Chapter One - The Quiet Before The Storm
Things done in the dark, will surely, come to the light.
The ride to Nassau University Medical Center is somber and quiet. The skies are a gloomy blue and a smokey grey. The sun has long disappeared and the rain is forming in the clouds. It was the quiet before the storm.
Liv is becoming fully aware of her freedom. She feels as if there is no trace of alcohol or drugs in her system. The spinning of her head, the drowsiness, and the nausea are no longer severe. Fin drives and Amaro holds Liv closely in the back seat. She allows her head to rest on his chest. She's vulnerable but too hurt to care about her vulnerability. Occasionally, Fin glances at Liv through the rear view. Both men try to hold their emotions together. Liv, unknowingly, needs them to lift her up, in any way. There is no room for her partners to break down in pieces. There is only room for them pick up her broken pieces. And there is so many broken pieces. So many.
She wants to sleep. An electric shock would be nice. More than anything, Liv longs for a shower. There's a wetness and a stinging pain between her legs. Psychologically, she feels his balls and erect penis still groping her bare butt. Her nostrils may never get over the scent of the Beast's urine. His sperm.
Just the thought of that humiliates Liv all over again. She quickly takes her head off of Nick's chest. She doesn't want him to smell her because he'll know. He'll know everything Lewis did to her, to her body. Liv can't have them knowing all the details. How would they look at her, or think of her, if they knew everything.
She doesn't even know everything. There is still a huge part of her time with Lewis that is unaccounted for, but she prays she never remembers. She knows that she beat Lewis but can't remember doing it. "Liv-What's wrong?" Nick worries when Liv takes her head away from his chest. He tries to get her to look at him but her face is turned the other way. "Look. We're almost there right. This will be over soon." Nick reassures his partner when she doesn't answer his question.
The hospital? They'll have to do a rape kit on me. Liv's mind spins out of control while her body language stays frozen. She can't go through a rape kit. She just wants to be left alone. She wants to scrub her entire body until it bleeds. She yearns to scrub her body until it's brand new. Liv knows the rape kit is a standard protocol. She knows that it needs to be done right away. Her heart jumps when her own thought surprises her, he should have just killed me.
The sound of Fin's ringtone causes Liv's body to shudder. Nick notices her reaction and signals her to take his hand. "Captain, it's over," Fin begins to update their father-like captain, Cragen, on Liv and Lewis in one breath.
Just hearing his name Captain places a calm and serene patch on Olivia's broken heart. She takes hold of Amaro's hand, tightly. He tries his best to smile as their eyes meet, but it falls short. Liv doesn't notice because at the same time, she's closing her eyes shut. The minute she closes her eyes, the voices of her ordeal invades her mind. His voice invades her mind. Most of the words-the statements she remembers him saying, and the rest is still unknown.
Don't let this go to trial baby. Big beautiful brown eyes. I'll do you cold. You were so sweet when you were knocked out. You don't have the balls. She put me in her mouth. I love hardware stores. What about you, huh, what do you want? Give me a smile, give me a smile, give me a smile...
"Liv? We're here." Benson opens her eyes to find Fin reaching for her, attempting to help her out of he car. She glances at Fin to be sure she can trust him. It's Fin. She gives him her hand and steps out on the concrete ground of the hospital. Amaro comes around the car and allows Liv to lean on his shoulder. Fin closes the back door and announces he's leaving to park the car. Just as Fin pulls off, another squad car comes flying by in rapid speed. The squealing of the tires alarm both Nick and Liv. They turn towards the car and Brian comes rushing out.
Out of breath, Brian respond, "Liv."
To Be Continued...