She couldn't believe Mark did it again. She was again left alone, heartbroken. He was gonna be a father, he was gonna have a family and she wouldn't be a part of it. He was destroying everything she hoped they would be.

No, she couldn't just stay here and watch, she had to move away. To be sure to never have to feel this kind of pain ever again. She was moving back to Boston.

She packed her thing and in one week all her stuff was ready and Dr. Hunt had transferred her to Boston. She explained everything to Meredith who did her best to understand. Lexie didn't want to lose her too, but she couldn't stay there.

~ two months later ~

She was waiting, 30 seconds.

30 seconds and her life could be changed forever. 30 seconds and could become a mother.

How could she had let that happen? Mark would have a place again in her life. And she wasn't ready. She wasn't ready for him to come back and destroy her again. She would never be ready.

Her phone rang, it was Meredith. She told her about the test and her sister promised to call her when the time would be up.

"Mer... I can't look. What if it's bad? What if I can't handle it? What if I tell him and he rejects me? What if everything that could possibly go wrong, go wrong?"

"We'll face it together, as a family. You should look now. Even if you're not ready because you'll never be."

She picked the stick from the floor and looked at it. At first she couldn't see the sign but then it was clear. A little red plus sign was on the stick.

"It's positive" the youngest told her sister.

That's it. That's what was gonna change everything. She was going to be a mother. She couldn't think only about herself. Not any more, she had another human being to think of. Now she would never be alone.

~ later that week ~

Lexie snuck in a OB room around midnight while she was on call. She needed to know that the baby was okay and she didn't want anyone to know yet that she was with child.

She putted the jelly on her stomach and watched the inside of her womb on the small screen. There it was, her baby. She moved the machine from a centimeter and she could clearly see another head.

She couldn't believe it. She wasn't only with child, she was with children.

She wouldn't be able to keep it hidden long. She had to make a decision. Telling Mark or forgetting about him and keeping her children from ever knowing their father.

What would she choose?

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