Jacob's Story

Preface

As the rain drizzled to a stop and the clouds shifted overhead, rays of sunlight spilled across the ground in front of him. Jacob looked down, watching the light illuminate the different colours of the pebbles beneath his feet. As he scanned the beach for his favourite driftwood log, he found it already taken by a girl he had never seen before. At the sound of his approach, the girl glanced up quickly and their eyes met. Jacob felt his body jerk to a stop and go numb. As the girl blushed and looked back out to the waves, Jacob suddenly felt as if his body was melting. His arms started to tingle and vibrate and soon it had spread to his entire body. A glowing came over him and soon all the strings fell away. The things that held him to this world no longer mattered. His father, his friends, his pack, none of it. All that mattered now was this stranger. She was everything now. His soul, his life and his heart now belonged to her.

Chapter 1

Another day, another stupid fight with Bella. All because of that parasite!

Jacob growled under his breath and sank onto his bed, resting his head in his hands. He took a deep breath and glanced around his tiny bedroom. Though it hadn't changed for years, he still looked around often, as if he was going to see it differently, but he never did. His bed was hardly big enough for him and the room itself was to small. He was always out these days anyway, running patrol with the pack, working on his car and hanging out with his friends. Well most of them. Jacob groaned and shook his head. He was sick of thinking about Bella, nothing good ever came of it. He got up slowly and put on a black t-shirt, trudging through the house and into the kitchen where his father, Billy sat at the table. As Jacob sat opposite his father, Billy's eyes creased with worry. He had seen that look before.

"Jacob..." he began, pushing a plate piled with toast towards him.

"Dad, please don't." Jacob grumbled.

Billy sighed and knew there was no use pushing Jacob to talk. He continued to study his only son while he ate his toast, feeling more an more anxious as he watched his son become more and more forlorn. As Jacob finished his sixth slice of toast, he pushed his chair out and waved goodbye to his father.

"Don't know how late I'll be out tonight Dad," Jacob said, ruffling his dark hair, "Sam will probably have us run half way to Canada and back again."

Billy nodded and half smiled. Jacob waved and walked out the door into the bright green haze of scenery that was La Push. Although it wasn't raining yet, Jacob could feel that it would soon and he sped up slightly to get into the forest before it hit. He never got cold any more, but getting soaking wet didn't feel good either. As he stopped just inside the cover of the trees, he felt the familiar ripple go through his spine and a second later he was in wolf-form.

As soon as his reddish brown paws hit the ground, the voices were already there.

Jacob came Sam's voice, We need you here as quickly as you can.

What's up? Jacob thought back. Great, what had happened now?

Wait until you get here, just hurry up. Sam ordered.

Jacob pushed his powerful legs forward and shot through the forest. He wasn't too far away now, he could hear the pacing and the loud heartbeats of his brothers close by.

He slowed and came into a clearing, the others already there. He took his place by Sam's side and waited. As the last remaining members of the pack emerged, they all took their places and were silenced.

Now, as you all know, we have some things to discuss about the Cullen's.

There was rumbling of agreement through out the circle of wolves.

They have explained the reason for their leaving, and now also of their return.

I am sure they are of no threat to us, or the people of Forks. Sam said, his voice heavy with authority, The treaty is still intact. We have come to an agreement now that they have returned.

Jacob's head snapped up. He looked at Sam angrily.

What do you mean an agreement?

Sam glanced at Jacob, a warning in his eyes.

It means that we will not attack them on any grounds, so long as they stick to their agreement.

It also means that allowing Bella Swan to become one of them will not result in a breaking of the Treaty. She has chosen her path, we cannot stop her from it.

Sam looked around the entire circle, making sure that the pack understood.

So this is what it comes to, is it? Jacob growled, heat spreading through his body.

Sam snarled and Jacob felt himself recoil unwillingly. Sam stood up to his full height, even though Jacob was still taller than him.

We do not attack the Cullen's. Bella choose her path, let her take it. She never chose you Jacob. Now that is an order for everyone. We do not attack the Cullen's.

Hear hear! said Seth happily.

Jacob growled at him and Seth whimpered, cringing away from him. Sam stepped back into place at the head of the circle. As Jacob hung his head angrily he only half listened to the rest of the conversation.

Jake? came Embry's voice. He felt a soft nudge on his furry shoulder but shook his head. It was no use. Sam was right. Bella hadn't chosen Jacob, she had chosen him. If she hadn't gone to rescue the bloodsucker who knows what might have happened. Jacob huffed and shook out his fur again. The meeting had ended and Sam was planning the patrols for the night.

Jacob, get some sleep. Quil can take your place on patrol tonight.

Jacob just nodded his large head and walked solemly back towards his house. One he had walked far enough he phased back to human form, putting his clothes back on and trudging through the muddy ground towards the house. He glanced up when he heard the familiar roar of an engine. As the red truck emerged Jacob felt his heart stop painfully.

Why did she have to keep coming here? It only made him feel worse. As much as he longed to see her, it never ended the way he wanted it to.

Bella Swan climbed out the the truck cabin and greeted him shyly.

Jacob stopped as she came closer but just far enough away in case he got angry again.

"Hey," Bella said, her face heating up just as Jacob loved it. Her cheeks flushed her beautiful ivory skin and he felt his heart skip again.

"Bella, go away." Jacob said, not looking at her. He could feel his heart aching as he struggled to stop loving her as she stood here.

"Jake, please.." She begged softly, trying to reach out for his hand. Jacob backed away a couple of steps.

"Bella," he repeated, now looking at her, "Go away."

She looked at his face and her expression faltered. Her heart beat faster, even though he was in human form, his senses were a lot clearer than normal humans.

"Jake, please. I know that I...I hurt you, but Jake, I had to go!" she pleaded, this time grasping his hand. He jerked it away.

"Bella, I don't want to hear it." Jacob growled.

"Jacob," Bella whispered, "Don't make me choose between you. I love you both!"

Jacob huffed angrily. "No, Bella. You already choose him, not me."

"Jake, your my best friend..." she replied, her hands shaking.

"I used to be." Jacob snapped, he turned away from her, feeling the heat start to go through his body again. Once he had calmed himself down, he faced her again.

"Jake, please. You can't leave me." Bella whimpered.

Jacob snorted. "Bella, you don't care about me! You have your precious Cullen's back now. You don't have to pretend any more."

Bella's face fell and tears brimmed her eyes. Jacob felt his heart stop again and wanted more than anything to embrace her and never let go. But he knew what he had to do.

"Bella, I want you to leave." He said firmly.

"Jake..." she whimpered again.

"Bella, please. Leave now, and don't ever come back." He knew it was harsh, but it was the only way for him to be able to quit her for good. He had to let her go now before she ended up killing him. Bella's tears welled up and spilled over but she turned and headed back to her car. Jacob watched her go and then took a deep breath before going back inside the house.