Things Unsaid

By: Lana Augustine

This story takes place in University Life.

Rating: M or Mature

Katori - Kuh-Tori

Chapter One:

Castiel and the Crowstorms

I was sad to see that Lysander wasn't on stage with him. They had been as thick as thieves in our younger years at Sweet Amoris High. So to see them not together broke my heart but then again that was just life. Life comes in and breaks you apart, you can't do anything about it. I mean what do I know... Castiel and I had only dated a few months until life came in took us by the throats. I chuckled not because it was funny but because we were so naive to think that a long distance relationship would really work.

I took a few sips of my Bloody Mary trying to think of something else. How could I when Castiel was only a few feet away from me singing his heart out. I swear for a second our eyes connected with one another before he looks away hitting a high note ending the song. His singing was beautifully sinful. My heart ached and thumped like it never has before. I shook off the wishful thinking. There were at least fifty other girls in here and he could be looking at any one of them. It's not like I stood out of the crowd in any way with my black shirt, shorts and sneakers. I walked back over to Chani who was at the bar flirting with a pretty redhead. She looked and waved me over.

"Molly this is my friend Katori. Katori, Molly." She says gesturing between us. I take the last sip of my Bloody Mary sitting it down between the two of them.

"Hi!" She says cheerily I smile back and greet her.

"So the band played pretty well though they're still not close to my top bands, it was alright," she says shrugging her shoulders.

"They were ok…" Molly laughs at the statement it was like I made a joke. It dawned on me she might be a little drunk

"You seemed a bit focused," she says taking a quick sip of her tonic and gin. I felt my heart sped up as I thought about Castiel.

"It feels a bit weird ya know…" I say looking back to the now empty stage. "Seeing him again actually living his dream," I say with a smile.

"Oh right you used to go to high school together." she says thinking it over.. "He was your boyfriend right?" I didn't get a chance to answer as my bladder was sending signals to my brain.

"I'll be back I need to use the bathroom," I say walking off to the left of the club before colliding into Melody. I've been trying to avoid everyone I knew from high school. I should have known better than that. It wasn't going to happen I ran into them everywhere. And I always manage to say the wrong things to make them dislike me.

"Ouch!" I said as we both hit the floor me a bit harder than her. She grumbles and stands up before speeding off in the opposite direction. She could have at least apologized for bumping into me or helped me off the floor. I dust myself off getting into the long line. It was a twenty-minute wait just to use the bathroom. I could have gone out back and peed by then. I didn't go outside and eventually made it into the stall. I walked out patting my hands on my short since they were out of paper towels. I walked past the line not giving it a glance. Chani and Molly were only a few feet away. Chani's hand resting on the inner part of Molly's thigh. I blushed at the thought of Chani's hands hiking up a bit higher.

My heart felt like it was ready to jump out my throat when a hand found its way around my waist and forced me to turn around just past the bar. Castiel was standing in front of me his red hair was pulled into a half up half down ponytail. His beautiful stormy gray eyes locked with mines. It felt like they were going to pop out of my sockets at any given moment.

"Hi…" He says giving something that looked like a smile. I stammered out something that sounded like a dying cat. He just stared at me looking me up and down. His groupies and a few other nearby people were now staring at us. He finally let go of my waist crossing his arms.

"I didn't know you were back in town…" He says a bit hurt. The room got hot most likely from the non-stop staring. Castiel was like a celebrity in our small town.

"I didn't get the chance. Plus I don't even have your number anymore. If it's even the same one..." I say looking around at anything but him. I was lying I was scared the he would reject me.

"It is, It's good to know that your still as awkward as ever." he gives a smirk. "Little girl." I felt my heart clenched at the long unforgotten nickname. I wasn't little anymore. I filled out a lot in my breast and hip areas. I knew he was just teasing me like he used to. It was for old times sake than anything else. I shuffled my feet I didn't know why I was being so awkward. This was Castiel I was talking too he wasn't a stranger. He was my ex-boyfriend who I still may or may not have some kind of feelings for…

"Do I still look like a little girl to you Hmmm?" I poke my finger into his chest he gives a laugh grabbing holding my hands to his chest. His eyes roamed my body one more time. I try to fight back a blush as he paid close attention to the small amount of cleavage visible from the v neck. His cheeks turned a bit pink before disappearing.

