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Hey! Still NamoWrimo! And this is my secondar challenge! To write stories that show five pivital moments in the turtles and usagis' life upon becoming brothers.

Hope you enjoy!

Pain

Miyamoto Lorenze Leonardo's heavy eyelids pried open, almost as though his they had been attached to the ropes of a drawbridge. But his vision was filled by the ceiling , at first he thought the moan had come from the cold wind howling against the house . He tried to ignore it by wrapping his arms tighter around the sleeping form of his youngest brother Mikey, equally putting forth the effort to ignore the drool building up on his arm. He nuzzled his pillow again, there really wasn't any point worry-

"Uggghhh."

-ing

Leo's lips curled lightly before lifting himself up off the futon, looking down to his snoring brother before looking to the other side, where Usagi was sleeping with one arm over Donatello's sleeping form. Leo might of been surprised ,though Don and Usagi were close, Donatello normally had a hard time letting anyone holding him in his sleep. But he also knew that Usagi was trying to keep Donatello warm amongst the smallest turtle's latest fever.

It really did make Leo feel better to know that Usagi and Donatello had accepted each other.

But that wouldn't stop the moaning person outside their house and allow him to stay in his warm bed.

He put his hands under Mikey's body and lifted him up before turning and putting him by Usagi. AS he drew away he noticed the black eyes looking right at him,

Well atleast Leo felt better to know he wasn't the only one awake.

And he was grumpy

Leo quickly pulled the edge of Usagi's blanket over Mikey, relieved to see Usagi reach out and pull the youngest into his side before giving his brother a thumbs up. He turned back to were he had been laying and picked up one of his swords. Even if the 'moaner' did end up being a threat, he couldn't be a big enough one he needed his other blade-

"Son of a BITCH!"

-Rrraaapphh? Uh oh, maybe he would need two swords. Leo snatched up the other one before slipping into the main living space. Why wasn't Raph inside yet? He had been gone for a few days, normally when he got back he made sure to let his mother and Don know before falling asleep on his futon for two days straight.

Leo slid the front door open to be faced with a large scarred shell of Raphael. his torso bare and , strangely enough,wearing a red kimono, but it hung by his waist by a obi. He had almost forgotten that Raph was so muscular, one swing of those arms could knock a horse over , which Raph had claimed was on accident. But he also knew that Raph only wore kimono's on festival days or, as informed by Kaede and Donnie, he went to a hot spring or Inn.

Though he had known Raph for a few months now, he couldn't say he was close with him. He had thought when Raphael let him comfort Donnie that fateful night he had opened path between them.

But if there was anything Raph hated?

It was being anyone's little brother

it was accepting any form of help for anything. How bad was it? Bad enough that ,when Raph's was laying down to rest his back and Leo had started to pull a blanket over he found himself laying on the floor with a bloody beak and the blanket , wrapped around a geta wooden sandals and thrown through the paper walls.

The message was clear enough

even if Leo still had a hard time remembering exactly what had happened

He had almost been afraid this aggression would affect their family. Or worse, Mikey. But Raph had proven to be a good big brother to Mikey, he had even come across Raph wrapping his arm after he had fallen. Even going so far as to carry him back to the house on his shell.

Then again, he did find Usagi on the ground with a bloody nose and a broken bowl of rice by him. And when they had both gone to talk ot Raph about how his aggressive tendencies were giving him and Usagi a head ache

They both ended up in Dons' shop with split lips.

A part of him wanted to slide back inside and leave him to his own misery, but he saw Raphael flinch again as his hand slapped his shoulder. Doubling over with muffled moans of pain. Obviously doing his best to make sure no one would hear him

Spirits

He hated being a good person

And if the famous bounty hunter "The Nightwatcher" didn't notice him by now then he had to REALLY be in pain.

Leo slipped out into the night, closing the door behind him with a quiet, "Raph?"

The largest Kame turned to look at him, amber eyes bloodshot and a sweat stained face, "What the hell are you doing out here?"

"I heard you moaning. Are you ok?"

"I'm fine-" before wincing again and grabbing his shoulder, "BITCH-"

"WELL excuse me for being concerned-"

"No i'm not-" Raph drew in a slow breath, "I'm not calling you that. My backs acting up and it makes me cussy alright?"

That much was obvious, but Leo didn't want to say THAT, his lip had just stopped bleeding from the last time Raph punched him," Do you want your pain medicine? I think Don made extra in case you needed it."

