Summary:

After BD, Reneesme finds out about her Aunt Rosalie's past.

Author's Note:

Just to make it clear they do not live in forks and Reneesme is physically 16.

Quiet Things She'll Never Know

Ch. 1 The Weeping of the Moon

Nessie POV

I was sitting on top of the roof of the cottage. The night was still with a light touch of a breeze. The sky had the purple tint to it and the moon

was full, I felt so close to it. I looked to my left, where I can see the Mansion. It is about 20 ft from the cottage. I sat admiring the architecture

the mansion had, I looked to the top floor in one of the windows where I saw my Aunt Rosalie sitting at her vanity. She was writing in what

looked liked her diary. I watched her beautiful facial expressions go from being in deep thought to sadness in the matter of two seconds.

There she sat, sobbing dry tears. I didn't need Uncle Jasper to tell me the pain and agony she was feeling, her actions spoke for themselves.

I've never seen my Aunt Rose like this. I mean, I've seen every mood of hers but this was different, it was heartbreaking to watch. I watched

her get up and lay on her bed, curling up in ball crying endless sobs. I wished Uncle Emmett was here, but he was away with Uncle Jasper,

Aunt Alice, and my Dad on another hunting trip. Grandpa Carlisle was at work as usual. I glanced toward the living room window where Mom

and Grandma Esme were watching a movie, but were so into it they didn't realize Rosalie was just up stairs in so much pain. My Aunt was so

alone; I couldn't bear to leave her there in that state. I had to go to her. I got down from the roof and ran toward the house. I threw open

the front door, ran up the stairs, hearing mom and grandma call my name but I ignored them, and continued upstairs. As I ran up the stairs I

realized she would probably hear me coming but I didn't care. Finally I reached her door and just as I was about to knock she opened it.

"Oh hey Nessie, what's up?" she said nonchalantly. Of course vampires cannot cry real tears, so she could cover up her true feelings in an instant.

I was caught completely off guard by her sudden calmness and said the only thing that popped up in my head, while I tried to put a smile on my face. "Oh hey I… I… I was wondering if you wanted to go catch a movie? "

"Yeah, sure, sounds great,"she said smiling.

She hugged my shoulders as we walked side by side downstairs. Mom and grandma were waiting by the bottom of the stairs with worried looks on their faces. "Reneesme, what's wrong? Why did you fly up the stairs?" Mom asked with a panic tone.

"Oh, ... well I wanted to see if Aunt Rose wanted to go the movies with me... and the movie starts in...Uh... (I looked at my watch) 20 minutes, so we really need to be leaving." Thank god dad wasn't here to see through my lies, mom on the other hand was a little easier to convince.

"Oh….okay well you two have fun" mom said as she turned and walked back towards the living room, and sat back on the couch. YES! Saved! She bought it!

Just as I thought I was free she asked from the couch, "What are you guys going to watch?" Damn it!! Think, think, think Reneesme! "Uh...umm..." Just then I remembered I wanted to see Hitch with Jacob. We were supposed to go together, but Seth needed "the alpha" and so Jake was gone for the night.

"Hitch! Yeah, Hitch. It looks um...cute and funny, and I'm in one of those moods." I said smiling and turning to Aunt Rosalie who smiled back.

"Okay then I'll see you when you get back and Rosalie please don't drive crazy like that brother of yours." Rosalie chuckled "I won't…just faster." She said smiling as we walked out the door.

Rosalie POV

I got up from the couch where Esme and Bella were lost watching television. The show itself was boring, so, I decided to go up stairs and

write in my dairy. I only wrote when Alice, Emmett, and especially Edward weren't here (for obvious reasons) which wasn't too often. I looked

out the window, where the moon was beaming. It was a beautiful night. I enjoyed the night's that were starless; it made the world seem so

real and imperfect. I always thought starless skies only happened when God was feeling lonely and sometimes sad. This is exactly how I felt

right now, especially with Emmett being gone. God, how I missed him. It made me think of a quote from Tennessee Williams "When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone." I grabbed my diary from the back of my closet and made my

way to my vanity. I read my last entry.

