Author's Note:
When harmless Ryou-chan gets sexually abused, will anyone be able to save him from the torments of his own soul? By the time his worried Yami steps in it could be all over for him…Disclaimer:
graphic violence, rape, major angst, Bakura abuse, disturbing literature.Shattered Sanctuary
Drowning in a sea of misery
Hands trembling violently
Eyes shining fearfully
Waiting for someone to set me free
Shadows play on my façade
Even in the dark my exterior is pale
Beyond being mortally afraid
The normally optimistic attitude failed
Pride. Dignity. Self-respect. All stripped and thrown away
Like the clothes ripped from my skin
There was hell to pay that eventful day
But I know it was me who had sinned
I had deserved it quite obviously
To have such villainous individuals take me so ravenously
Breaking me down continuously
Corrupting life as I knew it immensely
Bite marks left on my body
Horrendous gashes everywhere
Comments both cruel and haughty
All made because of a horrible dare
Shattered sanctuary
Nothing is held sacred anymore
Somewhere in my memory
Resides this bitter war
A strangled spirit
Struggling to breathe through suffocation
Screaming although no one will listen to it
Suffering from degradation
Speech hung in suspended animation
Lips too bloody and bruised to whisper a sound
Wishing to be at some desolate location
Where I could never be found
Gazing through my fingertips
Not seeing my own reflection
Just a tiny frightened child clinging to wild chestnut wisps
Tears and cuts staining a formerly flawless complexion
Detrimental intentions
Unable to handle the truth
Rage overpowering me without hesitation
Breaks a mirror along with my youth
Shards of glass imbedded in my hands
Realizing my mind is snapping
The sight of myself I can no longer stand
As my tarnished wings lie un-flapping
Innocence lost
Ashes of a ruined soul
Sanity was the only cost
In this victim's role
Feeling so filthy
Needing to be clean
No matter how many times I bathe, I'm still horribly dirty
By me, this damaging taint is seen
Tired…I feel so weak…
After all that I've been through, just let me sleep
There's no more tears for me to cry, so I won't weep
Arctic abyss I've fallen into, I'm in too deep
Great escape
It'll all be over soon…
How many pills will it take
To drain my life's lagoon?
Ten--twenty--thirty, maybe?
Sadly, the bottle won't answer me
Holding them gingerly
I study them intensely
Life literally flashing before my eyes
All the years of drifting and pain
Hoping for a quick way to my demise
My own life I will claim
Eyes wide shut
Don't make me watch…
Getting myself out of this rut
By swallowing this sweet surrender down the hatch
Stinging sensations
Brought to the side of my face
A voice screaming, "What have you done?!" raises more complications
Horror seems to be the present case
What's that? "Aishiteru…"you say?
Liar…I know you never loved me
Everyone knows that, for you, I was just a good lay
Go away…just leave me be…
Beckoning eternal night
Any minute now, I'll fall
Yearning to bask in the moon's incandescent light
My name I hear you call
Your cries I can't ignore
Along with that sad expression
How could I let myself believe I was nothing more than your whore
When, in all honesty, I was your most prized possession?
Irreversible regret
Oh, God…I'm so sorry…
Tenshi-chan, you're the greatest person I have ever met
Though my heart knows it's too late for an apology
An everlasting embrace
So tender…so warm…True love I finally get to taste
With your affection I'll be reborn
Complete and whole at last, I'm no longer torn
Heal my heart
I'm in the arms of an angel
I should have known from the start
That you totally understand how I feel