Smile For Me
Disclaimer: I don't own the ff8 characters...squaresoft does...
Author's Note: you can make this person whoever you want it to be...
Sometimes I feel like a spy. I'm watching every move you make.You never notice me anymore. You never talk to me like we used to. It's as if I never did ever exist in your life. I never made any difference. I wish I could go back to the time when you actually cared about me. Maybe we could be friends again. You say we still are, but what kind of friends never talk to eachother? I don't think you even recognize me anymore... I used to take it pretty well, cheered by the fact that you told me, "Friends forever." So maybe we'll always be friends, distant friends that never talk. But at least you still count me as a friend...right?
I saw you yesterday, talking to one of your better friends. I guess you could feel someone looking at you. You always could tell what I was up to, but you don't let on about that anymore... When you turned around, you smiled. I thought---hoped, you were smiling at me. The person I knew so well shone through your friendly, good-natured smile...
Before you met her and left me here. But no, you weren't smiling at me, you were looking past me at someone else. It hurts a lot now, I'm happy for you two...but why couldn't it be me with your arms around me? Why couldn't she be with someone else? ...why did she take you from me...? She was my friend... You said then, that you'd never, ever loved me before, but the way you joked with me then... everything you did led on that you did, like me before you met her... I miss you so much... I'm just not good enough to deserve you though...
If only I'd taken chances while I could, and told you I loved you...but that's just me, I take risks, but not when it concerns telling people I love them. Not when it involves emotional risks. It's the emotional loss that gets to me. If you never talked to me again, if we weren't even friends anymore, I don't know what I would do. I will only take risks when it doesn't concern my emotional side. The pain of regret is hard on me, but you made it clear you don't want anything to do with me, so I'll be happy, if you are. That's all I can do. My life is turning to "What if's" and "If only's"...
Smile for me, just one last time...
Disclaimer: I don't own the ff8 characters...squaresoft does...
Author's Note: you can make this person whoever you want it to be...
Sometimes I feel like a spy. I'm watching every move you make.You never notice me anymore. You never talk to me like we used to. It's as if I never did ever exist in your life. I never made any difference. I wish I could go back to the time when you actually cared about me. Maybe we could be friends again. You say we still are, but what kind of friends never talk to eachother? I don't think you even recognize me anymore... I used to take it pretty well, cheered by the fact that you told me, "Friends forever." So maybe we'll always be friends, distant friends that never talk. But at least you still count me as a friend...right?
I saw you yesterday, talking to one of your better friends. I guess you could feel someone looking at you. You always could tell what I was up to, but you don't let on about that anymore... When you turned around, you smiled. I thought---hoped, you were smiling at me. The person I knew so well shone through your friendly, good-natured smile...
Before you met her and left me here. But no, you weren't smiling at me, you were looking past me at someone else. It hurts a lot now, I'm happy for you two...but why couldn't it be me with your arms around me? Why couldn't she be with someone else? ...why did she take you from me...? She was my friend... You said then, that you'd never, ever loved me before, but the way you joked with me then... everything you did led on that you did, like me before you met her... I miss you so much... I'm just not good enough to deserve you though...
If only I'd taken chances while I could, and told you I loved you...but that's just me, I take risks, but not when it concerns telling people I love them. Not when it involves emotional risks. It's the emotional loss that gets to me. If you never talked to me again, if we weren't even friends anymore, I don't know what I would do. I will only take risks when it doesn't concern my emotional side. The pain of regret is hard on me, but you made it clear you don't want anything to do with me, so I'll be happy, if you are. That's all I can do. My life is turning to "What if's" and "If only's"...
Smile for me, just one last time...