Hiya!
This takes place after the season premiere. It didn't go where I thought or intended, but once I realized that it was too much its own thing to be malleable, know? Anywho, reviews are much, much, much, much (x infinity) loved! And that means both praise and criticism pretty please! Without further ado, happy (hopefully) reading.
She'd been stupid.
But so what?
This wasn't her damn fault. Damon wasn't her fricking responsibility. Yes, she'd known he was hurting; he didn't get senseless drunk for nothing. But, hell, she was not walking down Katherine's road. No effing way. And she couldn't take it. She couldn't take the freaking games Stefan and Damon were always playing. She'd always been a straight shooter, so deception and dancing around the purple polka-dotted elephants in the room didn't come naturally to her and she just wasn't going to do it anymore.
So she let him have it, like he damn well deserved, but her timing had been very, horribly wrong.
She figured that could be forgiven.
After all, declaring her already shouted-from-the-rooftops love for Stefan wasn't anything new. Why, why on earth couldn't Damon just understand that?
Not that it mattered now.
Jeremy's death irreversibly destroyed any and all good things she had ever felt for Damon, might have ever felt, and ever would have imagined feeling.
She hated him.
And she now probably understood him better than she ever had.
Now, she knew as intimately as he did the betrayal of innocent, unmarred, faithful trust. Trust that had, at one time, kept her whole world spinning as it should.
Now, she was more like him.
Now, she could hate just as passionately as he could.
But she didn't have undying devotion that would allow her to let him back into her scope. If she saw him, it was very likely she'd stake him. And take pleasure it in.
Another point that made her like him.
He'd kill for Stefan; she'd kill for Jeremy.
Two sides of the same coin.
He'd created in her the very opposite of what he'd loved in her.
And this pleased her.
Thanks bunches for reading. :)