"Yeah you still look like a little girl to me," he says dropping my hands looking around the club.

"I'd recognize that face from anywhere. What did you think? That I wouldn't see you." He shrugs placing his hands on his hips. I shake my head before looking up at him.

"Well no I didn't," I say simply he gives a scoff.

"Really Katori you were standing right in my sight of vision," he says just as a crowd of fangirls came up screaming and blaring on. Some throwing death stares my way. There was a girl with short green hair holding out a pen begging for him to sign a photo. He gave a nod and a slight smile signing his signature.

I still couldn't believe it. He was practically famous it filled my heart with joy. I felt my eardrums shatter as the girl let out a cry of ecstasy running off. He turned to me before more girls could attack.

"Wanna talk somewhere more private?" he asks wanting to get away from his groupies. The glint of mischief in his cool gray eyes caused a shiver through my body.

"Yeah of course," I say he gestures for me to follow behind him. He was walking fast-breaking through the crowd occasionally looking behind him to see if I was still there.

The whole bar was watching us or maybe it just felt like it. I spotted Yeleen who was glaring at me from the bar. She was a total bitch so I was being extra petty by giving her a wave and a smirk.

Castiel grabbed my hand tugging it as we went through the curtains that lead backstage. It was less noisy back here. The staff was removing the instruments off stage and clearing wires that snaked around the floor. He stopped at a door looking at me then pushing it open. Inside there was a small loveseat and a table. I'm guessing it was where the staff took their breaks. Castiel pats the empty seat next to him as he sits down.

"I didn't lose your number…" I say to him wanting to break the silence as I sat. He looks over to me. "I just didn't know how to go about telling you I was back," I say sighing pressing my back into the couch.

"Telling me would have been the easiest. " He says also leaning into the couch. I felt my heart speed up as I realized how isolated we were from the rest of the nightclub. I could feel my dark features vibrate from the blood constricting in my cheeks. We were so close to each other all I had to do was move my hand to the right of me and we would be touching.

"You know perfectly well it's not that easy. I wasn't just going to get in touch overnight." He says nothing just looks up at the ceiling. "What would you want me to say... Hey, I know I been gone for like four years but I'm back in town lets hook up." Castiel turns to look at me with a cold expression something he was so good at doing. I forgot how good he was at being cold and distant.

"Your right your the one who left and didn't come back for me," he says now looking at me in a challenge. I cross my hands over my chest and sat up scrunching my eyebrows together.

"Is that what you wanted to be a damsel in distress? " I joke with him to lighten the damp mood that hung up in the air. He gives out a hearty laugh.

"No of course not." He says laughing again I give him a smile a moment of silence surrounds us.

"I really liked the concert it was nice to see you play again," I said staring up at the ceiling shutting my eyes.

"Good I'm happy you liked it." Was his reply.

"How do you like the Fame?" I could feel him shifting around clearly uncomfortable with the topic.

"I hate it, but I'm happy just to be playing anywhere I can." He says. I couldn't see him with my eyes closed but he sounded content with the answer. I sigh before answering laying my head on his shoulder.

"True, it is a blessing." I'm assuming he hummed in approval as his hands snaked their way around my waist closing the distance. It was innocent. We were asking about each other's life in the four years we haven't talk.

"So now you sing and play guitar…" I trail off. "You know there was a time when your voice was only of me." I peek open my eye to see Castiel looking down at me with a serious expression on his face.

"Yeah, that's a long time gone Katori..." I close my eyes to hide the slight twinge of pain that shot through me.

"Lysander wasn't around anymore and if I wanted to keep doing what I was doing I needed to start singing." He says. "I never found someone to replace him so this was the solution." He adds.

"The girls seem to like it." He chuckles at the comment giving a soft laugh. My thoughts drifted to Chani who was probably thinking I left her. I poked Castiel in the chest.

"I need to get back to my friend," I say to him getting up making my way to the door.

"Oh, I see you got a date with a guy huh?" I roll my eyes. He grabs my hand tugging me into his chest. His expression darkened as he peered down at me with those dark grey eyes. It was as if he was looking into my soul.

"Who is he?" he says inching his face closer to mines. I could feel my heart starting to pound as he moved closer and closer to my face. Did he really think that I was on a date with a guy? He was always the jealous type..

