this is my first fanfic so leave a review I don't mind if it criticism as long as it constructive criticism FYI I slightly dyslexic so sorry for any mistakes thanks for reading this please take esay on the work it not the best I know sorry also I don't own the any characters or anything else that all Cassandra clare Emma PoV
"Why lie." Mark ask. "Because it easier." Emma replied. "lying never easier." "Well it is in my case." Mark watch me with his intense gaze and his miss matched eyes unsettled her half just like Julian and half his own. "And why is that." "It hard to explain but simply I love Julian and he loves me." "Well of course you do he your parabatai." "Yes but we love each other the same way you once loved Kieran." "Ow." The realisation dawn on his face that turned to a grimiest then it turn to a small grin the type of grin that normally got people to accuse you of being cocky. "I always hoped you two would end up together all my time in fairy because you always made each over stronger." "Mark I just love him so much but if anyone finds out it will destroy this family and I love this family just as much as I love him I just don't know what to do anymore." Emma said and her voice braking.
As Mark held his arms out beckoning Emma forward not only physically but emotionally to. She fell into his arm and his arms came up around her. Now she was closer to him she noticed very fine old wounds like someone had just flung a knife back and fourth across his skin on his arm. This made Emma pissed no one is ever aloud to hurt any blackthorn she wished she had killed Gwyn now and if she ever got that chance again she would take it. She felt his hart betting a thousand beats a minutes Emma learned her head to the side to listen to his heartbeat like a lullaby.
Mark whispered in to Emma ear. "Emma you will do what ever right you always do." She pulled back just enough to see in to miss match eyes so familiar but yet so different. "But how can you know that." Emma ask "because your a good person with a good hart." "How can you know that." "Emma all I heard from Julian and the kids since I got back Is how grate you are I also know you will always make the right choice when it comes to our family."
"Like I said the only chose I can think of is trying to brake Julian hart and the only way I can do that is by him seeing us together." Emma said with a pleading tone. "Why dose it have to be me and not someone else." He sounds all most like a kid arguing with is parents about doing something he doesn't what to do. "Because he seen me with other boys before and he once told me that he doesn't think he could stand seeing us together so your is his chink in his armour that why." "Emma I can't do this not to Julian." Mark said "Why not." "Because he my baby brother or well my big brother I guess."
"I know he your brother but this will hurt him a lot probably brake him inside but compared to what happened not only to Julian but this hole family if the clave finds out do you know what happened if they do." "Not really." Mark ask looking at Emma with that intense gaze and it forced Emma to take a breath. "to start the clave will brake me Julian apart never see each other again that will brake both me and Julian." Emma stop to compose her self be for continuing. "then they start look around here find out about Arthur then they splint kids up between different family and orphanage and taking the kids that will destroy Julian a lot more then us braking his hart."
As Emma pushed off of Mark so she could turned her face away from Mark not wanting him to see her this close to crying. "Mark you the only one who can help me please." As Emma turned to look at Mark who look like a deer in headlight. "Emma I don't know what to say can you just give me sometime to think about this." As Mark open the door he turned back to her. "Before you think this is about you." Mark stop himself she could see him coming to some kind of decision it was in his eyes just like Julian when ever made a decision as well. "I would be lucky to get a girl like you because your a beautiful funny and smart young lady with a million other that make you grate it just that I don't know how or if I can lie to Julian like that."
Emma had felt the heat rising in her cheeks as Mark was talking he couldn't be talking about her could he, She was not beautiful or fun she wasn't even that smart. Without a word Mark turn and left the room well more like fled but at lest he shut the door behind him. That just left Emma standing with out clue of what to do. Emma plopped down on to the bed and tried to sleep but it was hard without Julian like a void missing in her hart.
