Dead on the Inside

Chapter One: Last Year

Sirius

"I can't believe it, our last year at Hogwarts!" I exclaimed as we walked to platform nine and three quarters. James said something in reply but it was muffled by the muffin he was eating. Near by Lily Evans and Remus Lupin where catching up to us.

"James, where's Emmy?" Lily called. James shrugged and continued eating. Remus and I exchanged worried looks. Emma Potter was never late for anything. I bid the Potter's goodbye and thanked them for housing me again this summer. James gave his father his half eaten muffin.

"James, what did you do with you're sister?" His mother asked taking the muffin from her husband and placing it back in her son's hands. He told her he didn't know and started to get on the train when she stopped him.

"Where is Emma?"

"Damn that son of a, oh sorry I'm late everyone, um…I was having…..um problems…." Emma exclaimed running up behind her father. She gave her parents a quick hug then followed me to our compartment. We were greeted warmly by Tonks, Molly, Arthur, Lily and Remus. James was staring fixated at his muffin. Emma rolled her eyes and whispered a spell. The muffin rose out of his hands and into the trash bin out side.

"Hey, I was looking at it!"

"Looking not eating…." Emma replied sitting in between Lily and Remus. I sat down next to my best friend, secretly stealing looks at his older twin. Emma's hair was jet black and it flipped out slightly wild like her brother's hair. Her eyes where a sparkling blue that seemed to smile.

"Do you have a gown for the ball?" Emma was asking Lily. That caught us all by surprise. I spoke for James, who had become mute.

"What ball?" I asked. James was nodding perplexed. Lily sighed and shook her head. Emma rolled her eyes again. She cleared her throat and began.

"The ball that we'll be having after we finish our N.E.W.T.s, remember?"

We nodded pretending like we knew what was going on. James turned to me and began to talk about Quidditch but I wasn't listening.

"I want to be a Healer and work for St. Mungo's. I'll most likely stick to the children's ward…."Emma was telling Lily. I couldn't help but smile when she said that. Emma was always looking out for other people.

"Hey Emmy, what took you so long to get to us?" I questioned out of the blue. James scowled, because I interrupted his talk about being Seeker. She flushed a light red, and looked at the window.

"Lucius…um…Remus can I talk to you before you go and do your prefect rounds?" She went out side of the compartment and closed the firmly. I watched her through the glass as she began to talk. Remus looked troubled. He patted her on the shoulder and told her something. She nodded and hugged him. Then she came back in.

"Did you do anything to him….Lucius I mean…?" James asked. All Emma would say was that she cursed him. I dropped it and began talking with James again. This time we were talking about my flying motorcycle.

"I only got to take it out a little before we left, so when Hogwarts is out I'm getting some air," I told Arthur. He was fascinated with my bike. He wanted me to sell it but I refused.

"Where'd Peter?" Lily asked. Emma made a small noise of disgust and I laughed. We answered at the same time.

"Who cares?"

"Hear hear!!" James called pretending to raise a goblet up. I watched as Emma giggled. It was funny how alike to two twins were. Both where amazing Quidditch players, both loved breaking rules and pulling pranks, and both had the same sense of humor.

"James, we need to get Flich back from the last day of term last year," Emma suddenly piped up. Her brother nodded eagerly. Last year Emma and James changed identities (so there were three Lucius Malfoy's) and tried to tie Mrs. Norris to the Whomping Willow. Professor Sprout ratted them out, because they had recently been caught trying to calm the tree down. Flich then decided to see how long they could last tied to the trunk.

I smiled to myself and whispered "This year will be the best year ever."

(Last at the feast)

"Dumbledore looked worried while he was giving his speech, I hope nothing's wrong," Lily said worriedly. I scoffed as I filled my plate. I began to eat and replied

"'Hat does this 'ave to do 'ith us?"

"Sirius this is important! If something is bothering Dumbledore than that means it has to deal with Hogwarts. It is his home you know, why else would he give up the position of Minister of Magic?" Emma told me curtly. James rolled his eyes and stole the roll on his sister's plate.

"Maybe the house elves forgot about the pudding on the stove and it got burnt."

"So now we don't have pudding for dessert, you know how Dumbledore likes his pudding…." I added. We high fived as Emma as Lily exchanged looks of hate. Just then Nearly Headed Nick floated by and put in his word.

"There are right you now, the Headmaster is very worried about the safety of Hogwarts."

"So they where right…for once in their life..." James commented as Nick went away. Emma banged her hands down on the table in anger and stood up. She bid good night to everyone but James and I and stalked out of the Great Hall.

"Was it something I said?" I asked. Lily threw me a warning look and followed her best friend to the dorms. James snickered and began eating again. I whispered in his ear.

"Man, somebody give those two some chocolate…"