It's hard to believe that, four years ago, I was told I was to marry a boy I no longer knew. I say boy because he wasn't a man at the time. He was immature. He still is.
Every night he goes out and parties. Okay, not every night. Every Saturday and Sunday night, he will sit in his room, not saying a word. No sound is heard. Not a single guitar strum. It's rather depressing, actually.
Since the announcement, Nick started to change. He became more of his old self. He started to settle down and stay at home. He would bring me flowers once in a while, and say nice things to me, but we weren't really together.
Then, about a year ago, he purchased a house. Our house. After I moved in, he told me that he would be going on tour. I didn't think it was a big deal. I was glad he was returning to his musical side. However, after a few nights of sleeping in the large house by myself, I became lonely. One night, I decided to call Nick. When he answered, I was appalled.
"Hey, sexy!" a voice spoke on the other end. "Miss me? Have you seen the magazines? You finally want me, don't you?"
Oh, it was Nick alright. Drunk.
"Actually, I just wanted to tell you that my graduation is December 15. Just in case you come home sometime."
"Home? Sure, baby. I'll come home for you."
I rolled my eyes. "Whatever, Nicholas. Goodbye."
After I hung up, I cried myself to sleep. I couldn't imagine being married to someone that went out and got drunk. It was disgusting. I thought about how I really felt, though. I knew I was falling for Nick when he brought me flowers and said sweet things. I never even bothered to get close to any guy because I knew it would be worthless. But, after that night, my feelings went down hill.
Nick's still away on tour. I've seen him everywhere, just not here. He's on magazine covers, his album cover, pictures in his mother's house. He. Is. Everywhere. Except where I want him to be.
I don't like him. I just want him to be there at my graduation, so his mother, and mine, will leave me alone. Besides, it'll look bad if his fans find out that he wasn't at his own fiancé's graduation, right?