The Story Within the Competition Chapter 1: Part 1, a misc. tv shows fanfic

The Story within the Competition
by Haruhikan Tamayaga

"…And the one who will win the 3rd season of Search for the Superstar is…"

I never thought I'll be facing the judges on this last stage. I only dreamt of reaching here but never thought I'll be actually standing here. These last few weeks were a big pressure to everyone, especially me and…

10 weeks earlier…

"I can't believe we're going to the Pressure Week."

"I never thought we're still intact! Teresa was a mess on that day."

"Well, I'm sorry! I don't really felt good that time…" That's true. I didn't know what I ate before the audition. That's why I kind of messed our performance.

The day before the Pressure Week starts. I and my group mates are already packing our bags and talking about what would happen in Pressure Week. Good thing Ella saved my weak performance in the audition.

We call ourselves, Frieljo Moter. It's a play with our names together. Kind of funny, though.

"Teresa's right Francis, you don't need to blame her for that."

"I'm not blaming her. I'm just saying that I thought we were in big trouble when she made a mistake. But it's a good thing you did something to save her, Ella." Francis moved closer to Ella and put his hand around her. I looked away.

"Oh please! PDA is illegal here!" That was Monica, another of our friends.

We started living together three months after we saw each other in an audition for a famous TV station in the Philippines. We've known each other since college but we were not that close, then.

Ever since we started living together, I've got to know more of them, especially Francis. But I didn't know that he and Ella were already dating for three years. But at least I'll be close to him.

The door suddenly opened and Joshua appeared. "Guys, I just received a call from the Superstar staff. We need to go there immediately so we'll be able to get to the dorms. They'll wait until noon." And he went in to finish packing.

"Wow that was fast!" Monica said when Joshua went in.

When we were done with everything, Joshua immediately drove his car on the front door and I gave our apartment key to our landlady.

"Good luck to you. I've seen you perform one time and you were definitely great. Just believe in yourself, okay?"

"I'll remember that. Don't worry we'll include you in our thank you speech." And we were gone.

When we arrived on the venue where the Pressure Week will happen, everyone is already there. The staff told everyone that we will be facing the judges later that afternoon so we have to get ready.

"What do you think? Can we pass through this week?" Joshua started asking us.

"Of course we will! Just believe in ourselves and we'll definitely pass." Francis said with a loud voice. Good thing no one heard him nor understood us. Since we are all Filipinos in the group, we just love talking in our mother tongue.

"However, I heard there were groups who disbanded because of the Pressure Week before. So I'm kind of worried for us." I told them.

"Nonsense! Teresa, we will pass this, all of us, together. Don't worry." Monica said to me.

"Everyone go inside to the stage. The judges are already there." We heard a staff yell.

I was nervous when we stood on the stage in front of the judges. When we were all quiet, Simon Lee, one of the judges, immediately said, "Today we will start the first elimination in Pressure Week. Those who will fail have to get their bags and ride their way home. We will start in one hour." Then he sat down and talked to the other judges.

Now what will we do? We haven't practiced for weeks. What will we perform?

"Let's do Destiny. We performed it last year in an audition and we nailed it." Joshua started.

"No. I think we should do Don't Stop Believing since that was the song that got us the first place in another audition." I also suggested.

A whole five minutes passed until we reached the final decision. We will instead sing Bring Me to Life since we haven't performed the song yet. I can tell that we love risking a lot at times. But I worried that we will risk it on this audition.

When we were called to the stage, my hands were ice-cold. I was very nervous. We shouldn't have risked it. But what will I do, we're here and no other way out. When it's our turn to stand in the middle, I just kept telling myself to do well and not make a mistake.

How can you see into my eyes
Like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Or I've become so numb.

I started fine. In spite of all the nervousness I felt, I started perfect.

Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and
Save me from the dark

Bid my blood to run
Before I've come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life

Everything was going perfectly, until Ella forgot the next verse. I had to save the performance, so I sang the whole verse. Call it stealing if you want, I just don't know what hit me and sang her part on that one.

Frozen in time
Without your touch
Without your love, darlin'
Only you are the life
Among the dead

Bring me to life

When everyone in our batch finished their performances, the judges announced the ones who'll pass and who'll fail. Three teams were called and they all passed. Good for them, I loved what they did. Then, they called us.

"Frieljo Moter, only two of you passed. I will announce the result. Teresa and Francis… Pass! And the rest fails. Thank you. Next…"

And that became of Frieljo Moter. What really happened there was a shock, for me and the rest. The judges told us that we didn't sound good or we just performed for the sake of performing. They also told us that we haven't sung the song together before because of the flats and sharps they were hearing. I don't remember if I got sharp or flat.

What I didn't understand was the words they told me. They said that I should've not taken over Ella's part and other more. I really can't understand how the judges do their jobs. Now, Francis and I are alone in this week. I really hope no one of us will be eliminated in the future.

"You two, don't hold back, alright? Sweep off their feet. Win this!" Ella told the both of us.

"Don't worry. Teresa and I can do this, as long as we have each other." Francis told her. What Francis said was sweet, especially the last part. Good thing I didn't blush.

The staff finally told everyone who passed to head to the buses. We said our goodbyes when we reached the buses. When we were inside the bus, Francis and I didn't get to sit together because of all the people inside.

I got to sit together with a Korean guy who I think is smiling at me. While the bus is on the way to the hotel, the Korean guy started talking to me. Time to get to know the other people, I thought.

"I'm Kim Jun Young. What's your name?" He offered his hand.

"Teresa… Teresa Cruz." And we shook hands. His hands were warm enough for him to feel my hands were cold. He was about to ask when I told him, "Just happy… and nervous." Then, he laughed. I laugh too because he was laughing funny.

We reached the hotel we will be staying and Jun Young and I have got to know each other. He was actually interested in the Philippines and kept asking me about it. I discovered that he once lived there when he was still young. I still don't quite understand him but he was actually fun to talk with.

The room distributions depend on the teams and most decided that they will have the room per team, so Francis and I have to live in one room. Even though we lived in one room for two years already, I still feel awkward. Now that we will have to share one room together, by ourselves, it became the most awkward state I was in.

The next day, everyone was called to the venue. We will have to perform collaborations with other teams. We were grouped with Lee Ji Kyung, David Smith, and Kim Jun Young. When I heard Jun Young will be in our collaboration group, I was a bit happy because at least there's someone I know.

After we've decided what we'll be performing the next two days, we took the chance to get to know each other. Ji Kyung grew up in California while David from Texas. Jun Young told us what he told me last night. He grew up travelling around the world because his father's job requires travel.

We did the rest of the day rearranging and practicing the songs Teenage Dream and Total Eclipse of the Heart. David was the one who suggested Teenage Dream while everyone agreed with the other one. Rearranging and combining both songs are hard enough, what else is singing both at the same time.

