Liz was helping Patrick get over Robin's death. Will one clandestine evening that Patrick doesn't remember ruin their friendship, or will it lead to more? And when something unexpected happens, will they survive it?

NC-17

Chapter 1 - Exposed

Elizabeth could hear his steady breathing next to her as a tear fell down her cheek. What is she going to do now? It had been one year since Robin died and Patrick is not ready for a new relationship, but she had totally fallen for him over the last few months. Just seeing the pain in his eyes just made her heart break and it is torturous watching him grieve. Liz hadn't meant for this to happen. Coleman had called her to come to get Patrick because he was drunk and one thing had led to another.

"Elizabeth!" Patrick said enveloping her into his arms.

She let out a sigh as he pressed her further against him.

"Now, now, Romeo, come on," Coleman said prying him away. "Are you going to be able to handle him?"

"Yes, it's not the first time," she said sadly. Unfortunately, something would happen that would remind him of Robin and he'd spiral out of control. They led him to her car.

She let him chat the whole way home. Part of her loved hearing him so cheerful, it was a rarity, but she hates the circumstances surrounding it.

She managed to get him into the house and then to his bedroom. Emma is staying with Anna for the week, so she was glad she didn't have to worry about Patrick waking her up.

"Aren't you going to undress me," he said softly.

"No. You're a big boy."

"That I am," he said staring into her eyes seductively.

Liz let out a harsh breath and attempted to take a step backward, but he had grabbed her arm and tugged her towards him. His breath caresses her cleavage, causing her to shudder and then his mouth connects with her chest and she groans.

"Patrick, you have to stop."

He ignored her protest because he is on a mission to lose himself inside her, so stopping is not an option. He hasn't been with a woman since Robin died and it hadn't been on his mind at all, but tonight, he just wants the pain to go away and Elizabeth is so, damn, beautiful. Seizing the moment, he grabbed her and flipped her onto the bed and reached up and moved the hair out of her eyes. They stared at each other for a long moment before he attacked her mouth. He is so hot for her that he hungrily fed off her lips and warm mouth. Liz couldn't believe it was happening, but she just didn't want to stop it. Things had been so hard for her for the last few years. When Robin died, her heart broke for Emma and Patrick and she was so tired of losing people that she loved. Snapping out of her memories, she fully engaged in the kiss, reveling at his talented mouth. She found herself matching his eagerness and then threw her arms around him as she plunged her tongue into his mouth and that was all Patrick needed as assurance. He released her for a second and stood slightly teetering as he tugged off his shirt and pants. She stood and following his lead took off everything, finally standing before him naked in more ways than one. Patrick gasped at the sight of her. She is perfect and his need to kiss him propelled him to take her mouth again and when she was thoroughly kissed, he moved on to her neck. He heard her catch her breath and smiled before placing her on the bed where he turned attention to her pert breasts and began to nibble and suck them as her back arched. His hand brushed down her body until it reached the juncture before her thighs and he parted her legs so he could access her wetness. She quivered in response and slightly sighed his name making him groan at the sound. As his thumb manipulated her clit he penetrated her with several fingers, making her move to meet his thrust as he tongue parted her lips and then he matched the rhythm of his fingers as Liz writhed beneath him and her head moved from side to side. Sensing that she is close, he abruptly retreated leaving her confused and aching for his touch.

"Patrick, don't stop," she begged.

He sat next to her. "Do you trust me?"

"Yes," she yelled in desperation.

"I want you to do something."

"Anything!"

"I want you to touch yourself," he said huskily.

Her eyes flew open as he said it and she suddenly felt exposed.

He grabbed her hands and moved them to her mound.

"Close your eyes."

She wants him so badly that she complies and her finger starts to circle on her clit as the pleasure started to build again. Patrick sucked her nipple into his mouth and started to suck and nibble on it. Liz started to arch her back and move her hips as she gasps from the sensations. Patrick's mouth is now claiming hers again and he eagerly sucked on her tongue and lips.

