Today didn't feel like an ordinary day. I had left Carlisle and my family to go to college instead of following them to a new school. I couldn't bear the thought of returning to high school again for some particular reason. The thought bored me to death. I wanted to move on for once, like the rest of my class.

I will probably regret this decision, as it was impulsive. Everything I did seemed to be impulsive. When you've lived for over 100 years, you have to do something to make your life not dull.

There was one speck of light in my life, but I ran away from it.

Bella Swan.

The name hurt me to think about. My throat instantly sizzled at thought of her blood. I had never smelled anything more alluring. The first time I met her, I nearly took her life. So I left.

Alice was angry at me for leaving, and I never knew why. I convinced the rest of my family to stay at school to play their part. Rosalie was happy with that.

I still keep in contact with my family by visiting them often. Alice will call me if danger ever occurs. I missed being around them, but they also made me feel like something was missing in my life.

I couldn't stand their repetitive thoughts thinking "If only Edward had a mate…"

It was nearly two years ago when I left. At first, I stayed with the Denali clan, but Tanya drove me crazy-and not in a good way. I then toured the world, taking in all of its beauty. However, no matter how beautiful each site was, loneliness consumed my existence. Every single day Bella Swan came across my mind.

Being a vampire that never has to sleep feels like you can never recharge your mind for the next day. I missed being able to sleep so my slate would be clean in the morning. Now, it is difficult for me to distract myself. I never get to wipe my slate clean. Each detailed thought clings to my mind. Maybe that was why it is so difficult to forget about Bella.

Even without her presence, I still couldn't stop thinking about her. She was always popping up in my mind. Because when I was actually away from her blood, my mind analyzed her actual presence. And her presence made itself known.

My single memory of her replayed like a movie scene in my mind. Vampires are gifted with a great memory. She was just a human, yet I couldn't stop thinking about her milky white skin, her perfectly shaped pink lips, and her chocolate brown eyes filled with wonder…and fear.

I didn't exactly leave the best impression when I last saw her.

Another thing about her that captivated me was that I couldn't read her thoughts. It was so frustrating. Usually if I have a memory of someone, I could also replay his or her thoughts in my mind to understand the situation. I would never know what Bella Swan thought of me.

I never spoke to anyone about my fascination with Bella Swan. They'd laugh at me. The only person who seemed to like her was Alice.

I could never bare the thought of actually being close to Bella. She would be dead in a second.

Animal blood has never tasted the same since that day. That was the annoying part of the situation. My daydreams about her appearance were nothing compared to my bloodlust. It was best to leave.

And now, here I sit in a boring college classroom at the University of Washington.

College is full of young adults who believe they are the smartest creatures alive for actually getting into a decent school. To me, they seemed to behave just as childish as they were in high school.

My gift felt like a curse when I had to listen to all of the horny men that existed on campus. It completely made me feel disgusted to think of degrading women in such ways that their thoughts desired.

And another thing I hated about college- the lectures. Why should I bother listening to what some fickle minded human has to say about a topic when I already knew the answer in my head? Maybe this entire situation seemed like a waste of time. Maybe my existence is a waste of time.

I sighed. What did I get myself into?

I attended college before, some that were much more prestigious, yet I felt drawn to this school in particular. It would be a different experience for me.

I also felt drawn to study literature this time around. I already knew everything about science and medicine.

I got to class early, as usual and sat in chair in the far back. The lecture hall was nothing like the ones in forks. The seats resembled those in movie theaters except there was an added small desk that you could move in front of you if you needed it.

The students began filling in, and the thoughts of young college girls overtook my mind.

"Oh wow, he's cute"

"I'd show him a good time. Name the place, baby"

"I hope I pass this time…"

"Fuck, is my cleavage not showing?"

I glared at the girls who thought of me as "attractive". They wouldn't like to know what would occur if they actually got that close to me. I laughed to myself as they avoided sitting next to me.

All the seats filled up in the lecture hall except for the only one to the left of me. Professor Gitner made his way in, about to start. I heard another heartbeat that seemed to stand out from all the rest. A familiar brown-headed beauty nearly tripped her way in afterwards.

