Chapter One.
"You never loved me, did you?" Never had I heard words so untrue. That was the second last thing Noah Puckerman said to me on that day, the day everything changed, the darkest day I ever lived.
"Puck wait!" I tried to stop him. He turned to face me and I tried, believe me I tried to make those words come out, the ones that'd make him stay. What was I doing? I did love him, and I still do, I was standing before a guy who had just done the sweetest most heart melting thing for me and I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I love him but no part of me is ready to plunge back into what we once had, I wasn't brave enough to even risk myself getting hurt again.
Puck glared at me waiting for my response. Nothing… so he scoffed and stormed off.
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I don't know what it was that made me snap that day, maybe it that stupid assignment Mr Shue had given the glee club "Apology's and regrets" he wanted us to find a song that either apologized for our mistakes of represented our regrets. It really got me thinking though. Quinn! Quinn was my biggest regret, not being with her but losing her. If there was anything I learnt from my "fling" with Shelby it was that I am a family man. I was stupid to ever think I'd get that with Shelby but at the time she was the logical option. Quinn however, she was love, and I'd do anything to get that back again. Now I would probably get tossed in the dumpster if any of the football guys found out the song I chose, but as girly as it was it was perfect, it summed up exactly what I wanted to say to Quinn.
So I stood in front of the glee club with my guitar and began.
"So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night, and I go back to December all the time. Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time…
…Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times, I watched you laughing from the passenger side, and realized I loved you in the fall…
I miss your pale skin, your sweet smile, so good to me so right, and how you held me in your arms that September night, The first time you ever saw me cry, Maybe this is wishful thinking, Probably mindless dreaming, But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right, I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't, So if the chain is on your door, I understand.
So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night, And I go back to December, turn around and make it alright, I go back to December all the time."
The glee club applauded as Rachel Berry wiped a small tear from her eye. "Bravo Puck" she cheered. "Puck that was very impressive, very raw and honest, well done" Mr Shue proclaimed.
"Thanks" I tried to collect the courage to look at Quinn, those damn butterflies in my stomach had me wanting to puke. "I really needed to express my regrets over how I acted in a past relationship, Quinn that was…" I wanted to apologize to her but before I could finish she leapt up from her chair, tears streaming down her face and stormed off. Next thing I knew I was bolting after her.
I found her at her locker, head buried in there as she pretended to look for something important.
"Quinn?" Seriously can these butterflies just die already! "Quinn, that was for you, that song in there. Quinn my deepest regret is losing you, and I would do anything for you to give me a second chance." She looked at me silently, giving away nothing so I continued with whatever I could find. "I know I've hurt you, but I promise I am different now, you remember what we had don't you? Our love was undeniable" Still she stayed silent, glancing down at the ground with a certain look that said everything the realization sunk in, she didn't feel the same things I did, and maybe she never did.
"You never loved me, did you?" and with that I left. I had to get away from that torture. She called me to wait and for a second I thought maybe she'd say those words that'd make everything good again, but nothing. I remember bursting through the doors of McKinley running into the car park and kicking a bin. I rounded a corner to find my car and that was when I heard the sound, the last thing I heard that day, screeching tires and the thud of my body flying into someone's windscreen, then darkness.