The day of the second elimination in Pressure Week arrives. We will be on in a few minutes and we practiced for the last time. So far, we still have to work on the harmony but I think we can do it. We were called and we all walked proudly on the stage, nervousness behind us.

We started singing and I thought we were great, until the judges asked us if we were satisfied with what we showed them. Each one of us answered them. Only Francis, Jun Young and I thought that we still need a little more time to perfect the song.

"We will announce the result. Kim Jun Young… Pass! Lee Ji Kyung… Pass! David Smith… Fail! Teresa Cruz and Francis Yan… Pass!"

For the second time, we passed! My prayers are actually being answered. When we were off the stage, we comforted David as much as we can. He was sad, of course, but he didn't show it to us. He rode the fail bus with a smile on his face. He was brave enough to do that, and I admire him for that.

While inside the passers' bus, the staff told everyone to have the next day to rest because everyone will be back on that Friday. At last, a day to rest my voice.

When we arrived at our room, I immediately lie down on my bed and fell asleep. When I woke up, there was a blanket over me and my shoes were taken off. I saw Francis eating near the window.

"Good morning. Come and eat. I bought these from the nearest restaurant." he said.

He bought a perfect breakfast for two. "Aw, how sweet, I never thought you had it in you." I joked.

"Yeah, that's maybe because I took pity on you. Anyway, congratulations for passing the second round."

"You too, congratulations! You were great last night. I never thought we sounded great last night even though we had a problem with harmony and all."

"That, my dear Teresa, is what we call 'Believing in yourself'."

The whole day we spent talking to each other, contacting the rest of Frieljo Moter, and resting. More on the resting part. We also hung with the other contestants downstairs in the lobby but most of the time we were in our room, resting.

What we didn't expect was the day after. We were all called to the Pressure Week venue and the staff announced that there will be an Elimination Death Match where two teams will have a duet.

There, the judges will decide whoever will go on to the live shows. Now that was a new rule that they told us. Also, they added that this will be the final elimination round for Pressure Week. Names were called and we were partnered with Janette Lopez. We chose to sing The Climb. We went to practice on one corner.

What I dislike about Janette is that she chooses to sing the good parts while she left me and Francis on the other parts. That is so unfair for us. Good thing a staff came over and asked if there were any problems.

"We're having a little problem on how we will divide the song since all three of us are good in vocals." Francis immediately told the staff. Now, that staff is so kind to help us on dividing the parts. Before the day ended, another staff announced that the two buses are already outside and we are immediately required to face the judges.

It's already our turn to face the judges and we performed with fast beating hearts. You can say that we almost didn't perform it right. And another unexpected thing happened,

"What I liked in your performance is that you all did your best but we have to pick one team to continue to the live shows. People think that giving your all on a performance will give you good comments, but for me, it's not good to look at if the performance itself is crap. Janette Lopez… Pass!"

We failed.

"Francis Yan and Teresa Cruz, I think only one of you will have to go on. The name I'm going to call will pass…" He looked at the both of us. "Teresa Cruz."

One week before moving into the Live show dorm…

"Congratulations, Teresa! Don't give up! Make us proud!" The whole gang shouted as I enter the apartment door.

"Thank you, guys." Tears welled up on my eyes.

"Don't cry, Teresa. You deserve to be there. We'll watch you on the live shows." Ella said to me.

"Ella's right. You deserve to be there. And I know why I failed that time, I made a mistake on the lyrics." Francis added.

"No, you didn't." I told him.

"Really?" he laughed, "But it doesn't matter. What matter is you passed and Frieljo Moter has a strong fighter on the live shows."

"Always think of us, alright?" Monica said. "Don't forget to brew some tea leaves. It will help your voice." Joshua added.

Now that I look at them, they looked different. "Let me guess. You two are dating, right?" They answered with a smile. "At last!" and we all laughed.

"Now that all us have our partners, find yourself one already, Teresa." Ella said.

"Don't worry, I'll find one, someday. I'm not rushing my love life, unlike you four." Again we laughed. Living together with them were the best in my life yet. We always have fun together and we get to help each other on our weaknesses.

The day to move in the dorms came. I'm riding the bus towards the meeting place when I remembered what happened in the last few moments in Pressure Week.

Eight days before…

"…Teresa Cruz."

My prayers were not answered on this day. Why on this day, when we're one step close to the live shows? We stepped out the stage hall and I reached Francis' hand to comfort him. The three of us immediately went to the buses. There were two buses this time: one for the failed and another for the passed. There, Francis and I had a long goodbye. We made an agreement that I should still do my best and practice well. Then, he rode the failed bus.

I was crying when Janette and I sat in the passer's bus. We waited until all contestants were finished. Then, the fail bus left. I didn't notice that we also left the venue until Jun Young called my name. I didn't notice him climb the bus, so I was shocked to see him there.

"We're at the hotel already. Do you want to be left alone instead?" he asked.

"I'm sorry." I stood up. "I just felt down lately." And we got off the bus.

"I understand you. It's hard to leave your friends behind. But don't worry, I'll be here for you."

"Thanks. But I'd rather have a time alone today. See you." And I entered our room.

The next day, the staff told us that we will again meet the judges for an interview. Why do we have to be interviewed? I asked myself.

After getting ready for the interview, the staff told us that we will be interviewed in pairs. We all waited in the hotel lobby while the others are called to be interviewed.

When it was my turn, I've got to know that the judges were kind enough to everyone. But since it's a competition, they have to show their rough side. I went in together with Ji Kyung.

"Do you think you can live with everyone in the dorms? We know you don't like one of the others. How will you cope if ever you will be able to live with them? " Adam Lavigne, another judge, asked us.

"I think I'll cope and be friends with everyone. The only reason why I didn't like her is because she has this attitude that I don't like." I answered after Ji Kyung.

"What attitude is that?"

"Is it okay to say?" I asked them, "Well, she has… an airy attitude."

"And… she seems distant to everyone. She doesn't talk to us much." Ji Kyung added.

"May we know who that is?" Maria Lambert, another judge asked.

Ji Kyung and I looked at each other and she said who we were talking about. After a few minutes, we finished the interview and head out again to wait in the lobby.

After an hour, we were called again one by one to face a judge. Some came back with a sad face while some were happy. When I was called, I entered a room with the judge sitting on a sofa.

"Hello Teresa. Come sit with me here." And I seated. "How are you? You were great this week. I can say you surpassed my expectations. Did you know you are one of my personal favorites here?" and she said a lot more. "Teresa, promise me that whatever the result is, you will keep on singing and performing, alright? Teresa Cruz… you…!"

I went out the room with a straight face. When I walked in the lobby, all the other contestants started asking, "What happened? Did you pass? Did you fail?"

