A/N: Jesse and Frannie do not exist in this story.
Do I have your love, am I still enough
Tell me don't I, or tell me do I, baby
Give you everything that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I
Once again, Rafael Barba goes to sleep alone as his girlfriend, Amanda Rollins, works another late night case. He began to wonder if it had anything to do with the loss of intimacy in their relationship. They barely spoke to each other. Even with their busy schedules they always find time to say something to each other. Rafael never knew he'd find himself laying in bed questioning his relationship with Amanda. He never saw it coming. While their relationship was off to a rocky start, they'd adjusted to being with each other because she was too broken to be with him, but he was too shy because it was the Amanda Rollins. But he found himself mesmerized with Amanda and he worshipped her. She was too scared and kept him at arms length, whereas Rafael fought his way loving Amanda and proving to her that she could trust him. She fell for him hard. She was fighting with herself and trying to deny it at first that he loved her, but he showed her what his true intentions were. To love her even though he knew how broken she was. She does love him, she adores him but she couldn't trust herself after every single relationship was a disaster.
He stayed up late but ended up dozing off before Amanda came home from work. She kicked her shoes off before climbing into bed, waking Rafael. "Hey," he murmured. "Hey. Sorry for waking you." Amanda leaned over and kissed Rafael.
"It's okay I was waiting for you to come home but I fell asleep... Babe, do you feel like our relationship is falling apart?" He looked up at Amanda. "What...? Rafí, what are you talking about?" Amanda put her hand on his chest.
"Well, we never really see each other anymore except for the morning before we head to work... we haven't spent alone time together..." He spoke softly.
"I'm sorry I'm putting in so much overtime... I guess I'm just too used to work being the center of my focus. Now, it's 2 am and I'm exhausted so I'm going to sleep." Amanda leaned down and kissed Rafael on the lips before laying down and falling asleep. Rafael laid down and wrapped his arms around Amanda as he fell asleep much better than he had in days. Amanda had been paged for a case before Rafael woke up, leaving him to be getting ready for work all alone.
He sighed when he woke up alone. "Maybe intimacy doesn't exist in this relationship anymore.." he spoke to himself, sadness sparked through his voice. He loved the snuggles and the kisses they shared. But now it seems as if it was forced. He sat up in bed and swung his feet over the edge with a sad look on his face as tears welled up. Could it be she was tired of being loved and adored by him? Was she really used to being treated badly? The realization really broke him as he got up out of bed, getting ready for work.
Amanda walked to Olivia's office, knocking on the doorjamb. Liv looked up from her phone, "yes Rollins?"
"Um, can I talk to you? Privately?" She murmured as she stood in the doorway of her boss's office awkwardly. "Come in, and close the door."
Amanda stepped in and closed the door, shuffling over to a chair in front of Olivia's desk. "What's up?" Liv asks. "I know this isn't a proper conversation to have in a work environment, but I really, really need a favor." Amanda took her lip in between her teeth as she looked down at her hands. Olivia was reluctant to ask what the favor was. She cleared her throat, "um... okay. What's the favor?" Her voice showing nervousness.
"Okay, this is dumb of me to ask," Amanda shook her head. "You know what? Never mind." She spoke quickly as she scrambled out of her seat.
"Is this a really personal favor?" Liv spoke up before Amanda had the chance to dart out of the office. Her hand stayed on the doorknob, Amanda suddenly became more shy than she was the moment she stepped foot in the office. She simply nodded.
"Amanda, please sit down." Olivia spoke quietly. Amanda hesitated, but proceeded to take a seat back on the chair. "Okay, you have a free pass. I am your friend, not your boss. Ask me anything." She spoke with sincerity. Amanda tensed up in her seat. "I don't want to make you more uncomfortable than it already is. Especially when it's about my personal life..." once again, Amanda took her lip between her teeth.
"Well, you're still not telling me what this is about or any details, Amanda." Amanda sighed, closing her eyes and then opening them after keeping her gaze glued to the floor. "It's about my intimate life," she murmured quietly.
