Hey guys, Lunamon810 here. Someone of you may remember my previous story "Die Young" about a girl named Kimber/Kimberly (Supposed to have been Kimberlyn. xD) who was the Zoldyck's female child, and some stuff happened to her...well I decided to rewrite it. "Die Young" was both supposed to be serious, and comic relief for me in a way such as the out-of-characterness of Illumi, which I know is a horrible combination. So I decided to rewrite it for it's worth. So here's the first part. Rilluya is Kimber's new name, so she'll fit in with the names of the other Zoldyck children, just in case you couldn't figure that out on your own. Well, enjoy~

Disclaimer: I do not own Hunter X Hunter!

Claimer: I do own Rilluya!

"Big brother, wait, please!" I begged, trying to hold back tears. He sighed and turned to look at me, a slightly disapproving look on his face. He was only a year older than me, but of course he was an inch taller. I grabbed his arm.

"What is it Rillu?" He asked, sounding slightly annoyed. I hated that I was annoying him, but I couldn't let him leave me here.

"Big brother, take me with you! Please, I don't wanna be here anymore. I want to go with you, I want to see the world without having to assassinate someone, I hate it here." I said, tears slipping out. "Please..."

Killua sighed. "I can't take you with me Rillu. I can't be responsible for you, and I need to do this on my own." He pushed my arm away, then he was gone. I stood there crying for a good fifteen minutes, until Illumi's voice reached my ears.

"Rilluya, you shouldn't cry over something such as someone leaving." Illumi said with his monotone voice, though I could tell he was disapproving of my crying. I quickly wiped my tears away on my sleeve and looked at him.

"Y-yes sir." I hesitated for a second. "Illumi. Will you go get Killua back for me?"

"Why would I do that? Unless mother or father tells me to, I'm not going to run after Killua." My heart gave a disappointed beat. Luckily enough, mother told Illumi to go after him soon after that encounter. It occurred to me then that it was almost my fault that Killua couldn't do what he wanted to. I sighed, walking down the hallway, and knocked on Alluka's door. I hugged my twin when he answered it. Or she. Whichever way you want to look at the long story I can't exactly explain well myself.

"Oh, hi Rillu," Alluka said smiling, hugging me back. Then he sounded confused. "What's wrong?"

"Killua ran off, and now Illumi's gone to go get him."

"Oh, I see." Alluka said, sounding sad now. He hugged me tighter. "Well, even though big brother isn't here, at least we still have each other still, right Rillu?"

I pulled away from him and smiled, using my black sleeve to wipe away my tears again. "Right. Big brother wouldn't want us to be sad about him leaving anyways. And Illumi will get him back for us."

"But Rillu, isn't him having to come back going to make big brother sad?" Alluka asked, tilting his head. I sighed.

"Maybe...But...mom ordered it. There's nothing we can do about it except hope Killua doesn't get hurt and doesn't act up when he comes back. I hate it when they hurt him," I mumbled the last sentence, then sighed. "Anyways Alluka, I have to go down to training. I'll see you later."

"W-wait! Rillu!" I turned to look at him, and he put a bracelet with black stones in the palm of my hand. He smiled at me. "For good luck!"

I smiled. "Alright. See you later, Alluka," I said and walked away, putting on and fiddling with the necklace. I went downstairs, and eventually reached the room in which I would be whipped for endurance training. I stripped down to my cropped tank-top style shirt and shorts and cuffed myself into the air by chains. Then Milluki walked in, making me scrunch my nose in disgust. "What are you doing here?"

Milluki smirked. "Well, Rilluya, since mom and dad are busy, and Illumi is gone, I'll be carrying out your training today." Crap. Milluki wouldn't let up at all. He'd kill me. He picked up the whip from the wall, the electric whip. No one ever used that one on me. He smirked once again and hit me across the stomach with it, but I did my best to give no reaction, like my parents and Illumi would want me to. He hit me again and again in the same spot, and it took him a good ten minutes to make me twitch. "Ha! You're not as tough as you seem."