You have got to be fucking kidding me.

Bella Swan blushed tomato red as the students silently laughed at her arrival. She quickly scanned the room, looking for a place to sit. She was wearing a deep blue, long sleeved shirt that made her milky skin look even more delicate. Her hair was natural and still chestnut brown. Her backpack looked overly large for her as she stumbled her way in.

"Fuck. Fuck. FUCK!" I thought to myself.

Was God trying to punish me? Did he want me to murder this poor girl and possibly all of these witnesses? I suddenly regretted not hunting these past couple of days. But seriously, what the fuck was Bella Swan doing here? Shouldn't she be at the sunny University of Phoenix School that I saw in Alice's mind?

Why did she have to ruin my life? It was the first day of school for Christ's sake!

And now, Bella locked eyes with me as she saw the only seat available. Fear was obviously her reaction. Her heart went into overdrive. I saw her swallow as she turned around behind her at the door.

Was she going to leave? Some part of me felt disappointed.

But then, she took a deep breath and started heading this way. I took a deep breath too because I knew I wouldn't be breathing at all.

Bella apologized to all of the people she had to step over in order to get to the seat next to me. 10 more seconds and she'd be in her seat.

I almost felt human, vulnerable. I'm sure if I were human, sweat would be pooling up on my forehead. Instead, venom was pooling in my mouth. I didn't even need to smell her. It was like my body knew. And I could feel her warmth before she was even close to me. My body vibrated with excitement.

Just as Bella was about to sit down, the last girl she walked past had her foot at the wrong place at the wrong time. Bella being as clumsy as I remembered from high school, tripped over her foot and started falling towards me, about to hit her head on the chair in front of her. I instantly sat up and caught her, a protective instinct taking its role. Or maybe I didn't want my prey injured.

My cold hands gripped her soft, warm waist as she stumbled into my chest. Fuck, she felt so good. Her warmth radiated off of her, calling to me. When my hands made contact with her body, I felt an electric shock going through my body. I could feel her strong pulse, quicker now, just by gripping her. But as all of this happened, I accidentally gulped in a huge breath of air.

My throat once again being burned with such an intense thirst, I thought I was hallucinating. I held back the growl in my throat. She smelled even better than before, much better than my memory. All of this happened in a matter of seconds. My mind started doing the same as before: picking out the fastest way to consume her. I analyzed all of the possibilities, but suddenly Bella made herself known to me again.

"I'm so sorry." She breathed. "Please don't be mad…" I watched her eyes not making contact with me as I still held her, unmoving. My demons were quieted as a foreign feeling knocked me out of my daydream.

I couldn't hurt her.

She suddenly made eye contact with me, the monster, as I still hadn't let go of her. I could feel her heart hammering in her chest. The sound made my throat burn more. But I had to be stronger. I had to save her.

"It's fine." I muttered blankly as I tried to recollect myself. I let go of her and instantly felt colder. She was still breathing heavily as we both quickly sat down.

I felt awful when I realized her words "Please don't be mad…" Ugh I hated myself.

For the rest of class, Bella nervously fidgeted with her hands, never seeming to be comfortable. I couldn't even pay attention to what the professor spoke about. It was completely irrelevant when Bella was sitting next to me.

I felt like every wire in me vibrated, wanting me to be closer to her.

I caught her looking at me a few times out of the corner of my eye. I tried not glaring at her, but it was no use. She just smelled too good.

I saw her about to speak a few times, but remained silent just like her mind.

It killed me not knowing what she was thinking.

My main priority would be to get out of this classroom as quickly as possible so I could leave once again. Hopefully it would be for good this time.

I felt trapped because I was all the way at the end of the row of seats. The wall was to the right of me, forcing me to wait for everyone to leave first. Kill me.

So I'm new to this whole writing thing so please don't hate my story. No one really talks about Twilight anymore where I'm from. I guess I was supposed to grow out of it. I'm not sure if anyone still reads Twilight fan fiction, but I am still fascinated by it. I'm actually in college at the moment, so I thought this would be fun to write. Hope you enjoy.