"I'm not on a date I'm here with my friend Chani she's a girl," I say looking into his eyes. He looks down at my lips then back at my eyes. "Chani huh?" he says his mouth now near the shell of my ear. He quickly snaked his hand around my waist. The air around us was getting warm my heart thumped rapidly. My mouth went completely dry, I couldn't form words. He licked the outer most part of my ear suckling on the lobe.

I felt like my legs wouldn't hold me up. I felt like jelly in only an instant. His hands slowly made their way downs to my butt gripping and squeezing it. I let out a soft moan. Castiel was now looking at me. I felt myself blush as we looked into each other's eyes. He brought his lips onto mines in a silent slow kiss. Suddenly the back of the door sent me crashing into Castiel and onto the floor.

It was an employee that worked here in the Snake Room. He looked at us with wide eyes. "S-s-sorry… I didn't know anyone was in here." Castiel and I both stood up dusting our selves off. I rubbed my neck and Castiel just gave him a glare walking out of the back room. I followed behind him until we were just outside the curtain.

'So, I'll let you get back to your friend… See you around." He says before I even get to say goodbye. He was never one to smooth over the rough edges. The kiss was over as quick as it came and it left me wanting more. I waited a few minutes before walking out to the bar. Rosa jumped out at me a glass of white wine in her hand.

She was obviously drunk she wobbled around me slurring out my name.

"There you Are Katori!~" She yells. The club wasn't as packed as before so she didn't have to be so loud. "I couldn't find you!~ How did you like the concert?" She says drinking her wine in one go she was drunk.

"It was good… I just ran into-" I say as she cuts me off.

"Look Tori Cassy is right there." She says pointing over to Castiel who was chugging on beers with girls all around him. "Come on let's go say hi!" She says running off in his direction. I didn't get a chance to stop her she was already closing in waving her arms wildly. She was stumbling and Castiel's fangirls were pointing and giggling at her.

I followed behind her until we reach Castiel who looked over at her in annoyance.

"Hey, Cassy!" She bellowed out. I slapped my forehead with the palm of my head. I shot Castiel an apologetic look but he didn't see it. "What's the deal you can't speak to an old friend anymore?" She says in a cheerily drunk playful tone. Castiel chugged the beer in a few gulps.

"Hi Rosalya, you seem to be enjoying yourself." He says looking at me then back to Rosa.

"She really enjoyed the bar section tonight." Rosalya turned to me with puffy lips.

" I only had two glasses Katori." She holds up four fingers. "I just wanted to say that Your concert was AWESOME!" She says leaning onto the bar he gives a thank you. "I danced so much!"

"You know Castiel I need to tell you something important." She slurs. Castiel just kept drinking his beer.

"I always said you and Katori were made for each other. I was so happy when I found out you two were together." Now all eyes were on me his groupies were giving me death stares. Yeleen was one of those groupies staring at me with a nasty stare. I should have stopped Rosa before she said anymore.

"You two should get back together so we can go on double dates and do couples stuff." I tug on Rosa's sleeve trying to get her to follow me outside..

"Rosa lets go get some air." I say Castiel turns to her.

"Listen to what Katori is saying Rosa.. Where is Leigh? You drunk too much." Rosa gets mad and shoves my hands with a force.

"Leigh! Leigh?! I'm a big girl I don't need my boyfriend to come to save me plus I wasn't finished." She says I quickly tell her this isn't the place to talk about that. I was in a panic. I didn't want her to say anything else about me and Castiel. Not in front of all these strangers and definitely not in front of Yeleen.

"She's right Rosa this isn't the place." He says I quickly grab her sleeve pulling Rosa to me.

"I'm sorry I'll let you get back to your entourage," I say pulling Rosa outside. A gust of cold air swept through. We stood outside for ten minutes until Alexy and Morgan showed up. They took the drunk Rosa back to her dorm. They thanked me and told me they'd see me tomorrow at breakfast. I turned away and I made my way back into The Snake Room in search for Chani. I didn't find her.

Of course, she didn't wait around she was most likely drunk and tired and trying to hook up with Molly. I sighed and turned around walking out the now nearly empty bar. I started to walk back to campus before I was stopped by a strong grip around my hand. I let out a yelp turning around to meet Castiel's grey eyes.

"Are you walking back to your dorm?" he asked the cold autumn air whirled past us. I nod shivering a bit. Castiel must have noticed because he took his jacket off wrapping it around me. I give him a small smile.

