Giving In
The room was dark and cold, no light had shine through those windows in a long time. Hiei had become a drunken man. All he ever does now is lay on the sofa with a bottle of vodka until he either passes out or can't feel the pain that lies within him. He had become this way over the past year or so, ever since Yukina had died. She was the only family he had left, and never got the chance to tell her. The secret that Hiei had been holding in for years, that he was her brother.
Hiei remembers the day she died like it was yesterday. Yukina wasn't suppose to come with them on a mission. Not listening to them she does it anyways. Hiei decided that he was going to fight the powerful demon. Yukina came up from behind Hiei to surprise him, she had found out from Koenma that Hiei was her brother. Hiei not realizing it was her stabs her in the stomache. He had killed his own sister, but it wasn't suppose to happen like that. Hiei saw the horrid pain in Yukina's face, that still haunts him today.
So now he doesn't even come out of his apartment. The gang has tried to get him help, but it was no use Hiei would never admit he has a problem.
Losing everything his ever held true in life. No family, friends nothing but his thoughts and even that was starting to make him go mad. Hiei had always chosen the harsh and bitter way of life. That was the only life he ever knew. He gets up from the sofa and goes to the bathroom. Looking at his blood shoot eyes and shaky hands in the mirror. Hiei becomes enraged with anger, why did he let himself do this. It wasn't the Hiei that he was or the Hiei that he is. It was just a hollow, lifeless person staring back.
"Look at yourself, your nothing" the voice inside Hiei's head says.
"You can't do anything right. You killed your own sister. Now you must pay for what you have done" he keep on hearing the voice, everyday it was like hell for him.
He tries to shake it off and not listen, but the voice was to strong for him. "Stop it and get out of my brain you bastard. You think I don't know what I did was wrong" Hiei was almost in tears. "Just leave my alone for once, let me rest" he pleas to the voice.
"You will never rest until your dead" the voice laughs. Hiei was starting to go crazy. He sits by his bathroom tub and rocks gently hoping that maybe the pain would go away. A part of him wanted someone to knock on the door. Just so he could know that maybe it wasn't real, that maybe Yukina was still alive. That he had been trick into thinking he killed Yukina. Sadly none did ever come around, it was like they had forgotten about Hiei. Everyone knew he was so cold hearted and thought why bother to help someone when they don't want it.
"Just do it now and get it over with. The sooner you cut your wrist, the sooner I'm gone" the voice was trying to get Hiei to pick up a razor blade and cut his wrist.
"No I can't, I can't do it" Hiei whipers, he had gotten himself so worked up that blood drips out of the side of his mouth.
"Yes you can it's easy, besides it's not like anyone cares about you"
Hiei stops rocking, and thinks that maybe the voice was right. That just maybe all the pain would go away if he just got it over with. There was not point in him living now. He stands up and goes to search for more liquir. He began to panic when he couldn't find any. Trashing the already destroyed apartment, he finds his last bottle of vodka. Hiei drinks it so fast he almost throws up it all. He didn't eat or sleep anymore, and has become a living zombie.
Now going back to the bathroom he could barley stand up. Hiei takes a razor blade from the medicine cabinet. The shrap and shiny peice of metal was held tightly in Hiei's hand. "I have to do this" he mumbles to himself. His whole body began to shake now. He sits on the bathroom floor. His body breaks out in a cold sweat. Hiei's lips turn a purple cold has he puts the razor to his wrist, and....
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What a prefect stoping place, so you think Hiei will do it?
The room was dark and cold, no light had shine through those windows in a long time. Hiei had become a drunken man. All he ever does now is lay on the sofa with a bottle of vodka until he either passes out or can't feel the pain that lies within him. He had become this way over the past year or so, ever since Yukina had died. She was the only family he had left, and never got the chance to tell her. The secret that Hiei had been holding in for years, that he was her brother.
Hiei remembers the day she died like it was yesterday. Yukina wasn't suppose to come with them on a mission. Not listening to them she does it anyways. Hiei decided that he was going to fight the powerful demon. Yukina came up from behind Hiei to surprise him, she had found out from Koenma that Hiei was her brother. Hiei not realizing it was her stabs her in the stomache. He had killed his own sister, but it wasn't suppose to happen like that. Hiei saw the horrid pain in Yukina's face, that still haunts him today.
So now he doesn't even come out of his apartment. The gang has tried to get him help, but it was no use Hiei would never admit he has a problem.
Losing everything his ever held true in life. No family, friends nothing but his thoughts and even that was starting to make him go mad. Hiei had always chosen the harsh and bitter way of life. That was the only life he ever knew. He gets up from the sofa and goes to the bathroom. Looking at his blood shoot eyes and shaky hands in the mirror. Hiei becomes enraged with anger, why did he let himself do this. It wasn't the Hiei that he was or the Hiei that he is. It was just a hollow, lifeless person staring back.
"Look at yourself, your nothing" the voice inside Hiei's head says.
"You can't do anything right. You killed your own sister. Now you must pay for what you have done" he keep on hearing the voice, everyday it was like hell for him.
He tries to shake it off and not listen, but the voice was to strong for him. "Stop it and get out of my brain you bastard. You think I don't know what I did was wrong" Hiei was almost in tears. "Just leave my alone for once, let me rest" he pleas to the voice.
"You will never rest until your dead" the voice laughs. Hiei was starting to go crazy. He sits by his bathroom tub and rocks gently hoping that maybe the pain would go away. A part of him wanted someone to knock on the door. Just so he could know that maybe it wasn't real, that maybe Yukina was still alive. That he had been trick into thinking he killed Yukina. Sadly none did ever come around, it was like they had forgotten about Hiei. Everyone knew he was so cold hearted and thought why bother to help someone when they don't want it.
"Just do it now and get it over with. The sooner you cut your wrist, the sooner I'm gone" the voice was trying to get Hiei to pick up a razor blade and cut his wrist.
"No I can't, I can't do it" Hiei whipers, he had gotten himself so worked up that blood drips out of the side of his mouth.
"Yes you can it's easy, besides it's not like anyone cares about you"
Hiei stops rocking, and thinks that maybe the voice was right. That just maybe all the pain would go away if he just got it over with. There was not point in him living now. He stands up and goes to search for more liquir. He began to panic when he couldn't find any. Trashing the already destroyed apartment, he finds his last bottle of vodka. Hiei drinks it so fast he almost throws up it all. He didn't eat or sleep anymore, and has become a living zombie.
Now going back to the bathroom he could barley stand up. Hiei takes a razor blade from the medicine cabinet. The shrap and shiny peice of metal was held tightly in Hiei's hand. "I have to do this" he mumbles to himself. His whole body began to shake now. He sits on the bathroom floor. His body breaks out in a cold sweat. Hiei's lips turn a purple cold has he puts the razor to his wrist, and....
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What a prefect stoping place, so you think Hiei will do it?