Hi Everyone my first M!shep/Kaidan fanfic!
WARNING THIS IS A YAIO SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE THEN...DON'T READ! Song by Barbra Streisand called In the wee small hours of the morning. If you want to listen to it while your reading the lyrics. www . you tube watch?v=IDHrs-ocWpw&list=FLopNVcfDH58Cz-SyvnM_ZEQ&feature=mh_lolz
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A sullen face stared out into the empty void of space. The only sound that could be heard was the hum of the engines and the creaking of the bulkheads.
Normandy-SR2 was travelling through F.T.L towards the Citadel. The different shades of blues and purples filled the darkened room, the colours reflecting across the polished surfaces.
Major Kaidan Alenko stood leaning against the observation window lost in memories. An exhausted sigh passed his chapped lips, glancing over to the small clock sitting next a lamp.
02.03am.
"Shit, is that the time?" mumbled the Major. Sleeping hasn't been easy for the spectre, it's gotten a lot worse ever sense coming back from Thessia. That was four days ago. Every time he closed his eyes he could hear the battles being raged around him, the screams of the fallen Asari. Reaper forces tearing their way through any defence the Asari put in the way. Just as the sounds of battle would die down, an loud ominous sound erupts out of nowhere. Massive bug like machines descend from the sky, another blast of that ominous sound stabbing fear and despair into the local resistance. As more and more of the Reapers landed it signalled to all those who were fighting.
Thessia has fallen.
"Still not sleeping Kaiden?" came a low voice ripping the biotic out of his depressing thoughts. Turning to face the man he has admired from the very first mission on Eden Prime.
"Hey, Shepard. What are you doing up?" he asked trying to sound normal while holding back a yawn. Shepard just stood their leaning against the door, piercing blues eyes adsorbing every detail of the one person who kept him going over the years. Kaiden was his drive to stop Saran and Sovereign, the one night they spent together, the one night which made him feel complete was with Kaiden.
Even now as he watched the man he loved, he could still remember the way they moved against eachother. The small keening noises coming from the LT's throat turned the commander on even more. Feeling their biotic's flaring against one another, as the pleasure increased so did their biotic's.
That was all cut short when the Collectors attacked, everything happened so fast. Fire and explosions happening all around, with Kaiden standing there arguing about staying with him.
"I'm not leaving here with out you." stated Alenko defiantly, staring right at him. It was taking him every ounce of control not to grab him and kiss the Lieutenant. He knew in his gut that there was a high chance that he may never see Kaiden again.
"I said get to the escape pods. That's an order." he shouted authoritatively, ignoring the dull ache in his chest. Kaiden flinched ever so slightly at the tone, but being the obedient solider did as he was told.
"Aye, Aye." as soon as those fateful words left his chapped lips, a dead weight settled in his queasy stomach. When Shepard looked around hoping to still see his lover standing there waiting for him, all what was in his place was raging fires.
From there on after everything was a blur, getting Joker to the escape pod, hearing Jeff shouting his name as the force from the weapon sent him backwards. Spinning uncontrollably in the weightlessness of space, watching helplessly as Normandy plummeted towards the frozen world below. Alarms and lights peeped and flashed loudly inside his suit warning him of ruptures, franticly trying to stop what precious oxygen remained from venting out into space.
Images flashed before his cobalt eyes, his entire life seemed to face before him. All his hopes and dreams, everything he succeeded in and all his failures. The world around him began to fade...
Kaiden...
"Hey, John." a soft voice brought the commander out of his depressing memorise. Electric blue eyes met glistening amber ones full of worry. It took the Vanguard a couple of seconds to relies, tears where silently trickling down his cheeks. Wiping the offending tears away wondering why the hell the tears came from all of a sudden. Catching a glimpse of Kaidan's soft brown eyes, a warm feeling filled his aching heart.
"John..." tentatively Kaidan closed the gap between them, only a foot away from each other. Time seemed to stand still, as if they were the only beings in existence. John's fight or flight instincts were kicking in, there was soo much he wanted to say to the smaller male, but couldn't.
'He looks so handsome...There so much I want to say to you Kaidan, but I can't.'
"Kaidan.." whispered Shepard.
"Yes, John?" breathed Kaidan, as he draw even closer. His eyes darting briefly to those chapped lips he craved to kiss again. A wet tongue slipped across his own cracked ones. Cobalt eyes followed the fluent movement, before looking back into the rich pools of emerald.
"I-I err..." finding the words getting stuck in his throat, Shepard inhaled a sharp breath before saying;
"I'm sorry." with that he moved away, not even daring to spare the Major a look as he fled the observation room. Reaching the elevator, John punched the button to his cabin.
Kaidan just stood there watching Shepard leave without another word, or glance. A dull ache began to spread through his heart, bowing his head as warm tears slid down his tanned cheeks. Clear droplets fell like rain onto the polished floor.
'Do I really mean nothing to you..'
The moment Shepard was in his cabin, his biotics flared violently. The more his anger boiled, the more his biotics flared.