Julian PoV
As Julian was setting up everything for the pancakes when kit walk in to the kitchen and sat at the table. "So how are you finding things." Julian ask. Kit look down. "It hard but TY being nice enough considering he held me at knife point just a few weeks ago." He said with a small smile like it was a game or something. witch worried even more Julian he had seen that smile on Emma right before she did something stupid or was remembering something stupid she had done before. "That good I guess what about the rest of the family." he ask to get his mind off of Emma "Well Octavian been avoiding me I don't think he likes me." "It not that he never really liked new people to start with but since Malcolm he just needs sometime." "oh ok" "And by the way calling him tavvy only are parents ever called him Octavian." Julian could hear the sadness in his own voice.
Just then livvy walk in smiled at kit in that way girls do to boys they like and kit smiled back a little shyly. Then livvy look to Julian and said "so where my pancakes." "I'm almost done with kits." Then kit spoke up. "Why don't you have mine. Then kit smiled at her again and livvy blushed and looked away and sat down across from kit. Julian made a mental note to have the sex talk with livvy. The rest of breakfast was uneventful, till Emma walk in she avoided Julian gaze and sat and talked the kids. five minutes later Mark walked in sat and didn't say much. After breakfast kit offered to cleared the table so TY and Livvy only have to wash, dried and put away. Julian was caching the glances between Kit and Livvy.
As Julian and Emma was leaving the room still with out saying a word to each other when Mark called out to Emma. "Emma can I talk to you for a minute." as Emma stopped and turned stopping right in Julian way blocking him from leaving. "yeah sure what up mark." she said with a smile that could either heal him or brake him depend on who it was for like when she was with Camron each time she smiled at him it was like being stab in the heart. I was going to go out for a walk along the beach I was hoping I would have the pleasure of your company." Emma looked lost something Julian hardly saw "Wait Mark are you sure." she ask very quietly. Mark laugh "of course I would like you to come if I didn't what you why I ask you I be by the front door in 15 minutes so you have time to get ready." "Ok" she stammered again somethings she never did. As Emma left Julian saw the red in her cheeks. Then followed by Mark as Julian stood stunned as was everyone else in the kitchen
Mark PoV
Why did I do it why the hell did I ask Emma out I ask her for time to think about it I didn't I just jumped in and in front of everyone I am a bloody idiot. he was pacing at front door waiting for Emma he glanced up and saw pair of eyes peering from the too floor. A minute later Emma appeared at the landing walk down the stairs toward him dressed in a purple summer dress and white cardigan and a pear of white flip flops. she look like a fairy princess and he should know since he seen a few when he has visited seelie court and the unseelie court. As Emma walked down her hair flowed around her like a golden waterfalls she gave him a quick smile and he felt his stomach flip upside down. As reach him he held out his hand for her to take "so my lady ready for are walk." "Year sure." She reach for his hand as they walk through the front door.
Emma PoV
As they walk towards the beach Emma said "so are we going to talk." Mark look back at the institute. "Yeah just what to make sure we can't be overhead." They walk for about 5 minutes hand in hand before Mark start to speak. "Emma I'm sorry about asking you out that why without speaking to you beforehand." "Well a warning would have been nice." Emma said trying to sound angry but failing because of her smile. "But have you thought about what we talk about last night." ask tentatively Mark got this far away look in his eye. "I have one condition if we do this." mark said very quietly "And what is that." "I can't live a lie so if we do this we do this properly." Emma was almost scared what that meant. "What do you mean by that." She heard the fear in her voice. As if mocking her Mark jump in front of Emma and dropped to one knee.
"Emma carstairs will you do me the pleasure of being my real girlfriend." Emma felt the heat rise to her cheeks for the third time in less then 24 hours "Mark stand up." As Mark jump he had a look of sadness cross his face then he hid it under that arrogant grin of his. "So Emma will you be my girlfriend." "Mark I got to be honest with you I'm never going to love the way I love Julian." "Emma I don't expect you to love me straight away and I know you will always love Julian just like in someway I will always love Kieran." "And what if I never love you." Mark look like he was smacked in the face. "Emma you will never know unless you try." "I don't know how to Mark." "And never do I EM but all we can do is try." as they stood in silence till Mark spoke up. "Please Emma we both need this something to distract us from those we love and what the difference between pretending and actually being apart from one dose not include lying to everyone. Emma was get sick of this back and forth. "Mark do you actually what to go through this." "Yes I real do." and to prove his point He lends in and kissed her just a peck on the lips and his lips felt so soft it was like a feather.