Sensing she's about to go over due to the staccato of her pants, he couldn't take it anymore and climbed on top of her. His cock rubbed against her opening and that sent her over the top. As he rubbed her up and down with his tip, she started to shudder as the orgasm slammed through her body. Due to his side, he entered her slowly as she opened herself all the way for him. With her muscles contracted around him, he finally lost control and started to drill into her faster and faster. She yelled his name again and her whole body started to quiver and shake as another orgasm pulsated through her. Feeling her tremble was too much for him and he exploded inside of her. Several minutes went by and then they moved onto their backs and said nothing. She laid her head on his chest and he was soon asleep as her body still tingled from their passion and she closed her eyes, deciding to worry about the consequences tomorrow.

Elizabeth got out of bed and quickly threw on her clothes, nor wanting to be there when he wakes up. Besides, what would she even say to him? It would kill her if he regretted what had happened and she didn't want the awkwardness to push them apart. Just the thought of losing him deeply hurt.

Patrick woke up about a half hour later with a gargantuan headache and he was having trouble remembering the night before. He vaguely remembered Liz and Coleman as he made himself get up and then shower before rushing to the hospital for his shift.

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"Liz, can you take this chart to Dr. Hunt?" Epiphany asked.

Liz smiled and grabbed the chart from her. She is willing to do anything not to have to face what she had done last night. It is hard to forget since she is in a bit of pain. She turned the corner and ran right into Patrick and she froze as he grabbed her arms.

He flashed a smile. "What's the hurry?"

"Um, no hurry," she stammered.

He noted the pained look in her eyes before she turned away from him. "Listen, I think you may have gotten me home last night. I just wanted to say thanks."

He finally let her go as she released the breath she had been holding.

"No problem. I really have to get this to Dr. Hunt," she said before practically running away.

Patrick is still reeling from the interaction wondering what had happened. He realized that maybe he should have talked to her and offered to listen because clearly something is wrong and she was always there for him. He sighed and continued on.

Liz dropped off the file and went into the locker room to catch her breath. She had to get it together so he didn't sense anything was wrong. Clearly, he doesn't remember and while part of her wished he did, nothing good would probably become of it since his heart isn't anywhere near ready to move on.

Lainey had walked into the room and saw Liz deep in thought.

"Hey, what's up?"

"Lainey?" she said before jumping up and hugging her friend. "When did you get back?"

"Last night. It's so good to see you."

"We should catch up. Are you up for dinner later?"

"That sounds great!"

She is so glad that her friend is back in town because she needs someone to talk to about this.

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Lainey waited for Liz to enter the restaurant knowing that something was up because Liz looked so sad earlier. When she spots her rush inside the restaurant, she waved her over.

"Sorry, I'm late. I had to feed the boys and Emma."

"No problem."

They settled in and ordered from the menu.

"So, why were you feeding Emma?"

"Oh, I'm just helping out Patrick."

Lainey had heard about Robin and nodded. She had been away doing a special internship in California for the last year. "How much do you help out Patrick?" She watched curiously as Liz squirmed.

"Saved by the waiter," Liz said as he delivered their drinks.

"Do you need saving?"

Liz let out a deep sigh. "I probably do."

A smirk eased onto Lainey's face. "Do you have the hots for Drake?"

Liz blushed. "I hope it's not that obvious. It's complicated."

This is starting to get good. "How complicated?"

"He's not ready and it's been such a painful year for him."

"Go on."

Liz's eyes started welling up with tears totally taking Lainey by surprise.

"What is it? What did he do?" Now she is starting to worry.

She slowly told her about what had happened the night before as tears streamed down her face.

"Wow," Lainey flagged the waitress. "Another round please," she said pointing at their drinks.

"I know. I'm just worried sick that this is going to ruin everything."

"Are you just going to interact with him like nothing happened?"

"That's exactly what I'm going to do. If he doesn't remember, then maybe I should take that as a sign." She gulped some more of her drink.

Lainey can tell that Liz has it bad for him and feels sad that Liz had been going through all of this alone. She quickly changed the subject and talked about her time away as they laughed at her crazy date attempts until it was time to go. Lainey is glad she had returned because her friend is going to really need her support.