Hope you like it! I used an OC for the girl because I don't like Gaara with any of the girls in Naruto...haha yeeeaaaa.
Chapter 1
Gaara walked aimlessly through the endless sand of the desert. The air was just beginning to get the chill of a signature desert night but he was too lost in thought to realize the cold slowly creeping in on him. His eyes were set on the sky as he thought about ways to find what he was looking for. Not that he really knew what exactly he was that was. He always felt as though part of him was missing and he could never really quite figure out what is was. So in everything and everything he would search for that piece his heart had gone astray.
When he got tired of trying to find it he would attempt to coax it back with fake smiles and laughter. He would let go of the steal wall he kept around his heart and do his best to appear kind and caring while he really felt like falling apart. He really felt like giving up. And of course each time he failed to find what he wanted, the feeling of failure would seep back in, the wall would come back up, and he eyes would become composed and cold again. He wondered if this would ever end.
Suddenly he was aware of the constant whining in the background begging for his attention. He snapped back to reality to find Naruto waving his hand in front of him and repeatedly saying his name. Judging by the annoyance written on his face, Naruto had been trying for quite some time to get his attention.
"What do you want Naruto", said Gaara, slightly irritated that his thoughts had been disrupted.
"It's getting late, your sister said to come get you. Why so day-dreamy?" He replied, finally realizing that he had disturbed a deep thought and tried to make up for it.
"Nothing."
"Well it has to be something. Come on you never tell me anything."
"Fine. I was thinking about how to find something." Gaara said in defeat. Not wanting to be constantly pestered by the blonde about his so called 'day-dreaming'.
"Maybe I can help! Is it over there?"
*sigh* He can be such an idiot sometimes. Gaara thought to himself.
"You can't help."
"Awwwww why not" *cue the puppy dog face*
What kind of guy does a puppy dog face?
"Because you can't."
I wish he would just leave me alone
"Fine then! At least tell me what you're searching for."
Gaara thought to himself for a few minutes trying to decide how to respond to the question. He tried to think of what he felt was missing. Then he realized what he didn't see in his eyes every time he looked in a mirror. What he didn't feel every time the people around him laughed and smiled and joked.
Looking at Naruto with his stone cold expressionless face he said, "I'm looking for the joy that left so long ago"
The pain in his eyes was so evident Naruto thought he might fall to the ground and curl up. He couldn't stand it. As Gaara walked away all he could do was stand there, in too much shock to say anything but unmoving in fear that his legs would give out.
As soon as Gaara got back home he went up to his room and locked the door, ignoring the calls from his siblings that dinner was ready. The anguish in his heart had taken away any appetite he might have left. His realization had caused more pain than he could imagine.
It was on that day that Gaara decided to give up his search. He was completely drained of any hope he had before and couldn't bear to constantly remind himself of the emptiness inside of his chest.