It was a few nights back. The first time her and Bellamy had shared a bed. He had been so gentle with her every step of the way as if she were a virgin. He had made her come twice before finally giving in and filling her with his juices. Once with his fingers gently probing her insides and his mouth roaming her torso. And the other with him pumping into her trying to steady himself, not to go to fast, not to hurt her.

To him, she might as well have been a virgin, she sure blushed like one. Whatever experience she had had with space walker or before him must have amounted up to nothing compared to him.

The way he had so easily made her bend and melt to his touch. The way her body turned pink through the whole ordeal. The way she couldn't contain or silence her moans. The way she pleaded with him to finally mount her.

Even the way she came onto him at the beginning of that night. She had walked into his tent, gotten into a fight with him about one thing or another, to be honest neither of them could remember what the fight was about by the time it had ended.

He hadn't been really listening to her in the first place anyway. She started by listing things she needed for medical supplies and he just stopped listening. He would just sit there on his bed and roll his eyes saying, "Yeah, yeah princess. You need this, you need that, I got it, I got it. I'll get it all tomorrow."

But that's what started it. She got tired of him not listening and screamed, "What do I have to do to get you to listen to me and take me seriously!? Do I have to take off my top like the skanks that normally come in here for you!?"

And without thinking, that is exactly what Clarke had done, she had taken her shirt off angrily, bent on getting Bellamy's attention. And boy did she ever have it then. He eyed her. Mostly shocked at first but enjoying the view. And especially enjoying it as she turned red.

She had tried to grab her shirt to put it back on, but he grabbed it.

"Congratulations princess, you finally have my complete and utter attention." He said as he walked over to her and stood in front of her staring down at the site of her getting completely flustered. He smirked.

And that did it. Clarke had take her hands and pushed against his chest to try to shove him away. But he grabbed her and held her there. And she started to cry silently.

"Whoa what's wrong princess?" He had asked at her sudden tears.

"You! You always act so calm and cool and detached! You're face always just teases me with that damn smirk! Do you have any idea what it's like to want someone who has no interest in you!?" She stopped, she couldn't believe she had just said that last part out loud. She was shaking with fear, she knew he'd fucking torture her every minute of every day over this. She just knew it. She knew he'd laugh right in her face. The princess had a crush on him.

But he hadn't had laughed. Instead he grabbed her and had kissed her as he got undressed. They both agreed afterwards it was a huge mistake. Clarke had said she had a crush on him and it had went to far. That she had no real feelings for him and it was stupid what they had done.

Bellamy hadn't said a word as she started to get up and leave. He grabbed her."What are you doing?" he asked calmly.

She didn't know what answer to give him. Surely he didn't like her, like her. It was just a heat of the moment thing right? Her heart skipped a beat.

"It's raining Clarke, you'll get soaked from here to your tent? Besides am I that horrid that you're so eager to run away as fast as you can?" he asked with a laugh.

It was his pride. He wanted her to stay the night so his ego wouldn't be bruised. She felt like slapping him across the face and he could tell.

He sighed, "Look Clarke, it's only one time, like the sex was only one time. Stay the night and you can go in the morning. That way you won't get sick."

"Just once she had sighed as she agreed and got back into bed with him. That was there unspoken rule. Just once would any of this ever happen. Both had agreed to it.

But as Clarke fell asleep in his arms, she felt pain in the pit of her stomach. She knew it was a mistake. She knew he would only ever do this once with her. That that was the only time any of this should ever be done. But she couldn't help but want it more than once, as she drifted off to sleep.