"You're going to have to speak up, Amanda." Liv spoke quietly. "I said, it was about my intimate life." Amanda spoke a little louder for Olivia to hear. "Okay..." Liv started to speak. "What about it?"
She was wondering if she was going to regret knowing the details about Amanda's personal, intimate life.
"Rafael and I, we haven't had any intimacy and I was thinking if you could let me go home early since he has to work late tonight and help me surprise him?" Amanda's heart pounded with nervousness. "What kind of a surprise were you thinking of?" Olivia raised her eyebrow. Amanda suddenly looked up at Olivia, shocked that she said what she said.
"I could've tried to do it myself, but I don't want to get hurt, but I was wondering if you could, maybe..." Amanda hesitates to speak the rest of her sentence. She nervously licked her lip, and biting her lower lip. "Just... cuff me to the bed so I'm locked up when he comes home?"
Olivia's eyes went wide, and she chuckled dryly. "I didn't know you were into that type of stuff."
"I'm not... but, I just want to spark up the romance again and let him know that I still love him and want to make up for the late nights at the office for the past month..." Amanda shrugged. "But I'll figure out something else."
"If you're going to have clothes on, I suppose, I can help you." Liv spoke quietly. "Is being topless an okay deal? Just stay in my undies? Or is that too much to ask for?" Amanda suddenly regretted what she said. "I suppose that I can let that slide this one time. As long as I'm not involved with anything other than that." Amanda's eyes went wide at Olivia thinking Amanda was expecting an invite to a threesome. "No! Oh no," Amanda shook her head.
"That would be very, very inappropriate of me to ask my boss what I just asked let alone insinuate the idea of letting you in on a threesome!" Olivia sighed in relief at Amanda's counteraction. "Okay, good. Glad we're both clear on that. Yes, I will grant you early leave from work tonight and I will help you get ready for your boyfriend." Liv couldn't believe the words coming out of her mouth, but they did.
After everyone else had left, it was about eight in the evening and Olivia was walking out, "okay, let's go." She spoke to Amanda who was getting ready to leave as well. She walked out with Olivia as they each went to their own vehicles, Olivia following Amanda to her apartment.
They walked up to her apartment in awkward silence as she let them both in.
"Gosh this is weird," Amanda rubbed her palm against her pants as she set her keys down on the coffee table and hung her jacket up on the hook. "You're the one who asked for the favor," Olivia shrugged. Amanda nodded. "Rafael said he would be home shortly, probably in hopes that I would be home shortly after him so we better get this started..." Amanda took her lip in between her teeth as her cheeks turned a light pink.
"Okay, but this is to never be spoken of." Olivia insists. "Oh, I agree Liv." Amanda nodded. "Follow me this way?" She spoke to Olivia as she turned towards the hallway. Liv followed in suit.
Amanda stepped into her own bedroom, kicking off her shoes, taking in deep shakily breaths. "This is weird for me to be undressing in front of someone I'm not fooling around with," Amanda spoke. "I would imagine so, but would you have wanted Fin or Carisi to help you with this?" Olivia mused to herself. Amanda's eyes went wide in shock of horror. "Oh no! No, Liv no. Please don't say that!" Amanda shuddered.
"Okay then. Get naked." Liv chuckled. "Okay, where's Liv and what the hell have you done to her?" Amanda spoke. Olivia put her hand on her hip and tilted her head with a scowl.
"There it is." Amanda unbuttoned her pants, pulling them down and setting them into the laundry hamper, then pulling her shirt off after. "Where's your cuffs?" Olivia asked. "Nightstand," Amanda pulled the drawer and walked over, handing them to Amanda. Then, lastly, Amanda pulled off her bra. Olivia's eyes scanned Amanda up and down, checking her out. "Okay," Amanda spoke as she gets up on the bed. Olivia walked over to Amanda, she puts her arms up where she wants to be as she hears the clicks.
