A/N: This is most likely going to be terrible, and people will probably hate me for it. But I love Adam, I just thought this would be a fun thing to write~ Also, I'm not good at timing things. I'm not really sure what grade Adam would be in; in 2014, or if he would be in any grade at all, but lets just cooperate, okay? Thank you. I'm writing a second chapter and then maybe that'll be it. Who knows xD Anyway, yeah. Blah.

Everything has changed so much and it's starting to scare me. I want it back; the past. Some of it anyway, before my family went downhill and everything turned around on me. Today is March 12, 2014. I honestly don't know why I'm writing this, but uh- I'm doing it.

I'm holding what may be my only way out, in my hands- a gun. A not-so-friendly old friend of mine got it for me, lovely, isn't it? Luckily my brother's complete ignorance in the fact that his girlfriend is as bitter as they come helped me. Without that I wouldn't be here right now, anyway. I won't be for much longer.

So I'm sorry to everyone. If I've ever hurt you or made you upset in anyway. I'm so sorry and you won't have to deal with that much longer. Time is almost up. You can all have stress free lives, and be happy without me. I'm just a burden anyhow. Thank you for dealing with me for so long, I know it must've been hell for all of you. But now I'm giving you all a wish that you can't deny. I'll be gone.

I'll be at the abandoned church if you want to find me. Warning, though. Blood will be involved.

-Adam

I finished writing the note and reread it. It was perfect; or at least as perfect as a suicide note can be. I got up from my desk and put on my favorite jacket. It was a Dead Hand jacket that Eli had gotten for me for my birthday a few months back. It was the best gift I had gotten. Then again, I had gotten it from my best friend.

I walked downstairs and saw that the house was empty besides me. The only thing I could hear was the faint ticking of the clock in the dining room. It was mocking me; telling me that time was almost up. I had barely an hour to get to my school and get to the abandoned church before classes started.

I walked out the backdoor- the cold Toronto air touching my cheeks. The wind made my hair swoop so I threw my beanie on. Soon I would be as cold as my hometowns wind. After all, the wind and I had a lot in common. We're both cold and moving, but eventually we have our time to go. Only difference is that the winds time is sometime else; and mine is now.

I walked through the little snow that was left in the backyard. It crunched under my feet, and I enjoyed the sound. I shoved my hands in my jacket pocket; feeling my hand brush against the cold metal of the pistol. I let out a chuckle as I reached the door of Degrassi, I set the gun in a bush before heading inside.

No one was in the halls, but I could hear faint conversation in a few classrooms as I passed them by. I walked to where the drama department was held- which was also where Eli spent his days at now as a drama assistant- I found a locker in the room marked 'Elijah Gold.' He had always hated his last name. If anyone were to find out I would want it to be him. He wasn't the type to cry, so he would be fine with the news. Or at least I hope so.

I spun around and walked out of the door, and out of the front of the school. There were a few familiar faces waiting in the back of the school. Some younger students; and Fiona. She had become a student teacher at the school after she left for college and then I called off the engagement.

Fiona, oh god I still loved her so much. Last I'd seen of her was a drunken make out session at a party Drew forced me to go to a few weeks back. Well, I was drunk anyway. She wasn't. She wouldn't understand if I told her why I had to call off the engagement, so I avoided her. It was hard though considering she was in my school every day a week.

It was getting colder, and the wind had started blowing harder, like a reminder that I needed to hurry. I quickly picked the gun up and shoved it back into my jacket pocket.

oOo

I set off towards the abandoned church, thinking of memories I'd had the past few years here. Parties with Drew, make-out sessions with Fiona and random girls that had been at those parties. Concerts with Eli and Bullfrog, and guy nights with them. Good memories, but the bad outweighed the good.

Owen's cousin had come here after Owen graduated, and he definitely took on Owen's style. He was big and as much of an asshole as his elder. He helped Owen find me and beat me up a few times, or he would do it himself with his group of friends.

I took my beanie off and dropped it on the ground as I came to the broken down church where I had thrown a party for Fiona at years ago; though it wasn't much of a party for me. She didn't show up. I think then is when I had my first heart break. The wind blew my hair, and I pulled the silver and black pistol out of my pocket and set it down on a rock that I had used for a seat when there were parties here.

Red cups scattered around the ground, covered in leaves and mud. Eli and I had done a lot to this place; but soon it would be a place for police to search. They would find empty alcohol bottles and half-smoked cigarettes. And they'd find me without a pulse.

I pulled a fresh razor out of my pocket and pressed it against my left wrist; clenching my hand into a fist so the blood would come out faster. A few tears rolled down my face and dripped down onto my wrist; making it burn. I set the razor down and glanced around, my sight was getting blurry and I started to become dizzy. I picked the gun up and looked at it. It seemed to shine; but that could have been because I was fading away.

I checked to make sure the gun was loaded- which it was- before pulling it up to the side of my head. I pulled the trigger back a little bit and heard a CLICK echo in the barrel; along with my heartbeat. It was slowing.

I pulled the trigger back all the way and my breathing stopped before the bullet could even hit me. As soon as they did I fell over and into a pool of my own blood. It was an in-and-out. Enterance through right above my right ear; exit through above the left. My pulse faded out, and I became cold.

oOo

About half an hour later my best friend showed up to my side, followed by Fiona. Fiona started crying and almost fainted; but Eli just stood there in shock. Becoming numb to all feeling. I had seen this side of him before; it was the same reaction he had when he and Clare had broken up for the first time.

Not only had I killed myself; but the people that meant more to me than anything in the universe.