I breathe deeply before I shouted, "Pass!"

Everyone congratulated me before another one was called. I was about to sit with Ji Kyung but Jun Young pulled me to sit beside him. Jun Young was called before me, and he also passed.

"Congratulations." He said with a smile on his face, I thanked him. "We'll live together in the dorms."

I laughed and told him, "Technically living together. I didn't know you have this sense of humor. You were always so quiet when everyone's having fun."

"Maybe that's because I didn't grew up in a happy household. You know, we always travel every time my father gets a job."

"Well, you have to get used to it, now that we'll be together in one roof." I joked.

"I'll expect that." We stayed quiet for a moment until another contestant came back with a smile.

After Janette, the last person to be called, came back and told us that she passed, we were told that those who passed will be meeting again after one week here in the lobby and we can get back to our homes to rest.

"I'll expect to know you more and see you in one week, Teresa Cruz." Jun Young told me then he went up to his room.

The day of moving to the dorms…

When I arrived at the hotel, all who passed were there except Jun Young. Ji Kyung told me that he is already being called before we can go to the dorms. When Jun Young came with a staff, he looked a little rugged. I was going to ask him but we were asked to get in the bus.

On the journey to the dorms, Ji Kyung and I got off our seats and talked with the others. The whole bus was full of laughing people because of the fun that was happening inside. When we arrived at the gate of the dormitory, the staff who rode with us told us to get off so we would be able to see the place more.

With our bags, everyone got off and started exploring the place. Ji Kyung and I walked towards the house where we will be staying. We stayed there and talked until Jun Young came to us and sat beside Ji Kyung. To tell you the truth, I didn't like what he did. If he likes me, I don't know why I thought that, he should've sat beside me.

Ji Kyung started to talk with him in Korean. Now, I'm out of place. I understand very small of the language, so as much as I want to know what they were talking about, I won't be able to.

The others came and we went inside the house. Before we take our rest, the staff said that we will be given five minutes to call one person and say goodbye to them. After the given time, we will all come back at the living room for other instructions.

After they've given the signal to start, I thought who to call. I can't call my friends since they'll be busy, so I made a long distance call to my mother. My mother is in the Philippines. Before my friends and I first moved to Seoul, I lived with my mother. She was one of the reasons that I want to pursue my dream; she really want me to live out my dream.

At last, I got through. "Hello, Ma!"

"Teresa, dear! Kamusta ka diyan? Kumakain ka ba ng maayos? Anong nangyari sa sinabi mong audition? Nakapasa ka ba? Sumagot ka namang bata ka, ang tahimik mo, eh! (Teresa, dear! How are you? Are you eating well? What happened to the audition you were talking about? Did you pass? Answer me, dear, you're so quiet!)" my mom asked.

"Okay lang ako, Ma. Nandito na 'ko sa training dormitory ng Search for the Superstar. Binigyan lang kami ng oras para sa sarili namin. Bawal kasi mga gadgets dito kaya binigyan din kami ng huling tawag. Eh, kayo? Kamusta kayo diyan? Sana wala naman kayong sakit. (I'm fine, mom. I'm at the training dormitory of Search for the Superstar. They gave us time for ourselves. Gadgets were not allowed here, that's why this will be my last call while I'm here. Anyway, how are you? You're not ill, right?)" I answered.

"Mag-iingat ka, ha? 'Wag mong pagurin 'yang boses mo. Alam mo namang may karamdaman ka pagdating sa boses mo, eh. (Take care of yourself, okay? Don't stress your voice. You know you have a vocal problem.)" while she was saying those words, tears were already falling down.

"Opo. 'Wag din po kayo masyadong magpagod. Hindi na kayo bumabata. Sige na, Ma. Itatago na 'tong phone… Miss na kita, Ma. I love you. (I will. You, too, mom, don't overwork yourself. You're not young anymore. I have to go, Ma. They have to keep the phone… I miss you, mom. I love you.)" I finally said.

Before I ended the call, my mom kept on reminding me to take care, and she missed and loves me too. That made me cry. I let myself calm down and wiped my tears before I went back to the living room.

"Before you get comfortable in the house, we will first inspect your bags. We will confiscate all illegal items that you brought." I didn't see that coming. One by one they checked all bags. Even the hidden pockets were not safe.

Some hid cigarettes, cell phones, while others kept weird stuff. When they saw my medicine kit, they immediately saw a pack of tea bags inside it. "Those are my medicines. It's for the voice. If you don't believe me, there's a medical certificate with it." And they put it back in my bag.

After all bags were inspected, room assignments were told. They gave four room keys to four people, including me. We have to go to the room first and wait for our roommates there.

The four of us immediately went upstairs and entered the rooms with the keys. When I got in, I saw that there were three sets of bunk beds. I chose the bed nearest to the door.

While waiting for my roommates, I took off my jacket and changed into a comfortable shirt and shorts. Exactly after I finished changing, Ji Kyung went in. After a few minutes, Janette came in also and the HitGirls – the so-called rich girl group came after. I think we're complete already.

Few minutes before everyone was told to sleep, the HitGirls did a room hopping. They also dragged me and Ji Kyung. We got to discover who was roomed with whom.

The first room has Jun Young. He's together with Rico Adams – a Berklee University graduate, Anthony Smith – the famous lady's man, and Song Ah In – the soul singer. In the second room, there were three members of the Silencers – the rock group, and Yoon Jae Williams – the half Korean male belter. The third room was packed with the Honey Warriors – they call themselves sweet, and Marcus Brice – the other member of Silencers.

When we finished looking to all rooms, Roan dragged me to the first room with the fresh boys – she called them that. When she opened the door, we saw Anthony changing his pants. I immediately looked away and went to our room. I was not ready to be catching guys changing clothes.

That day ended when I fell asleep trying to think about my friends.

The next day, we have to rise early because we will have to start our training. On our first training, we have to sing any song that we feel comfortable. The Korean guys sang songs in their own language, and some showed what they can do.

It was my turn already and I sang a low emotional song. The coach said that I give a good performance, but I should watch my expressions and notes because I became flat or sharp on some parts. They were good to notice that because I didn't notice I hit the wrong notes.

The coach also told us that within this week we will have to improve ourselves on vocals, since they've noticed that we were all lacking on some aspects. After the training, the staff informed us that this coming Saturday, the first live show will happen.

So to get ready, we were given different song choices and the one we will pick, we're going to perform. I chose to sing Kelly Clarkson's Because of You.

They also told us that the theme this week is first love. When I think about my first love, I immediately think of my high school crush. We were required to tell a little something about the theme and I've got to hear about all their first love.

Most of them had a very happy experience and Jun Young was one of them. I didn't know that he and Ji Kyung were once dating years ago. That's why they were so close before we went inside, but I've never seen them together these past few days, only today.

