"Only if it makes you happy."
"Nothing will make me happy Lucius."
"Lets got the bed Severus. I promise you'll be pleased."
Severus allows Lucius to lead him toward the overly large bed. Gives Lucius silent permission to strip him, lay down his body and do as he pleases. He lets Lucius whisper words of endearment, love, trust, and so much more. He learned long ago not to listen. Nothing in his live is true. A content life full of lies.
In the mourning Severus will dress silently as Lucius sleeps contently. He will flow to Hogsmeade and walk to Hogwarts though he doesn't have to. At the door Albus will be waiting for him and they will walk in silence through hidden corridors till they reach his office. Then with a cup of tea placed in his hand's he will tell all he's learned in his time spent with Malfoy.
When the tea has cooled Albus will stand and escort him toward his own personal chambers. There they will lay and Albus will promise that he will never hurt again. Kiss every place that Lucius lips had touched only hours previous, whisper the same exact lying words, and leave him alone when they've met some off balance form of completion. When all is done Albus will send him back to Voldemort to lie and deceive like a good puppet. The cycle will be complete and in the end when he's done the same for the half formed man and he has for Malfoy and Dumbledore he'll return to his own dark rooms. Sleep in his own cold bed and give no care to everything else that's happening outside his walls.
At least that's what he's always promising himself. But in a life full of lies such things never really happen.
End.