Hey everybody! This A/N is gonna be a bit longer than normally but I have a few things to say, also about this story.

First of all I'm really sorry I didn't update LLTC. I completely lost inspiration for the last chapters. But I work on it and it will definitely be out this week :)

Okay... This story is special to me because of many reasons: It is kinda based on a series of books (How to Ruin... by Simone Elkeles) that I recently read. I fell in love with the story and the male protagonist reminded me of Beck. This story touched my heart because it also shows you what life people in war zones (Israel) have and how they actually cope with this. It is about fighting for the ones you love, for the things you love and for live in general. I had quite the hard time the last few weeks and it showed me how to not give up and stay strong.

This story is for all those who feel the way I do, who are in the progress of finding theirselves, who fight for the things worth fighting for and for all the ones who read this. Never give up on the things you love because it sound cheesy but there is ALWAYS someone that loves you.

And five minutes before I published this story I heard that Talia, the girl who had cancer but stayed stronger than anyone thought would be possible, passed away. She was and will always be an inspiration. She fought and I wouldn't say she lost this fight. Because she made million of people believe in theirselves and hope again.

love always, sammy103

This is for all of you

Fight the fight worth fighting, fight it to the end.

Prologue

So my parents forced me to go on a "fun-trip" in my summer holidays. I'm normally not really the type that goes on "fun-trips" but I had no choice.

"You will go, end of discussion" were the exact words my mom said when she showed me the brochure.

They said it would help me to control my issues and help me to find myself. Thank you very much I'm perfectly fine WITHOUT having to go into a summer camp.

Did I mention we were going into a military camp for ten days? Sounds cool to learn how soldiers live and fight? Yeah, it's not cool and surely not fun.

It's not that I'm afraid of weapons or hard training, because let me tell you, I'm tough. I really am.

But two years ago my godfather who was in the army, was located to fight in the Middle East and well… he never came back and how I eventually found out over the internet, never will. We were always pretty close, like father and daughter and I'm just not over it. I didn't even get to go to his funeral.

My parents of course know this but sent me on this trip nevertheless.

Well… and that pretty much describes my parents. My divorced parents, may I add to this whole mess.

So you see, I live a pretty fucked up live and I guess the only people who are there to keep me from going insane are the two girls on either side of me.

The girl on my left, who is just sticking a hand into her bra (she's got candy in there, don't ask) is my best friend Cat.

Cat looks up and smiles at me while twirling a piece of her red hair around her finger and chewing on a gummy bear.

"You want some candy, Jade?" When I shake my head no, she leans forward to face the girl on my right.

"Tori, do you want some candy?" The brunette mimics my action. Clever choice, I really don't want to know how much sweat there is on that candy because it's so freaking hot in here.

You probably guessed it by now, we're sitting in a bus, with about 20 other teenagers, that are our age and also from Los Angeles. And we're sitting here for at least 4 hours and it doesn't seem like we're anywhere near our destination.

Except for Tori and Cat I know a few other guys on this trip. And speaking of the devil, Kyle looks over at us.

"Can I get other things out of your bra?" he asks Cat. Even though he wiggles his eyebrows she is kind of oblivious to what he is hinting at and so I see it again as my job to make him back off.

"Shut the fuck up or else you won't be able to get anything ever again."

And yes I am a girl and he is a guy, that is supposed to be tough or whatever, but he turns around and focuses back on his phone.

I guess you and all the other people (idiots) I have to be with figured out by now that I don't only bark but also bite.

And just as I'm about to plug in my earphones Cat looks over to Kyle with an apologetically look on her face.

"I'm sorry but I only have gummy bears."

Good Lord, save me.

That was the prologue, I hope you enjoyed it and keep on reading because the first chapter is their arrival in the camp and of course some Bade! :)

Please tell me what you think!

xoxo sammy103