His story about first love was all about Ji Kyung. While he was telling his story, I looked at him carefully and he looked happy, then I looked at Ji Kyung and she too was happy.

I hate this, why must I always the one at the losing side? My first love, Francis, and now Jun Young! Okay, maybe Jun Young is only a crush, but I don't like this feeling inside me.

Then, they all turned to me. It was my turn to tell my story.

"My first love… was in high school," I started "He was a good friend and also my classmate. Actually, I didn't expect to fall for him. It was my first time to fall in love, so whenever he's near, I just keep quiet. He got the chance to know my feelings… but he said he's already going out with somebody and… it would be better to be friends," I heard them react, "When I got home that day, I cried a lot because I was hurt. And because of that, I didn't find a boyfriend until now." After I finished my story, they all told me that they'll find me a boyfriend. "Really? You don't have to."

For the rest of the week, I only focused on improving my vocals. On free times, Bryan – member of Honey Warriors, Anthony, and the HitGirls, kept on asking me about my type of guy. I just ignore their questions and talk about other stuff. But they got the chance to know it.

I was practicing alone and while I was resting, Marcus, Bryan, Roan entered the room. Behind them were Ji Kyung and Jun Young, they surrounded me while I was seated.

"Tell us already, Teresa. What's your type of guy?" Roan asked.

"Yeah, so we can find you a boyfriend." That was Marcus.

"Where will you find one? It's only us here." I asked them.

"There are the staff members, Song Ah In, Rico, Anthony – no, he's a playboy, Yoon Jae, and Bryan." Marcus answered.

"Why am I included? I have a girlfriend already." Bryan said and we laughed.

"Why am I not included?" Jun Young asked. I immediately looked at him.

Roan answered him, "You're not included because we will have to relive your first love with Ji Kyung."

With what Roan said, I felt down but I didn't show them. Instead I said smiling, "I'll help you, Roan."

"Anyway, c'mon Teresa, tell us." Bryan can't wait anymore.

"I don't really know. I really fall fast to guys who treat me kindly." I finally answered.

"You mean like… Jun Young?!" they all asked in unison, except Ji Kyung and Jun Young. When I looked at them, I saw both of them smiling. Are they laughing at me?

"Really? No," then his smile disappeared. Now, what does that mean? "I mean like treating me special, or something like that."

"You," Roan said, "You're living in fairy tale, right?"

"Am I? Maybe I really am. What can I do? My first love had a big impact to me." I said laughing.

Then Marcus said, "But don't worry, Teresa. We'll definitely find you your special someone."

The day of the first Live Show...

We all woke up early to get ready for the live show that night. While everyone was preparing their clothes and make up, I was in the kitchen preparing my medicine. While I was waiting for the medicine to brew, Jun Young came to me and asked about what happened few days before.

"Cinderella, what are you cooking?" he started.

"Did you just call me 'Cinderella'?"

"Did I?"

"You just called me… What do you want?" I asked irritated.

"Nothing. I didn't know you looked cute when you're jealous."

"Who's jealous? And when did I get jealous?"

"When they planned to get Ji Kyung and me back together."

He got me. "Did I look jealous that time? I was just happy for you guys, especially Ji Kyung. I didn't even know that you were once together until you told everyone."

"You… didn't really get jealous?"

Then I heard a whistling sound. It was my medicine, it's already done. When I turned back to the counter, he was already gone. Thanks to my medicine, I was saved.

When we all arrived at the venue of the live show, we were immediately asked to get ready backstage. Ji Kyung and I helped each other on preparing. I wore a long black cocktail dress with patterned sequins. Half of my hair was tied while the rest were curled.

We were not yet finished putting makeup when the staff called to practice the stage directions. I put on a blazer before we followed the staff. When we got out, all the boys were sitting on the stage.

Jun Young immediately came to us and said, "You… look amazing." I was about to answer when Ji Kyung answered, "Thanks. You should also compliment Teresa. She looks stunning, isn't she?"

"Y…Yeah, so let's go." He answered. I was sure he was asking me, or maybe I was wrong. When we joined them, we immediately started.

After giving the stage directions, we were asked to stay in the dressing room until the show starts. Until then, Ji Kyung and Janette helped me finish preparing. While holding my medicine drink, Anthony, together with Song Ah In, Jun Young and Marcus, entered our dressing room. Good thing we're all finished dressing up.

"Hello, ladies! What's up?" Anthony said as soon as he opened the door.

"I thought we're not allowed to get out the dressing room? How did you guys get here?" Rain, member of HitGirls, asked.

"They saw us and they didn't even said anything," Marcus replied.

"What do you want anyway?" Rona, another HitGirls member, asked them.

"Well…" Anthony answered, "Two reasons why we're here: First, for Jun Young to inspire himself," he put his hand on Jun Young's shoulder, "and Second, for Teresa." He looked at me and winked.

"Oh, no you don't! You are not qualified for our Teresa." Roan told him.

"He knows he's not qualified. That's why I dragged Song Ah In." Marcus interrupted.

With what I heard, I tried to acknowledge their effort. "Ah In oppa!" I said sweetly. When I said that, Ah In also replied in a sweet tone. While, I can't figure out Jun Young's.

"Shall we leave them to have a private time?" Anthony asked.

"I agree. Ji Kyung, Jun Young come with us. Let them have alone time." Roan said. They all helped drag the two of them out the dressing room.

When they were gone, Ah In immediately apologized. "No, it's okay. I can't stop them anyway. It's what they want and I understand why they want to do this."

"Well… they're effort will be wasted if I won't make a move right?" he started, "So, what do you want to talk about?"

"You know, you really look like my first love, really. The only difference is your shape of face. He's round-faced while you're square-faced." I said.

"Really? Maybe that's why they want me to be close to you." I laughed immediately when he said that.

"No, they don't know anything about him. I never told anyone what he looked like, until now."

"Did you have any contact with him after you confessed?"

"Actually, I didn't confess. He already knew that I liked him even before I planned to tell him. He had… sources, I think," we both laughed, "But after a year, we got to talk again. He's still dating so I didn't push myself anymore. Until now, we have communication."

"How are you feeling now after many years towards him?"

"I think I don't feel anything anymore. He's part of my past already, so I just use the memories as… inspiration?" he smiled when I said that, "Why am I the only one being asked? How about you? You said your first love moved to Europe. May I know why she moved?"

"No, I think that's a bit too personal."

"That's unfair. I told you something about my first love while you keep it to yourself… How are you today? Do you still have communication?"

"No, after she moved, I never heard anything from her anymore."

Minutes passed and we talked about ourselves and our first loves. It looked like we're making ourselves internalize on this week's mission. While we're talking, I've told him the name of my first love. His name was Alfred Santos.