"Its not that bad," Raph turned more to the front again. Turning his neck had to be painful, "I'm just sitting out here till it goes away. I didn't want to wake anyone up so just go back to bed and pretend you didn't see anything."

That would be easy enough, he could go back to his warm bed, fall asleep, watch Don and Mikey hug Raph and Kaede give him a kiss on his scalp in the morning when he 'came home' unaware he had been sitting on the walkway for hours in his own misery, they'd eat breakfast together as Raph talked about his travels, Usagi would comment politely and share a conversation with Leo.

And Leo would have to pretend he didn't know his little brother had sat out in the cold, half naked, just because he didn't want help.

Leo could never turn his back on someone who needed help

Even if Raph hated him

He was back in the house, going over the shelves till he found a light red clay jar with a lid. He remembered Donnie putting it there and telling Raph to get it if he needed it. The good thing about having a I-sha for a brother was that he knew what to realistically keep in the house for their family. He snatched it off and screwed the lid off before hurrying back outside

Raph was still where he had left him, once again oblivious to his appearance, Leo knelt down and scooped some of the cream into his fingers before pressing it against Raph's neck

The red masked kame jumped at the touch , turning so fast that his face twisted up in pain with a angry shout, "OW what the HELL are you doing!?"

"This is the numbing cream Don told us about. It makes the pain go away."

"I know WHAT it is I"m asking WHY the hell a eighteen year old MALE to rubbing cream on a seventeen year old MALE -"

"Because you're in PAIN there's no point in whining about it just let me help-"

"I don't NEED your help, so get your hands-" Raph suddenly twisted away. Leo prepared for another incident where he'd lay on the ground wondering how he got there with blood running down the sides of his face when Raph doubled over, arms crossed over his chest as his eyes were squeezed shut white teeth grinding as he growled out in pain, shining brow furrowing. Leo sat on the walkway next to him. Hands braced out but he wasn't sure what to do with him. Till he remembered the cream on his fingers and pressed them against Raph's neck.

Slowly Raph's body began to relax, the arms falling from his stomach as the muscles in his neck loosened up. Leo wasn't' sure if Raph had just passed out from the pain if not for the strange noises still coming from him. But he still wasn't sure how much of the numbing cream to add and ended up coating the back of his shoulders and neck, with numerous layers. He had just gotten to the point where his fingers had started becoming numb when a hand pushed his away, "Knock it off."

"Raph?" good to know he was awake, Leo scooted back as Raph sat himself back up, rolling his head and shoulders around" Are you ok?"

"Better now."Raph's eyes were squeezed shut as his hand reached back to fall on his neck, "Geeze you coating me up for a wrestling match ? Trying to win some money off me?"

"No." and Leo wasn't sure he wanted to know what Raph meant by that. But he assumed it had something to do with living in Horyu city his entire life. Raph put his hand on the walkway and stood up slowly, his arms trembling lightly still but forcing himself up into a standing position. HE reached around for the torso of his kimono when his face screwed up again, indicating a trace of the pain remained. But Leo was already on it. he too Raph's sleeves and pulled it up, ignoring the look on Raph's face as he slipped his arms into his sleeves, finally getting some protection from the cold wind as Leo brushed off his shoulders, "Ready to head inside?"

"Yeah, it'll be nice to sleep in a bed." Raph turned to head on inside when he stopped for a moment. Leos' arm twitched as he struggled to keep from bringing it back up to his face. It was sad how much he expected pain from Raph now. Knowing Raph would never see him as a brot-

A hand fell on his shoulder, popping his attention and found himself looking right at Raph. His face was empty, blank. Leo was used to seeing him ' angry' 'happy' 'enraged' 'hungry' 'furious' but this new one almost made hiim panic

"Thanks bro."

Ok what? MAybe Leo was hit in the head so hard that he could of imagined the entire experience. But before he could say anything Raph had ducked into the house. He was already in their room by the time Leo leapt in after him. Leaving him to stand in the living room more then a little bit confused. Atleast till the second bed room door open and the familiar badger stepped out, "Mother-"

But she had already stepped out, one hand resting on the back of his neck and pulling him close to his chest while a hand snaked around his shoulders and held him close, causing his head to bend down lightly for their height difference. Since she had married his father, Leo had not problem thinking of her as his step=mother. But still when he drew away and looked at her he still found himself asking , "What did I do to earn that?"

Kaede's face was still kind, her hand going up to cup his face in a way only a mother could, saying one thing before she wished him goodnight and disappearing back into her room

"Thank you for being such a good big brother to him."