"GRRRR" an intense mass effect glowed around his clenched fist. Spinning around on his heel, he punched the nearest wall, which was his fish tank. As the biotic enhanced punch connected with the glass, Shepard was launched back by the sheer force of the blast. Both tanks exploded outwards sending millions of pieces of glass everywhere, droplets of water splattered over every surface in the room. Shakily Shepard got to his feet, holding onto one of the selves for support. It took him a few seconds to crack open his electric blue eyes, taking in the destruction of his fish tank. All what remained was a few staggered bits of fish and glass. Anger and annoyance he shouted at himself;
"Way to go John! What are you going to do next? Shoot yourself?" kicking his desk chair.
"Commander, are you alright?" asked EDI over the com. "I detected a spike in your biotics, along with multipliable biosignatures, scattered all around the cabin." taking a deep breath Shepard replied;
"Everything fine EDI." looking at the now destroyed tanks. All traces of anger evaporated almost instantly, "Well...I'll be needing a new tank, and some fish." he stated rather sheepishly.
"Understood Shepard. ETA just under six hours." replied EDI's crisp voice.
"Thanks." sighing loudly, allowing himself to fall back on to his king size bed. Time passed as he just laid there staring through the skyline, his mind wandering back to Kaidan.
'Why can't I simply tell him that I love him?'
'Fear. That's what. You're afraid to love, because you couldn't bare it if anyone died.' answered a distant voice.
'I suppose, I couldn't bare it if I lost Kaidan or any of the others.' craning his head he looked at his clock sitting on a bed side table. 03.26 am.
"Am I going to get any sleep?" he groaned out, rubbing his eyes tiredly. A defeated sigh escaped his chapped lips, with the slightest movement his omni tool activated. Pressing a few symbols, static filled the cabin instantly. Wincing at the intensity, he fumbled quickly to pick up a signal, after several attempts the signal cleared up. The music started to drifted it's way to his ears and the soft melody and meaningful words went to his heart.
When the sun is high in the afternoon sky
You can always find something to do
But from dusk till dawn
As the clock ticks on
Something happens to you
In the wee small hours of the morning
While the whole wide world is fast asleep
You lie awake and you thinking about the guy
And never even think of counting sheep
When your lonely heart has learned it's lesson
You'd be his if only he would call
In the wee small hours of the morning
That's the time you miss him most of all
As the piano played a beautiful solo, Shepard walked over to the picture of Kaidan. Tentatively, he picked up the picture staring at the man he loves. Unknown to him, Kaidan was slouched against the cabin's door. Tears were streaming down his tanned cheeks, falling like rain onto the polished floor underneath. His once rich chocolate brown eyes were now red and full of emotions. No matter how much he whipped at his eyes, the tears they still fell.
When your lonely heart has learned it's lesson
You'd be his if only he would call
In the wee small hours of the morning
That's the time you miss him most of all
Just as the final verse was sung, a small noise caught John's attention, putting the photo back in it place, he walked towards the door. The moment he reached the sensors limit, the door sprung to life revealing an empty corridor. Sapphire eyes searched the empty corridor for any signs of anyone being up there. Finding no evidence he walked back in, feeling empty, he couldn't put his finger on why.
Knowing that he wouldn't fall asleep anytime soon, he submerged himself into the mountain of paperwork which seemed to be ever growing.
"Shepard, wake up." came a soft voice, gently nudging his shoulder. An incomprehensible grunt answered the Asari. Again she nudged him a little harder, still Shepard didn't make get up. After several more harder jabs, in the end she walked into the en suit, finding a empty container and proceeded to fill it up with ice cold water.
"This is your last chance Shepard, wake up now or I will pour this cold water over you. Your chose." threatened Liara, holding the container over the biotic's head.
"You wouldn't dare." murmured John, knowing the Asari wouldn't. He couldn't be more wrong.
Splash!
The moment the freezing water connected with him, he went rigid from the coldness and the shock of what Liara did. He could feel droplets running down his back.
"I told you." stated the young maiden smugly. "We're about to dock at the Citadel. Also Kaiden seemed to be rather reserved this morning." she mentioned casually, as she studied the commander.
"Ohh." was all the man could say as he took off his soaked top. He knew she was dig for answers and he wasn't gonna give her any. Still her unwavering gaze watched him as he walked into the bathroom. Moments later the sound of running water could be heard. This had become a common thing between them, Liara would wait outside for him while he showered, sometime conversing. This morning was no different;
"So why does your fish tanks look like they exploded for?" she asked, eyeing the shattered pieces of glass and fish.
"I have no idea why." the lied flawlessly making eye contact with sceptical ones. EDI said something about too much pressure." he stated nonchalantly, as he shrugged his shoulders. Nothing more was said no the matter, an uncomfortable silence followed.
"I'm hungry, let's eat "breakfast". If you can all it that." he mumbled as he finished putting the standard turtle neck top. Liara simply rolled her blue eyes at him;
'He really hasn't changed'
"Liara, you coming?" asked an amused commander. A faint blush spread across her cobalt cheeks, earning a chuckle from the other man. Not trusting herself to speak, after being caught, so she nodded her answer. With that they both made their way to the mess hall, to have "breakfast".
"Attention all personnel. Docking with the Citadel in five minutes." announced joker over the com.
'This is going to be along day.' thought John as he made his way to the mess.
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