We were laughing when Janette entered and told us to get to the stage. When we were already backstage, Jun Young and Ji Kyung were having a good time together. Of course, I felt jealous, I admit it.

Before we went onstage, the staff told us that the person who will complete the Top 12 is already there. Now that I think about it, there were only eleven teams here. Who could be the last?

The show has already started and we were introduced one by one. When the twelfth team came, I was surprised when the host said, "Alfred Santos". Ah In and I looked at each other with shock and Alfred entered the stage. It was definitely the "Alfred Santos" that I know, my first love.

After being introduced, we headed to the balcony where we would be able to see the whole performances. While there, Ah In stayed close to me because of the reaction I'm showing. When we were seated, Alfred came to me and greeted me happily.

"Hey T! How are you? Shocked, right?"

"Yes, very shocked. How did you pass?" He and Ah In really looked alike.

"I auditioned, but in the last few days of Pressure Week, I've got to go back to the Philippines because my dad had an accident."

"I'm sorry." While we were talking, the rest were curious what is happening. "Everyone, I'd like you to meet Alfred Santos… my first love." Alfred laughed and I kicked him. Everyone was shocked liked I was when I discovered that he's here. All except Ah In. Well, he already knows it already.

"New mission!" HitGirls, Silencers, Honey Warriors, and Anthony said in unison.

"If you guys think you can do what you're doing to Jun Young, you better not do it since he already has a girlfriend." I told them.

"No, I don't. We already broke up last year." Alfred said.

"See?" Rona told me.

"Just don't do it okay?" And I sat again beside Ah In.

Before I went down to prepare my performance, I took a long sip on my medicine and left it on my chair. I also told Alfred to listen well. After that, I went to the back stage to get ready.

My performance will start in the middle of the stage, so I directly went there when my introduction was being played.

I experienced my first love in high school. He was a good friend and also my classmate. I, actually, didn't expect to fall for him. It was my first time to fall in love, so whenever he's near, I just kept quiet. He got the chance to know my feelings but he said he's already going out with somebody and… it would be better to be friends. I chose to sing Kelly Clarkson's Because of You because he was the reason why I can control my feelings well, now. And because he hurt me, emotionally, he had changed my definition of love. I changed some of the lyrics and rearranged the song to fit myself. If he's watching right now… just let him watch. He should also listen well, because thank to him, I am what I am now.

And the music starts…

I will not make
the same mistakes that you did.
I will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery.
I will not break away
'coz what you did
it felt so hard.
I learned the hard way
to never really get that far.

Because of you
I never strayed too far
from the sidewalk.
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don't get hurt.
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
not only me
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid.

I lose my way
and it's not too long
before you pointed out.
I cannot cry
because I know
that's weakness in your eyes.
My heart can possibly break
when it wasn't even hard to start with.

I watched you die
I heard you cry
every night in your sleep.
I was so young
you should have known
better than to lean on me.
You never thought
of anyone else
you just saw your pain.

And now I cry
in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing.

Because of you
I never strayed too far
from the sidewalk.
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don't get hurt.

Because of you
I tried my hardest
just to forget everything.
Because of you
I don't know how
to let anyone else in.
Because of you
I was ashamed of my life
because it's empty.
Because of you
I am afraid.

Because of you.
Because of you.

After my performance, it was the Honey Warriors turn. I went to the backstage to wait for my scores.

After Honey Warriors, Yoon Jae and I went back to the stage beside them. First to be judged was, Yoon Jae, he got high scores from the judges. Next, it was my turn. The judges said,

"Teresa Cruz… I really liked your performance today, congratulations!" the Simon Lee started, "I liked how you arranged the song to your style. And how you expressed the song, it was magnificent. You're group mates must be proud of you. But I've got to know you as a singer who sings slow songs very well. And I think it will get boring if you keep doing that. You should do something different next time. Here is my score…" and he typed a score of 90.

Maria Lambert said she doesn't agree with some of what Simon Lee said, "For me, even you expressed the song great, the feelings weren't there. At some point, I can feel the song but then on some parts, I don't feel anything. You have to improve yourself on that. Feel your song. Here is my score…" and she gave a score of 90.

Finally, Adam Lavigne said his comments, "I agree with both of them, you had a good expression but the feelings weren't there on the right places. But still, on the high parts, you improved your vocals. Back then, you struggled to reach those notes but now, you're not having any problems anymore. I think you're improving very fast. Here is my score…" and he gave a 92.

So far those were the highest scores they've given, as far as I remembered. After Honey Warrior's scores were given, we immediately ran to the dressing room to change for our group performance. We will be performing hit songs of Britney Spears. Jun Young and Ah In helped each other to arrange the songs since both of them are great when it comes to arranging songs.

When I reached the dressing room, HitGirls have already finished changing. I immediately went to the corner to change. I have to wear a short pink blouse, a red checkered skirt, and long socks to pair with my heeled shoes. After changing, Rain helped me retouch my makeup. While doing that, they kept on asking me about Alfred.

"Now, he's just a friend. I'm already sure I don't have that kind of feeling left for him." I answered them.

"So, we can continue finding you a boyfriend?" Rona asked.

"Do what you want, like I can stop you or anything."

When we were finished, we went upstairs to the balcony and waited there until all solo performance are finished. When we reached the balcony, Ji Kyung was already performing and Jun Young went down already.

When we entered the balcony, Bryan started teasing me for making a move for Alfred. But then, my elder sisters, since they are much older, saved me. They just kept saying that it's all in the past and that I'm looking at another guy already.

I just sat on my seat and watched Ji Kyung finish her song. After her, Jun Young entered the stage. They really arranged the two of them next to each other. "They're a couple made in heaven." I heard Rona said. Maybe they are, and it's already clear that I don't have a proper chance at love.

All solo performances were finished and we all went backstage to get ready for our group performance. Ironically, on one part of the performance, I have a duet together with the Top 12th – which I know now as Alfred.

Time to perform and we didn't had the time to practice our part. But surprisingly when we sang our part, we were harmonized. I haven't even practiced it yet together with him but we looked liked we've practiced it before, even the choreography.

After the performance, we stayed on the stage because it was time to know who will be eliminated. We've discovered that three teams will be eliminated tonight. Yoon Jae Williams, Janette Lopez, and HitGirls were the ones who got eliminated.

After the show, all of us were down. And since Yoon Jae will be moving out, Alfred will have to replace him in their room.

Alfred rode with us on the bus back to the training dorms. With him are his things. After arriving at the dorms, all eliminated teams started to pack their bags. They're phones and other things confiscated were given back to them.

We walked them to the gates where the bus that will take them home is waiting for them. We finally said our last goodbyes to them and they were off.

Second week inside the training dorms…

The next day, we were woken up by Simon Lee visiting the dorms. We were surprised to see him in the dorms; since in the last two seasons, he never stepped inside the training dormitory vicinity.

