angst / romance / drama

pairing: NaLu

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summary:

In which, he always remembers, and she tries to forget. —

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Every night Natsu would dream about the moment he'd lost his longtime childhood friend, Lisanna. And every night, Lucy stays awake, hearing him anguishly cry the white haired takeover mage's name out. She bites her lips, pulls the blanket over her head and dared to think of happy thoughts.

Every night, Natsu would lose all reason in dreamland. Every night, Luct would reason with herself, foolishly convincing herself that Lisanna came first, and she came second. Nevermind the fact that Lisanna was gone for years and miraculously showed up again- and during those years, the Celestial mage was the one around to comfort him.

It was only natural that Lisanna came above all.

And Lucy, though now his fiancee, came second. She was replacement, after all. Or at least, so she had come to believe.

"Lisanna… Don't go.." The man beside her, was sweating profusely. In his face, showed hurt and fear and regret. The emotions Lucy herself had started to wear when he looked away, well, all except regret. She would never, not in a lifetime, would she regret loving the dense fire dragon slayer.

Holding back her tears, she brings a hand to his forehead and gently shushed him to sleep. "She's here now, you know. You can see her in the morning, like you always do. She won't go away now."

There were traitorous moments, where Lucy would find herself imagining a dreadful situation between the three of them. She'd ask herself common 'what ifs' questions she could never ask her fiancee, not because he wouldn't answer, because she was scared of what he'd answer. What if both she and Lisanna were on the verge of death? Who would he save?

Natsu turned in his position, "Don't…leave."

Of course he'd choose Lisanna. Lucy knew that, and she tried not to acknowledge that but ignoring it didn't lessen the pain she felt. If any, it made her feel foolish and ignorant, and-

"When will you dream of me?" Lucy tucks in a loose lock of pink hair behind Natsu's ear.

A rogue tear escaped her eye, and she found herself sniffing. 'How pitiful,' she cursed herself.

And that was how the couple spent the night, Natsu cried in his dreams, while Lucy cried in consciousness.

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I'm thinking of whether to upload a next chappie, or keep this as a one shot. What do you guys think? This is my very first fanfiction uploaded on this site! Thank you for reading! Constructive criticism is always welcome 3