The rest of the walk was uneventful till they got back to the institute doors and found Diego and Christina having a argument. "No Diego I'm not going back to Mexico!" Christian shouted with a steal in her words. "Christian please you know everyone what to see you and the way you left no words no goodbye nothing most of the family still thinks your dead please just come for back to your family." Christian Seen Emma and Mark then shoved by Diego and in to the institute.
Julian PoV (before the walk)
Julian stood at the top floor watching as Mark stood by the door pacing back and forth waiting for Emma. Julian hate him self for wanting to hate mark as he watch Mark kind of hoped she didn't show up but he known it was wrong he should be happy for his brother and his parabatai and if his parabatai was anyone but Emma he would be. Dru and livvy appears from around corner as dru see Julian she smiles and said. "So we are not the only ones who what to see how this go." "Yeah somethings like that." Julian replied As dru pops her head over railing she tapped Julian on the shoulder. Julian look of the rail as Emma came in to view he wished he had a hearing rune on. Mark reach his hand out to her and Julian almost throw him self of the railing at Mark but held himself back then Emma and Mark left the institute.
Julian head to the side of the institute and watch Mark and Emma from the top floor till the disappeared from his view. Julian found him self not sure what to do he found him self wondering back to the top landing waiting for Mark and Emma to come back.
Julian wait for ten minutes till someone come back though the door Julian expected Mark and Emma but it was Christian. Christian rush in followed by Diego who was shouting. "Christian just talk to me please!" "Diego just give me sometime." Christian said and walk away Diego stayed there running his hand through his hair. Emma and Mark walk in a few seconds later hand in was glad that when he was waiting he placed a hearing rune on his arm."
"What have you done now." Emma ask Diego look at her "I ask her to go back to Mexico to be with her family." As Julian watch he could see Emma what to punch Diego right then and there. "where did she go." Emma ask and Diego point in the directions of her bedroom. Emma leaned to mark and quickly kiss him and left to find Christina.
Emma PoV
As Emma found Christian room she could hear sobbing coming from inside so instead of knocking Emma barged in to her room. Christian was laying on the bed sobbing in to her pillow "come you know I don't do sodding so stop it now." Christian dose stop barley look up from her pillow. as Emma sat on bed Christina sat up to and swung her legs off of the bed dangling next to Emma's. Christina sobs for a minute before stopping then place her head on Emma shoulder. "So what going on." Emma ask as she stokes Christina hair. still with a little bit of the sob Christian starts talking "Diego what me to go back to me to go back and live in Mexico."
there was a silence for a few seconds till Emma said "Christian since you got here all you done is say how you miss your mom and your family and I bet they miss you." "Emma don't get me wrong but there not my only family I worry about." Emma look at Christian hard. "you said that all your family was in Mexico." Christina smiled all the family I was given when I was born yes but not my close family they are the ONCE THAT I CHOSE to call family." "and who is." that Emma ask knowing the answer already." "it you and Julian mark and the other blackthorns.
the next moment Emma hugging Christian. As Emma held Christian she whisper "I love you like family and it because I love you is why I am telling you to go, if you don't go and see your family it going to be one of the thing you will regret for the rest of your life. and it dose not have to permeant you could just go for a week or two but you will always have a home with me and the blackthorns." Christian crushed Emma in to the hug tighter. "Emma squeaked out a sentence before Christina crushed "don't you need to go talk to Diego about the trip." Christina let Emma go and got up when in to the bathroom and splashed water on her self hugged Emma once more and set of to look for Diego.
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I have a idea of Julian going off one night and start drink and fighting and mybe go home with some girl (don't tell emma)