As a guest, we thought of cooking for him. Since I was the only female left who knows how to cook, I was the one who helped Anthony and the Silencers cook our best dish for the guest.

After we finished cooking, we served it on the table. But unfortunately, we forgot that we were not allowed to eat oily foods. Because of the diet program we were supposed to follow, we have to eat the foods prescribed to us by the dietician.

After that, we were called to meet at the living room. He then announced that we will go to a camp because of our performances last night. And because we'll go to camp, each team was paired with another team.

We were partnered in this order: Lee Ji Kyung and Alfred Santos; Rico Adams and Silencers; Anthony Smith, Song Ah In and Honey Warriors; and Kim Jun Young and Teresa Cruz. Simon Lee also added that we will have to get to know our partners while in the camp. And after the camp, we should have known a lot about them because it will be needed for this week's live show.

When he finished giving instructions, he let us get ready for the camp. We went out the house and four cars were waiting for us. Kenneth, member of Silencers, told everyone that we should ride with our partners so we can start our missions. That means I'll be with Jun Young! But I didn't get my hopes up. He'll just drive us to the campsite anyway.

While we were driving to the campsite, silence was all I can hear. I turned on the mini stereo so the silence won't overcome us. He then asked me, "Can't handle the silence?"

"Yeah, you're just too quiet." I answered.

Then, a song we both know was being played and we started singing. Because of that, the hidden tension between us just disappeared quickly.

When we arrived at the campsite, the rest was already there. Troy, member of Honey Warriors, started to tease Jun Young for running away with me.

We set the tent, while some gathered woods and cooked our meals for the day. We did nothing much as we finished our lunch, until a phone call from our dorm guest made us move. He said that this week's theme for the live show is another "Duet Rivalry Match". And the rival pairs have already been decided… in the dorms.

As most of us guessed, our partners are our rival. It means I'll be facing Jun Young on the live show. Also included in the call are the themes the groups will perform. The themes include "Billboard Charts", "Asian Love songs", "Broadway Hits", and "Bollywood songs". Jun young and I were given "Asian Love songs" as the theme.

For the rest of the day, each of the rival groups talked about what they'll perform. Jun Young and I thought that we won't be having a hard time to choose a song since we're both Asians. But it wasn't that easy.

Finally, we've decided what to sing. We will be singing a song used in a Korean drama. The arrangement that we did on the song was also a challenge. He did an English translation on the song while I distributed the parts to the both of us.

The next day, we came back to the dorms. Half of us were asked to attend the vocal training up until noon, while the rest will be attending after lunch.

I was included to attend the morning vocal training. The coach instructed us to sing the song we will be performing on the live show. I explained to the coach that our duet was arranged with a translation.

After the vocal training, we immediately went to the dining area to eat our lunch. For the first time, since we came here, we were allowed to break our diet even for this one time.

We have pasta, steak, chicken, and pizza. It was like a celebration. Still conscious about my diet, I only ate a portion of each. Alfred noticed that and asked if I want more. I answered him with a soft shake of my head and mouthed "I'm okay".

After lunch, afternoon vocal training started. While the people who were left, did their chores. After cleaning the table, I immediately went to the bedroom to have a quiet place to arrange the duet.

I heard a soft knock on the door when the door opened. It was Alfred. He went to seat by my bed and asked about me. I was about to ask him but he immediately said something.

"I know we haven't talked seriously yet so that's why, I'm here… if that's your question," he said.

"I know. But don't you have anything else to do, like practicing for your duet?"

"Ji Kyung went to vocal training with Jun Young. What are you doing?"

"Arranging the duet. I have to learn how to correctly pronounce these Korean words."

"Cool. You're performing in dual languages? Can I see?"

"Yeah, sure. You've heard it already anyway." He then raised his feet to my bed and sat comfortably. While he was looking at the paper, he immediately taught me how the Korean words are pronounced.

"You know Korean?" I asked him.

"Yeah, I've got to learn it from some college friends."

For the whole hour, we stayed in the room pronouncing the Korean words I need to learn. He taught me how to correctly pronounce them especially when singing.

After an hour of pronouncing Korean, Ji Kyung went in and called Alfred to practice. Alfred said goodbye while I returned to my work.

After a few minutes, I've finished arranging the duet and I started singing it in Korean. I didn't notice that Jun Young was listening by the door. I finally noticed him when he joined singing.

I don't know if that was the reason why he became close to me; because since we sang together in the girl's bedroom, he became interested in me again.

On our free times after practices, he would always give me my medicine drink and act like taking care of me. I just wish he would stop it since I know we don't have the chance to be together. With what he's doing, he's raising my hopes up.

For the whole week, we practiced and on free times, we get to know each other. On a Friday afternoon, Jun Young and I were in band rehearsal when my throat ached. Good thing Jun Young immediately gave me my medicine so my throat didn't ache for a long time. We immediately stopped the band rehearsal and Jun Young told me to rest since we will be performing tomorrow.

The day of the second Live Show

The next day, I woke up at exactly 9 AM. My voice was back but still a little ragged. I immediately went downstairs to brew my medicine. Good thing Gino, of Honey Warriors, was there. He helped me on brewing my medicine. I tried talking to him but whenever I open my mouth, I felt my throat ache.

Jun Young entered the kitchen and he saw me sitting alone by the counter.

"Are you okay? Is your voice back?" he immediately asked as he sat across me, worried.

"I'm fine. But my throat still hurts," I mouthed.

"Can you sing later? If you can't, we can…"

I shook my head and answered, "I'll be fine," with a smile.

At the venue, Jun Young still looked after me. Whenever I need to drink, he's there to give me my medicine or warm water.

For that night, I wore a plain white blouse partnered with mid-length skirt. Jun Young paired with me, he wore a white polo with a vest partnered with a pair of pants.

Alfred and Ji Kyung will start performing anytime now, we were next to perform, so Jun Young and I went down already.

At the backstage, I started warming up my voice. Even there, Jun Young still looked after me. He kept telling me not to strain myself. Our introduction is already being played, so we went to our places and prepared for our duet.

When we were paired up, we were both shocked because Teresa was like my toy so I always tease her when we're together. I actually avoided him at first but then, in the car, he didn't stopped teasing, so I made myself used with him. We were given the theme of Asian Love songs. And since we're both Asians, by blood, we thought we got an easy mission. But then, just choosing a song took the both of us a long time before we finally made a choice. We will be singing Dream High's Can't I Love You. He translated the song while I was the one who arranged it. Can't I Love You is a real love song. Teresa, I like you… It doesn't suit you. Really?