"Not on too tight?" Olivia asks. Amanda gave them a tug and twisting her wrists a bit. "Nope! Thanks Liv." "Yeah, no problem. Good luck." Olivia started to walk out. "Be sure to lock the door." Amanda notes as she watches Olivia walk away. Olivia stepped out of the apartment, locking the front door.
About twenty minutes later, Rafael came home from work switching the light on for the living room. He sighed realizing that meant Amanda was working late again for the umpteenth time. He shook his head sadly as he kicked his shoes off and taking his blazer off, heading into the bedroom. He switched the light on.
"Hey there," Amanda husked. Rafael looks up, seeing Amanda in nothing but her underwear, cuffed to the bed. He was speechless. "I— how— what..." He looked up and down from the cuffs down to her panties, mesmerized. "Ya ganna stand there or are ya ganna join me?" Rafael's breath hitched as he heard her Georgia lilt peeking through. He couldn't move fast enough to the bed to kiss Amanda. The blonde softly moaned as Rafael kissed her passionately as his hands ghosted up and down her sides. His mouth went down, kissing on her jawline as his thumb traces the elastic of her underwear, then sliding down as his finger teased her sex outside Amanda's underwear. Her legs wrapped around his hips, wanting to feel him for the first time in a long time.
"It's not even my birthday," he murmured against her skin, leaving kisses all over her body. "You and I both needed this. It was way overdue." Amanda panted as she arches her back. "Got... lucky to get off... work early," Amanda groaned as his mouth focused on her breasts. Both Rafael's thumbs hooked around the elastic, making Amanda think he was ready but he moves his hands away, causing Amanda to make a noise of frustration.
"What's wrong, Amanda?" Rafael smirks. "I want you," she whined.
"Want me to what?" He teased. "Touch me, make me come. I need to feel your fingers. Please," she begged as she tugged her arms, forgetting that she was handcuffed to the headboard. "You mean, this?" He slipped his hand underneath the waistband of her underwear as his fingers rub against her folds, Amanda's breath hitched as she rolls her hips against his hand. His palm presses against her as Rafael smirks, inserting two fingers inside of Amanda, feeling how wet she is. "Fuck," her voice high pitched. "You like that, querida?" Rafael growls lowly as he pumps his fingers inside of her, Amanda moaning as her back arches. Rafael curves his fingers as he pumps them fast, Amanda yelped as she was overwhelmed with an orgasm.
Rafael quickly undressed as he grabs Amanda's hips, guiding himself inside of Amanda. Both gasped with a moan at the same time, he could feel her walls still shivering from the orgasm as he thrusts inside of Amanda. "Ohhh fuck!" Amanda yelps loudly as her back arches in pleasure, writhing as she's overcome with another orgasm.
Rafael reaches over and gets the key to unlock the handcuffs, Amanda quickly sat up, straddling onto Rafael's lap. She pushed him back a little as she guided him inside of her, telling him with her eyes not to move. Amanda moaned, rolling her eyes back as she was filled with his throbbing cock, slowly rolling her hips as she cries pleasures from her mouth. Rafael kept his hands on her waist as her mouth crashed into his after sitting still for a moment, she picked up the pace of rolling her hips as another orgasm hit. "Fuck, oh god!" Amanda yelled. Rafael smirks, happy to hear her being pleasured once again. "Rafí," Amanda spoke breathlessly.
He finds leverage and thrusts up as he grips her hips, rolling her against him. "Oh," Amanda said breathlessly as her arms wrap around Rafael's shoulder. "Rafí... please," she tries to speak, he knew what she was wanting. He focuses as he quickly paces himself and then pushes Amanda's hips down, causing her to scream in pleasure as she had a major orgasm. Her whole body shaking as he rolled her hips against himself. He lays her down on the bed as she catches her breath, Rafael kisses all over her.
"God, that was overdue," Rafael murmured as he lays besides her. "Yes it was," Amanda bites her lip as she giggles, kissing Rafael before they snuggled to fall asleep.