"Today was the day we all realized Reneesme loved Jacob. Not as her best friend, but as a real love. It was obvious, the way she talked about him

with that perfect smile of hers and the blush that erupted when Emmett was making fun of her for loving a dog. Haha. I loved it when us three had

our talks. It was like, we were a family. I mean we are but it was like she was our daughter for a moment. My happiness was shot right back down

when she turned and greeted Bella with a hug. They walked off still hugging each other she told her the same thing she was telling us. Emmett just

looked at me, with the same hurt in his eyes that I had in mine. I hated doing this to him. I couldn't help it though. I can't help it. I know what I

have and I'm so grateful for Emmett and my family. Reneesme has brought so much joy in my heart but she is also a constant reminder of what I

can never have.

I started to write about today, with my last entry still in my head. I couldn't help but to have it replay in my head while I was writing.

Dear Diary,

Today has been long. Emmett is away with the others, hunting of course. I spent my day shopping with Esme, Bella and Reneesme. I did more

damage than I wanted to. Alice is so going to want to borrow my new lavender blouse. I worked on Esme's car for a while, giving it a tune up since

we had been driving her car a lot more lately. Reneesme went to do her own thing and I decided to go downstairs with Bella and Esme and we

watched a movie. It was about a woman whose child went missing but found her years later so it had the eventual happy ending. I don't know why

we watch the lifetime network. I hate that channel yet, I still watch it. Children. The story of my life. Earlier today I was watching Bella and

Reneesme talking and laughing, clearly having mother and daughter time. I envied that. Esme looked my way and smiled, walking towards me. I

looked at her with a quick smile and looked down playing with my fingers. "You know Rosalie that is a great feeling to bond with your daughter", she

said sitting next to me while looking at Bella and Reneesme. She touched my hand. "I love having those with you, and someday, when you are

ready, you'll have them with yours. I know it is not the same, but it worked for me", she said so gently. "I know Esme, I love spending time with

you too but I can't help but be reminded of what I can't have." I said quietly. I leaned and kissed her on the cheek, walking away to the garage.

I closed my Dairy and then all of a sudden I can feel the weeping coming. I tried to control myself but I couldn't. I kept it as quietly as I could, I

didn't want Bella or Esme to come up here, so I placed my hand over my mouth. I occasionally did this and sometimes Edward would know.

He would ask if I was okay and I would say always. Since Reneesme, we've actually bickered less, which I liked. He knows that I fought for

that gift of life and he is forever grateful to me. I made my way to the bed, curling up in a ball and releasing the endless cries. I wanted

Emmett but at the same time I didn't. It would break his heart to see me like this. I wondered if Alice knew. Well she had to, it's Alice. She'll

probably ask me if I was alright too. I heard footsteps starting to run up the stairs. Reneesme. I wondered why she's coming up here. I

quickly stopped and made my way to my mirror to make myself look presentable. Good, I look perfectly fine. I ran to the door, as soon as I

opened it she was right there. She looked thrown off guard.

"Oh, hey Nessie, what's up?" I said while her faced seemed surprised. I know she couldn't have known anything.

"Oh hey I… I… I was wondering if you wanted to go catch a movie?" she said quickly.

"Yeah sure sounds great," I said smiling. We made our way downstairs; I had my arm around her shoulders.

"Reneesme, what's wrong? Why did you fly up the stairs?" Bella asked worriedly. I looked at her wondering the same thing.

"Oh, ... well I wanted to see if Aunt Rose wanted to go the movies with me... and the movie starts in...Uh... (she looked at her watch) 20 minutes, so we really need to be leaving."

"Oh….okay well you guys have fun" Bella said turning and walking back towards the living room.

"What are you guys going to watch?"She asked from the couch. Reneesme took some time to think about her answer. I looked at her curiously.

"Uh...um...Hitch! Yeah Hitch. It looks... cute and funny, I'm in one of those moods" she said smiling, turning to me, I smiled back.

"Okay then I'll see you when you get back and Rosalie please don't drive crazy like that brother of yours."

I chuckled "I won't…just faster," I said as we walked out the door.