Whenever I see you,
Whenever you smile for me
Little by little,
My feelings for you grew

Ijeneun neol saenggakhamyeon
ni moseubeul ddeoolrimyeon
Jagguman dugeundaeneun
nae shimjangeun meomchuljul molla

I can't hide my feelings anymore
I want to give it to you

Hangsang gyeoteseo (next to you)
Can't I love you?
This heart that wants to protect you more than anyone else,
Can you accept it?
Neoeui mamsoke (in your heart),
Can't I be?
To be the most important person in your life,
Is what I want to be,
so quickly take my heart.

Maeilmaeil keojyeoganeun
neol hyanghan sarang ddaemune
Nan jeongmal haru jongil
amugeotdo hal suga eobseo

Now it's no secret
that my heart is filled with love for you

Please tell me now
that you know how I feel

Hangsang gyeoteseo (ni yeopeseo)
neol sarang hamyeon andoelgga
This heart that wants to protect you more than anyone else,
Can you accept it?
Neoeui mamsoke (gaseumsoke)
naega isseumyeon andoelgga
To be the most important person in your life,
Is what I want to be,
so quickly take my heart.
Please understand my heart (Nae mameul alajweo).

After we finished our performance, we were immediately criticized by the judges.

Maria Lambert: First of all, I really liked the translation. Mixing the original with the translated words is hard to do especially when you're singing. Also, the way you sang the song reached the audience. It really felt like you two are begging love from each other, if that's the correct way to put it. Anyway here's my score… "93".

Adam Lavigne: Me, too, I liked what you did to the song. But, Teresa, are you feeling well? On some parts, I saw you clung to your throat. Is there a problem?... I understand. But you shouldn't have strained yourself these past few days, since you know you have a vocal problem. But despite of not feeling well, you still gave a very good performance. So here is my score… "89".

Simon Lee: Let me ask you first, what do you feel for each other, tell the truth. You really don't want to tell the truth? Because singing a love song of any language requires a big bag of feelings and experiences for you to sing it well. What you two did just a while ago is what real singers do when they sing love songs. Your performance was full of feelings and we all felt it between you two. Here is my score, and date each other if you like… "95".

I almost blushed when the Simon Lee told us if we want to date. While we were exiting the stage, Jun Young immediately took my medicine from the nearest table and gave it to me. He really cared for me even after our performance. My feeling for him is getting bigger by the second.

The two of us went to our dressing rooms to change immediately. We will perform a High School Musical original song, A Night to Remember. We all wore clothes that fitted the song, prom attire. I wore a short red prom dress.

Like last week, after our group performance, we climbed the platform located at the back part of the stage. It was elimination time. The host informed everyone that this night two teams will be eliminated and 60% of the final scores are from the mobile votes.

Alfred, Ji Kyung, and Ah In were first called. And the host announced that Song Ah In was eliminated. Only five slots left for the survivors. Names were called and so far none of them were eliminated.

"Kim Jun Young, Teresa Cruz, and Honey Warriors, please step forward. These remaining teams scored the highest from our judges but lowest on votes. The name I'm going to call is a survivor. You passed… Kim Jun Young," and he went to sit with the other survivors, "We have one survivor and one eliminated. The name I'm going to call is eliminated… Is it Teresa Cruz or the Honey Warriors? The eliminated team is… Teresa Cruz. Honey Warriors you can join the other survivors. Song Ah In, come join us. What do you want to say to everyone?"

He handed me the microphone, "First, I'd like to thank the judges. Without their criticisms, I wouldn't be here and I wouldn't have met those wonderful people," I pointed at the survivors, "and Frieljo Mo! Teresa is back! Thank you everyone who have supported me until this day. You haven't seen the last of Teresa Cruz." And I handed back the microphone to the host.

While on the way to the bus, Ji Kyung told me to wait for Jun Young so I waited for him outside the bus. Before getting on the bus, Jun Young pulled me outside and said that he want to talk to me in private.

We walked back to the back entrance of the venue before he started talking.

"I think this will be my last chance to tell you," he looked at me straight in the eyes, "Teresa, since this last two weeks in the training dorms, I have felt something special for you. I really… like you, Teresa."

I looked him in the eyes to tell if he's telling the truth. I was shocked he said that he like me; I really thought that he's pursuing Ji Kyung because she's his first love. A few minutes passed before I asked him, "Really?" and he nodded, "You're teasing me again, aren't you?" I told him, laughing.

"No, I'm not. I really like you. To tell you the truth, I even got jealous when they wanted to arrange you to another person instead of me. And when I discovered that Alfred was your first love and he taught you too speak correct Korean. I should be the one who taught you that, since I was your partner. Believe me, Teresa. I really like you."

"Why did you tell this now?" I asked him, my voice lowered.

"I was really going to tell you yesterday after the recording. But Alfred went to get you, so I didn't have the chance."

"I thought you and Ji Kyung…"

"If we're together again? No, actually I don't really have feelings left for her. I only see her as a friend now."

I breathe deeply before I told him something, "Jun Young, I… like you, too-." He cut me short.

"I know. You can't really hide your expressions when you're jealous," I smiled at him, "so does this mean…?"

"Yes, we are." He hugged me tightly and kissed me at my cheek, which surprised me. We held each other's hands while walking back to the bus.

When we got there, I saw Ji Kyung smiling widely; while the rest asked what took so long. Jun Young insisted that we sit together on the bus.

Ah In and I immediately packed our things when we arrived at the training dorm. Jun Young – who is now my boyfriend, Ji Kyung, and Alfred helped me on packing.

On the way to the gate, everyone said goodbye to us. Everyone went back to the house except Jun Young. He gave me his necklace as his gift for me and told me that we will be together once he went out the dorms.

While Ah In and I were riding the car, the staff who rode with us said that there will be a "Super Wildcard Match" for those who were eliminated on the live shows. It will happen once the Top 4 teams are remaining.

With what we've heard, Ah In and I were thankful. The car stopped at the hotel where we will be staying until the wildcard competition.

The staff mentioned about the special training we will be receiving from special coaches. I am excited for the "Super Wildcard Match".

When I went to my room, I immediately called my friends. I told them about the wildcard match and they were very happy for me. They wished me good luck on my training.

Third week of the live show competition…

I woke up the next day with a big smile on my face. I tried to remember all the things that happened yesterday. First thing I remembered, I was eliminated from the live shows. But a wildcard competition will be organized once the Top 4 were decided.

What I remembered next made my smile even bigger, Jun Young and I are official.

My right hand immediately went to hold the necklace he gave to me last night. It was his first guitar pick. He's been keeping this since he started to singing.

While I was in the middle of daydreaming, I heard a knock on the door. When I opened it, I saw the HitGirls standing outside. When they saw me, they immediately went inside.

Roan immediately asked how I was after being eliminated. I just answered what I really felt. Of course I was sad but it didn't last long.

