AN: HELLO MY NAME IS AUDREY AND THIS IS ONE OF MY FRIEND HARPERC23'S FICS I AM TAKING OVER. I HELPED WRITE THE FIRST TWO CHAPTERS AND KNOW WHERE WE WANTED TO TAKE IT SO JUST REMEMBER TO REVIEW.
COUPLES: Ryan/Taylor, Seth/Summer, Lindsay/Spencer, Kaitlin/Johnny, Anna/Zach, Luke/Jess.
LEARNING TO BREATHE (CH.1 – Cut Myself On Broken Glass )
Four months, that's how long it's been since I've seen your face, your smile, your beauty. Four months ago I had an older sister, who although a bit screwed up, I still loved more than anything. Now here I sit, in front of your tomb stone begging the tears to come but for some reason stay hidden inside, everyone has tried to move on. Ryan even finally found comfort in Taylor Townsend of all people, Seth and Summer who had become distant reunited, Lindsay met Spencer who has pulled her from her depression. Anna and Zach are considering getting back together, nothing's official yet, hell even Luke Ward and Jess Sathers found comfort in one another. And me? Who do I have? Our negligent father who came back for the funeral but has been missing for the past three months? Our emotionally unstable mother who has become best friends with the medicine cabinet? Or the boy who we played tug-of-war over who isn't worth either of our time? He comes by every day, tries to get me to talk, to say something with lies that he loves me when it's your ghost he's chasing. I send him away every time, I don't have much use for him or his lies. Marissa, wherever you are I hope that your happy, and warm, and loved because without you all of that has left me. I'm hollow, an empty dark shell of who I once was and who I will never be again…
"Kaitlin?" the voice yelled out through the cemetery breaking her from her thoughts
Turning towards a light shining upon her she glares at the person holding it
"Kaitlin how long have you been here?"
"Five hours, why?"
"It's freezing out here, lets get you home" the voice pleaded but Kaitlin wouldn't budge, sighing in frustration he sat down next to her and looked at her in wonder.
"Why do you fight me so much?"
"Why are you here? Why do you pretend like you care about me?" Kaitlin asks without any emotion
"I do care about you Kaitlin" he tried again
"You care about Marissa, it's always been Marissa and in case you didn't notice I'm not her Johnny." She looked at the boy whose faced had saddened over the words he tried to reach for her but she pulled back.
"Don't"
"Kaitlin, please" he wanted nothing more than to hold her, if she would only let him
"Johnny when are you going to get it huh?" Her anger took him by surprise and she only waited a minute before running off, him close on her trail. They ran for what seemed like hours but when she finally stopped there they were, on the beach, just like the night he told her she would never be Marissa. The night he broke her heart and left her to cry.
"Kaitlin, why did you bring us here?"
"It's obvious this is where you told me, I wasn't good enough, that I wasn't here." She screamed at him.
"I'm so sorry for that, I was drunk and pissed, I didn't realized what I had till it was gone"
"You mean Marissa?"
"NO I MEAN YOU!"
She stared at him now with tears in her eyes, he quickly made his way to her and scooped her in his arms. She cried in his arms, she allowed herself to cry in the one place she vowed never to be again and she listened to his whispers wanting more than anything to believe them.
"I love you, your everything I want and more, I loved Marissa but not the way I love you."
"You don't love me at all" she tried one last time
"No I do, I tried not to but I can't pretend anymore, I want to be with you, I want to help you heal, please let me"
She looked up at him and realized that for the first time he could be telling the truth, that maybe by losing Marissa he had seen it was Kaitlin he had wanted all along. Leaning up on her tip toes their lips crashed together and the passion that had been buried and not allowed to come out, came rushing back all at once and she felt like herself again, she just wondered if it would last.
AN: END OF CHAPTER 1, REVIEW! CHAPTERS 2-6 WILL BE UP BY FRIDAY!