"Is that all you've got?" He slammed the electrically charged whip into my right rib cage, which hurt much worse. I just hung there, looking completely unaffected as he started full out whipping everywhere he could hit, my stomach, my ribs, my arms, my legs, my neck, my head and face. I remained stone faced the entire whipping, even though I started to bleed so bad I knew if he didn't stop soon I'd pass out from blood loss. It was no shock to me when he went over the time I was supposed to be trained, and everything faded to black.

When I woke up my younger brother Kalluto was beside my bed. He straightened up a little bit. "Mother told me to watch after you, since you lost so much blood.

I nodded, though my neck seared with pain when it did, so I decided against moving my neck again if at all possible. I also noticed I was bandaged up. I wondered who did that. Knowing our busy family, probably Kalluto. I looked at the bandages beneath my long sleeves. "Stupid Milluki..." I mumbled.

"He did go a bit overboard, didn't he?" I nodded and laid back.

For quite a while this continued, the whippings from Milluki, the passing out, the bandages. But I never flinched, never broke. After about a week I was pretty much used to the pain and ran around the estate, practicing my speed. I talked to Canary for a little while, before returning to running. "What am I going to do about these whippings? This is going to kill me if Illumi and Killua don't get back soon. If they don't, then if I'm dead, I'll look weak." I sighed. There was no way to win. I went back to my room and drew my two older brothers. Then me and Alluka. I put them in my dresser drawer, then heard a knock on the door. "Come in."

My twin opened the door and ran at me, hugging me tight, almost knocking me to the floor. "Rillu! You're okay."

"Kind of. Ow." He released me, somewhat gasping.

"Sorry Rillu!"

I smiled and ruffled my twins hair. "That's alright Alluka. What's up?"

"I've been worried about you, but mom and dad wouldn't let me see you until now. Are you gonna be okay Rillu?" I smiled reassuringly, knowing I was about to lie to my twin.

"I'm going to be fine Alluka. Don't worry."

Finally, I woke to Killua, Illumi, and Alluka beside my bed instead of Kalluto. I smiled. "You guys are home. And you're alright."

"Yeah, we're alright, but you aren't," Killua said, grabbing my hand. "I'm going to kill Milluki. I promise."

I smiled. "Thanks big brother."

"Don't thank me Rillu. I should have been here to protect you, I'm your big brother, it's my job to protect you." He said with tears in his eyes. "I'm so sorry Rilluya..."

"It's okay big brother. I'm going to be okay. And I'm Rillu, remember?" I tilted my head, though my neck protested with searing pain.

"Y-yeah." He smiled, then his expression. "But I'm afraid you're probably not going to be okay... Rillu..."

"You mean..."

"Yeah." Killua nodded, hiding his face with his hands while he cried. I felt tears build up behind my own eyes.

"Don't cry big brother. I-I'll be okay! I know I will! I-I have to be! I...I'm a Zoldyck! We don't die!"

"Just because we're assassins doesn't mean we don't die, Rilluya. We can still die. We're not immortal."

"None of the Zoldycks have died from something like this...ever...I-I can't be the one to die. I can't bring that shame on this family." Killua removed his hands from his eyes.

"It's not your fault!" He said, then looked shocked at himself for yelling. "I'm sorry. He hugged my arm, crying into it. I felt helpless. I looked over, Alluka was sobbing.

"Alluka, Killua...it's okay. Don't cry over me, please, I'm not worth it guys." This just made them cry harder. "Guys..." I felt the life leaving me. I felt desperate, and I sat up and pulled all three of them as close as I possibly could. "I love you, all three of you. Killua, Alluka, Illumi. I love you guys."

"I-I love you too." Killua said.

"I-I l-lo-ove y-yo-u t-t-oo, R-R-i-ill-u." Alluka sobbed. It didn't surprise me when Illumi didn't respond.

I laid back, unable to sit up anymore and closed my eyes. Alluka repeated himself, this time calling me 'twin', which we did from time to time. "I love you too, twin." I couldn't open my eyes anymore, it was too much energy. The very last thing I heard was Illumi say with no expression whatsoever. "I love you too, Rilluya." I'm pretty sure he only said it so he didn't have to wast time being yelled at by Killua and Alluka later, but it was enough for me.