Then, they saw me still holding on my necklace. Rain immediately recognized the necklace. They screamed when they discovered that I already have a boyfriend. Roan was sad because they weren't there to guard me but she was still happy because it was Jun Young.

The HitGirls told me what I should be expecting on the trainings we will receive. They described it as "much harder than training in the dorms". I laughed at the expressions they made when they told me that.

Lunch time and we went downstairs to eat with the other eliminated people. As soon as we entered the dining hall, I saw the other three and some staffs who were already seated.

Once we finished eating, Jannete, the HitGirls, and Yoon Jae stood up and went away; while Ah In and I were left facing the staffs.

The staff gave us the weekly schedule until the "Super Wildcard Match". We will be training starting tomorrow with the others. But for now, we will have the day to ourselves.

As soon as Ah In and I went out the dining hall, he immediately invited me to go to the convenience store. When we got there, he bought a lot of stuff; he said it's for his personal use. Before we went back to the hotel, he bought me one cup of hot cappuccino.

We hung together until evening. He almost never left my side. If only I can call Jun Young at this time, but I won't be able to.

The next few days, we concentrated on our training. The training we are receiving is all mixed with vocals and dances. It's like training to become an idol, or something.

It was Wednesday and our training went outside the hotel. We were grouped according to the week we were eliminated and we should make a short music video using the cameras they've given us. We should be back by evening and submit our works.

Before we got out, Ah In and I talked about the song for the music video and other materials we will be needing. Once we went out, we immediately started shooting.

When we were two blocks away from the hotel, I saw a mini bus with "Search for the Superstar" as its design. Ah In was looking at the videos we recorded when I told him about the mini bus. He told me that it was probably a passenger bus.

After we have done the music video, we took a break through the ice cream truck that passed by. I bought a cone of chocolate ice cream while he bought strawberry.

While we were happily eating, Ah In's mobile phone rang. He answered it and after that he told me that we should go to the stage hall of the live shows. I asked him why but he didn't tell me the reason.

Once we arrived, we saw the survivors separated into two teams. The coach immediately saw us and prompts us to come in front.

I immediately saw Jun Young when we were in front. He was holding a transparent tumbler with yellowish water inside. He brewed my medicine tea. It was actually my gift to him before I finished packing last week.

The coach explained to us that Ah In and I will be coaching a team to finish a mission for today. The team that I was assigned to includes Jun Young, Anthony, and the Silencers.

For the mission, the coaches should assign a song for the team to arrange and sing. We shouldn't be helping them on arranging and we must grade the final output of the song.

I assigned the team Step's Chain Reaction. Once I've given it to them, I let them do their jobs.

While Jun Young was free of what he's doing, he sat beside me and asked how I was. He kept on asking if I got back to my friends safely and if I'll be watching on the next live show. He kept on asking me related stuff about the live shows and our relationship.

After grading the mission, I told Jun Young to be strong and reach the Top 4 because I will be watching. I also told the same thing to Ji Kyung and Alfred. I noticed a different aura between the two but I wasn't able to tell because Ah In told me that we will be late.

After saying goodbye, we ran until we reached the hotel. It was only a block away from the stage hall venue anyway, that's why we reached the hotel fast.

The day of the Third Live Show

That Saturday morning, I woke up early to get ready for the performance exam at the training room. I went down to the hotel kitchen to brew my medicinal tea.

When I reached the kitchen, Janette was cooking a big breakfast meal enough for ten people! She didn't even notice me when I went inside. When she finally saw me, I asked her why she cooked so many.

"I heard that the food you eat must suit your medicine, so I cooked these for you…" she answered, "Don't think I was worried about you. I just want to have a fair competition, that's all."

While we were in the kitchen, she made an effort to make both of us comfortable with each other. I think we're friends now. Good friends.

After eating breakfast, we all went to the training room for the exam. HitGirls were first and they improved a lot since they were eliminated.

I was third to perform and I sang Bring Me to Life. The coach told me to keep taking my medicine and diet because my performance will depend on them until my vocal improves.

After the five of us finished, the coach told us our grades. Like in the competition, we were graded according to our performances. Ah In topped with the score of 92 while I was second with 91.

We were eating lunch when a familiar face entered the dining hall. Simon Lee visited us and asked how we were. He surprised us when he said that we will be performing later at the live show and will be introduced as the "Wildcards". He also added that next week, the Top 4 will be decided. So he reminded us to get ready because the week after that will be the wildcard competition.

That night, I went to the live show venue with everyone else. In the past few hours, we quickly practiced a short performance for the live show. When we arrived backstage, we immediately saw the survivors getting ready in the dressing rooms. While, the five of us were directed to a hidden room to get ready.

The live show is about to start and we were called to watch in the audience area. We went out the room and seated in the front row. The performances today were great. It is clearly seen that they all improved this week.

In one segment of the show, the host interviewed a few people who relates to the survivors. He walked near me and asked about the performances and myself. After being interviewed, a staff called us to get ready for our performance.

At the backstage, we were directed to use the dressing rooms to get ready. When the HitGirls, Janette, and I entered, Ji Kyung's face looked very shocked. She asked why we were there. Before Janette can say anything, Roan immediately told Ji Kyung that we were just visiting.

Ji Kyung was called for their group performance, so we immediately prepared ourselves as soon as she closed the door. For this live performance, we will be performing Bruno Mars' Marry You.

We wore clothes related to weddings. All of us wore the same color, white. For me, I wore a white blouse and a short white skirt with white heels. To add to that, all girls wore a short customized veil that the staff gave us. After we were finished preparing, we immediately went out to do a final practice.

While we were practicing, on the stage the elimination is ongoing. We can hear what is happening. This week, two teams will be eliminated. The Silencers and Honey Warriors were the ones eliminated. But the judges used the opportunity to save the Silencers.

While everyone was busy congratulating the Silencers and saying goodbye to the Honey Warriors, the host announced something, "Now before we end the show, there is one performance left that will shock everyone. For the first time in Search for the Superstar history, there will be a wildcard competition. Who will compete for the wildcard challenge, you ask? You will meet them… now," he introduced us one by one, "The American Angel, Janette Lopez. The Crazy Lady Trio, HitGirls. The Young Male Belter, Yoon Jae Williams. The Soul Balladeer, Song Ah In. The Asian Angel, Teresa Cruz. And to add to the list, the Sweet Trio Balladeer, Honey Warriors. Let's give them a round of applause. And to perform Marry You, make way to the 'Superstar Wildcards'."

After our performance, we were again interviewed. The host asked us what's new in us and what preparations we were doing for the competition. After that, he also announced that the eliminated teams next week will be added to the wildcard list; then he closed the show.

After the show, Honey Warriors went back to the training dorms to pack and move to the hotel; while the seven of us went back to the hotel to rest early and didn't had the chance to talk with the survivors.