Jaded Eyes
Chapter 1
You know that feeling where you think nobody cares about you, nobody loves you well guess what thats how i feel.
I ask myself these questions.
why was i born?
was i ment to be in this world?
am i wanted here?
I've been looking for the answers for a long time still nothing.
I;m planning on leaving this world this mess i made.
I never found happiness.
I never felt loved.
I never felt free.
but i don't have to feel that way anymore.
Want to know why?
I'm ending it I'm ending the thing that ruined me, im talking about my life, my soul , my everything I've gave up on my Friends my family ,myself.
I know they will miss me or do they want me gone?
another question to be answered maybe one answer ill never know.
I never got why i was born alive, my mom never loved me,
my father he abused me.
the only people i love are my friends and i have 13 letter for each of them.
because i need them to know how much i loved them and how much i cared for them.
but one of those letter are the reason I am about to commit suicide.
Although i will miss them terribly, I just need to leave forever.
These are the people i love and care for.
Adam Torres Dave Turner Fiona Coyne Holly J. Sinclair Clare Edwards K.C Guthrie Declan Coyne Sav Bhandari Eli Goldsworthy Alli Bhandari Anya Macpherson Jenna Middleton Zane Park
These 13 people cared for me not only that loved me.
Who is behind my death?
Who is my best friend?
Who is in love with me?
~Rayne S.T