Just a little story about the whole baby situation with Callie and Arizona that all Calzone fans are dying to see what happens! I wrote this with EmmaClaire.x so thank you for all your help and thank you Becky for proof reading for us! Hope you all like it, it's my first fanfic! Please review and give your honest opinion! Not sure if this is a one shot yet or if it will turn into more.
I do not own any Grey's Anatomy characters, this is for entertainments purposes only! All rights belong to Shonda Rhimes and co..
Evening was just starting to settle over the city of Seattle, stars were shining brightly in the sky which was slightly odd given that Seattle was known for the rain. It was a beautiful, warm night, which happened so rarely, that Callie and Arizona decided to make the most of their time and head out for a night time stroll through the park together.
They walked hand in hand along the path way, crickets chirped in the background and lanterns lit the trail as it curved through the well-kept gardens. The soft glow of light enhanced the beautiful blonde's already perfect features; every time Callie turned to look at her girlfriend she couldn't help but feel mesmerised by her stunning appearance. How did I get so lucky? She wondered to herself. All the times of pain, torment and being broken down by so many of the people she loved, somehow now all seemed worth it for what she had found with Arizona. A sigh escaped her lips as she remembered how just a few nights before she thought that the dream was over, and her world was about to be ruined once again…
Callie sat sobbing in an empty on call room, she didn't even remember getting there, the only coherent thought running through her confused mind were two words from Arizona, "No Kids."...
Who doesn't want kids?! Callie thought to herself, surrendering to the tears that streamed from her eyes, everyone loves children, especially paeds surgeons! I mean she spends every waking moment with them, fixing them, talking to them, playing with them, hell she practically is one of them! She buried her fingers in the sheets of the bed she lay on, trying to steady her breathing as her world was crashing down around her. Although she knew she had the most amazing person, who she was so deeply in love with that she couldn't even live or breathe without, and was lucky enough that Arizona felt the same way, yet to stay with her she'd have to give up everything she'd dreamed off since she was a little girl, having a family of her own. The thought brought a fresh wave of sobs, as she lay there alone in the dark, and for once just gave in to her emotions.
Arizona burst into the on call room, her breathing ragged from her desperate attempts to find Callie after she had run from the research lab. What had she done? Everything had been so perfect for so long, and she desperately didn't want it to end, but she couldn't handle children... Not after what had happened to her... Could she? If there was ever a time to tell her Calliope the truth about her past, it was now. Maybe then she could at least begin understand her fear of having kids…
Seeing the woman she loved, lying across the bed, her face pressed into the covers, broke Arizona's heart; Calliope was always so strong that it made it all the more harrowing to see her in this kind of state. Suddenly Arizona felt awkward, she'd never discussed this with anyone before, and she'd never even really discussed it with herself; she'd just made up her mind after it happened that she was never going to let herself go through the ordeal, that having kids created the possibility of. Hearing the door close, Callie looked up, her brown eyes bordered in red, her cheeks wet with tears. The image jolted Arizona into action, perching on the end of the bed; she clapped her hand to Callie's mouth as she opening it to speak.
"Calliope, we need to talk" she fixed her with a stare that told her not to interrupt, before she began.
"I'm sorry for just coming out with that in there, it was insensitive of me, I guess I just didn't realise it was such a big deal for you" she paused trying to find the words, "And now that I do, I want to talk to you about something, something that I've never spoken to anyone about until today. There's something I need you to know" Intrigued by her words, and the intent look in her girlfriends eyes Callie pushed herself up to a sitting position "Okay?" she said, her voice still scratchy from crying, her tone unsure.
