I Could Fall
If given even half the chance, I could fall. Right into your arms and out of my solitude. Break the silence without a word; the trickle of a tear, maybe. If you would only let me. I spend my days, my nights, thinking about the promise I made to you. I don't hink you ever really took me seriously, but I meant it. However empty it may be, I cling to it in hopes that someday it will happen. You'll finally wake up, and we could walk down the street together, have fun.
But it won't ever be complete, because you don't look at me the way you look at her. I wish you would. Part of me wishes she never existed, so that I could have you all to myself, but it's too selfish for me to truly wish it. I know Bear says that I'm a child, and BT thinks I am as well, and maybe I am. But that doesn't mean I can't understand love. My heart is torn between friendship and love. I wonder what Bear would say if I told him I loved you, that it was tearing me apart bit by bloody bit whenever I see you? What pearl of wisdom could he offer to make me feel better? I doubt he could say anything that would make it better, make me whole.
If given even half the chance, I could fall. Right into your arms and out of my solitude. Break the silence with a kiss; you'd open your eyes, maybe, and finally see me. See all of me. All I want is you; your touch, your kiss, your everything. But you look at her in the way I want you to look at me. She gets your touch, maybe even your kisses. But even I know she doesn't get everything. And I wonder why you won't give yourself over to it completely. Some hopeful part of me thinks that maybe, just maybe, you don't trust her enough. Maybe you even trust me more. Even if you don't, I know there's always something your hiding from all of us. Even her.
I just wish you would tell me. Maybe BT knows the hurt, maybe Bear knows the hurt, but they still treat me like a child. This is a game, of course, so I don't let them see all of me. You're the only person to whom I've really ever told anything real about myself. If I told you that, would it surprise you? Who knows. I may just tell you one day. But who can wait for maybe's, right?
If given even half the chance, I could fall. Right into your arms and out of my solitude. Break the silence with a single tear, and let you see all of me.
A/N: Well.... mayhap a little OOC, but then again, I've watched only so much of the show. ^_~ Hokay! Now ya see that little button in the bottom left corner? Good. Now push it and review! ^_^
Much *evil* love,
ChasingMaybe