"Yeah, I have class tomorrow I need to get back to my dorm," I say taking out my cell phone it was twelve fifty-three in the morning. Castiel's looked at me with a smirk.

"Come on I'll walk you to your place it's late." It wasn't a question it was a statement. He said it in an innocent tone but his eyes gave a mischievous look. I turned around looking at the campus than to Castiel giving him a nod. The walk to the university was only a ten-minute walk.

I snuck him into the girl's side of the dorm. The security guard wasn't at her post so it was easy enough. Everything was quiet despite the snores and other things going on in people's dorms. It was one in the morning so the halls were empty. We took the elevator up to my dorm floor walking to my room.

I was on edge we had not spoken a word since the walk. I never knew what to expect out of Castiel. One day he was hot the next day he was cold. I pulled out my key and took a deep breath unlocking the room door pushing it open.

It was pitch black and Yeleen wasn't back yet. I turned to say goodnight to Castiel but his lips crushed against mines first. He pushed me into the room shutting the door behind him with his foot.

His mouth was hot and inviting he clung onto me like a second skin. He pulled away for a second taking off his jacket throwing it somewhere in the room.

His lips brush mine. Not innocently, like a tease but hot, fiery, passionate and demanding. I want to pull away before I lose myself but I can't seem to…

"Katori" he whispers slowly, prolonging each letter as if to savor them. I smile, my heart fluttering at his voice as I clasp my hands on either side of his face. Never before has my name ever sounded so wonderful.

"Which bed is your's?" he says holding onto my waist pulling me closer. I point to the top bunk his eyes roam over to Yeleens bed. I knew what he was thinking before he even said anything.

"That's my roommate's bed," I say pointing to it. He sits down on the couch underneath my bed pulling me on top of him. I felt his hot breath on my neck, then the tender brush of lips. Burning as they made contact with my neck. A hand runs through my hair, as the kisses become harder and more urgent. Another hand slides around my waist and pulls me close to his sweat-scented body.

"I missed you so fucking much." He says kissing his way up my jawline running his hands up my thighs. Our eyes locked onto each other his hands touched the swells of my breast squeezing them softly. Castiel's touch was always so soft and gentle like he wasn't even touching me.

"I missed you too." I murmured dipping my head down to kiss him. I pressed my lips against him, feeling his hands kneading my breast through my shirt and bra. It had been too long since I been with anyone. His touch was like pure ecstasy.

His hands traveled to the hem of my shirt pulling it over my head. He made quick work of my shorts pulling down the zipper. He stopped and looked at me.

"How much do you miss me?" he asks as he slowly slides his hands into my shorts under my panties. My heartbeat quickened in anticipation. His fingers spread out my folds and found the sides of my clit, teasing me. I bit my lip at the warm pleasure that was slowly starting to pool in the pit of my stomach.

"So much." a gurgled moan escaped my mouth. Castiel made a noise at the back of his throat and quickened the pace of his fingers. Slowly dipping his fingers in the wet warmth. He put his mouth in the crook of my neck moaning softly.

I clutched onto his neck rocking my hips. His pace quickened the warm pool was growing hotter and hotter, pushing us both towards the edge. The bulge in his pants was so prominent. He took his hand out of my pants flipping us over. The look in his eyes was so desperate as he tugged down my shorts and panties.

"Take off your shirt," I say unlatching my bra throwing it on the floor. He quickly took off his shirt adding it to the pile. He looked at me from my breast to my wet folds licking his lips. He removed his pants easing his way into me.

He paused, allowing for me to accommodate his girth. Castiel moaned thrusting forward, he pulled out and then thrust back in, and we were both lost in each other. His rhythm increased, and my nails dug into his back. Leaving scores of little red marks with each thrust. The feeling of pressure was building up quickly. Castiel thrusts were less graceful and more animalistic. His hips pressing more firmly into mines each time. He angled himself slightly different, and he hit a spot in me that made me scream his name. I was going to come. The wet sounds coming from our bodies were driving us insane.

I moaned loudly with each thrust. And then I was falling over the edge into a white-hot inferno of pleasure.

"Castiel!" I screamed as I came, my walls shuddering around him and tightening.

He followed behind me seconds later, burying himself inside as he came, groaning my name over and over. I shut my eyes falling asleep drifting into the darkness.