"When my brother died" Arizona pushed through the pain that instantly flared up with the memory, "I watched my parents come apart piece by piece. I saw the sadness of their loss, the inescapable guilt when they started to blame themselves, then the anger when they needed the blame to go away. I watched as they changed, as the suffering they felt, from the loss of their little boy, changed them. I watch it every day at the hospital Calliope, every time I tell a family I couldn't save their little boy, or little girl, I watch the light go out of their eyes." She ran her hands through her messy curls, pushing them out of her eyes. "When Matthew died, he took pieces of all of us with him, and sure I was devastated. But it didn't take so much from me that I couldn't be repaired; my parents weren't so lucky. For months afterwards my mom could barely be around me, barely look at me, because every time she saw me" she paused, a smile playing on her face "She saw Matthew". "Ari, I'm so sorry for the way I acted" Callie's voice was small, as she reached out and placed a hand on Arizona's arm, desperately wanting to pull her close, but fearing her girlfriend was too far away to feel it as she watched her stare into space, lost in her memories momentarily. "The point is Calliope" the blonde continued, pushing the memory of her lost sibling away, as she focused on not loosing anyone else she loved tonight, "It's not that I don't want to have children with you... How could I not want to see tiny Calliopes running around, being as much as a handful as their mother" they both laughed at the thought, "The point is, I'm scared" her voice dropped to almost a whisper, and in that moment Callie saw the vulnerability beneath all the earlier casual banter and remarks about chickens. "I'm scared that we'll have a tiny Calliope and she'll be absolutely perfect... and one day she'll get sick, or she'll forget to look before she crosses the street, and then we won't have her anymore. I don't know if I can bear to watch the light go out of your eyes" her voice broke on the last sentence, and she buried her face in her hands, wiping away the tears that had flooded her eyes.
Callie's heart was breaking at the sight in front of her; she'd never seen Arizona so broken up about anything before. She took Arizona in her arms and pulled her shaking body into her chest and held her tight, stroking soothing circles in her back as tears slid down Ari's cheeks. They stayed like that that for what seemed like hours, Callie running her fingers through Arizona's unruly blonde curls whispering calming words. Silence filled the room giving both of them time to process through the millions of thoughts and fears swimming around in their own minds. Eventually, Arizona pulled away from Calliope's chest to look in her eyes; they always held Callie's true feelings. They showed sadness, yes, but most of all they shone with love and pride for the amazing woman in front of her. It had dawned on Callie just how difficult this whole thing must be to Arizona, for her own parents to not be able to look at her because they saw a son who they no longer had, to see children suffer every day and the hell that parents go went watching their own flesh and blood slowing perish before their eyes. Arizona was what Callie wanted, she was everything she needed, just her, beautiful caring Arizona. How could she throw that away even if it was for a child? Arizona had been there for her in the worst of times, always picking up the broken pieces and gluing them all back together, no matter how much time and effort it took. Arizona was Callie's world, she didn't need children in her future, as long as she had her blonde goddess by her side she would be the happiest woman on the planet.
"Ari, I understand. I'm so sorry for all this; I was an idiot I didn't think about how hard this would be for you. It's just something I've always seen for myself, you know? But you are everything I will ever need, when I look into my future all I see is you, as long as you're by my side I don't need anything more. My life will always be complete as long as you are in it."
Arizona let a small smile appear on her face: "You'd really give all that up for me?"
"Without a second thought baby. You are the oxygen that I breathe; your love fuels my heart and body, it gives me everything I need to function every day. Without you I don't think I could survive so yes I can give all of it up for you."
Arizona couldn't believe the love she felt for the woman sat next to her, she felt like her heart might explode. Her miraculous Calliope was throwing everything she had ever wanted since being a little girl away just like that, for her. A mega-watt smile graced her face, dimples on full display.
"You are the most incredible person I have ever met, Calliope. You have no idea how much it means to me that you would just throw away all your dreams like that, just for me. I didn't think I could love you any more than I did but I was so so wrong, you are remarkable. Thank you for supporting me Calliope, maybe… perhaps… we could talk about this again later on… I'm not promising anything, but we can talk since it means so much to you." Arizona tenderly told Callie.
Tears glistened in their eyes with adoration from the love they had found within each other and just how much each was willing to sacrifice and compromise to ensure the others happiness. Callie slowly pulled Arizona back towards her, momentarily lost in each other's eyes; swirling chocolate pools mixing with sparkling blue. Their lips brushed together, and electricity sparked between the two, passion taking over their bodies, adrenaline flooding through their veins and heart rates racing. Callie slipped her hand into Arizona's hair pulling her closer as their tongues battled for dominance, Arizona's hands gripped behind Callie's back crushing their bodies together. Air soon became a priority so they both pulled away resting their foreheads against each other, struggling to catch their breath. Electricity flowed through the air in the room and it was only a matter of time before they went too far to be appropriate for work, thinking this Callie asked,
"Do you want to go home now?"