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What happens if Fin was too late? What happens if Harris not only forced Olivia to give him oral sex but also raped her?
"No...please...don't" He cries were now a mere desperate whimper as she weakly fought against the large figure forcing himself against her.
"Don't!" She pleaded as fresh tears stung her eyes.
"This will be less painful for both of us if you stop fighting!" He hissed before she slapped her across the face.
She just yelped helplessly, her hands cuffed behind her back she was powerless against him, her body sore and broken from the beating and her throat dry from the screaming which had failed to bring anyone to her rescue.
"Liv?" Elliot only dropped his hand to her shoulder but she leapt five feet from her chair, dropping the steaming coffee she had been nursing, the mug smashing and sending the liquid inside flying in all directions.
"Shit." She mumbled as she reached for the box of tissues kept on her desk for victims reporting a crime.
Elliot rushed to grab a towel, dustpan and brush before rushing back to Olivia's side to help her clean the mess.
"Where did you go Liv?" He asked gingerly.
"Where did I what?" She spat.
"Before I touched you, you may have been here physically but your mind wasn't, so where were you?" He stopped cleaning to look at her but she didn't look at him.
"Dreaming of retirement." Olivia mumbled, the lie seeping through her mouth before she'd even contemplated it.
"Right." Elliot replied not believing a word of it. "What happened in Sealview Olivia?" He asked softly.
"Can't you just drop it? I left Sealview four days ago and all you have done is ask me what happened there and I keep telling you nothing! When is that going to sink in Elliot?" She snapped.
"I'm sorry Liv it's just ... well... you've been different since you've been back." Elliot explained his gaze shifting back to the floor as she spoke.
"Of course I've been different El." She sighed resting her hand on his arm. "I was in prison for Christ sake that's obviously going to have affected me a little, but I'm fine, thank you for worrying about me but there is really nothing to worry about."
"Sorry Liv." He mumbled before taking the remnants of the mug to the nearby bin.
They finished cleaning in utter silence and once done Olivia rushed off not wanting to be around people anymore. She found herself closing the door of the cribs and slowly made her way to the cot furthest away from the door. Her entire body was still aching from the beating and every inch of covered skin was marked in some way that it took a while for her to find a comfortable position to lie in. Fatigue took her into sleep as quick as it could, she hadn't been sleeping much since she'd left Sealview prison as every time she closed her eyes she'd find herself back in the basement, powerless, alone.
"Help!" She managed to scream as the rest of her orange jumpsuit was yanked from her body.
She knew what was happening and she knew there was little that she could do to stop it but she wasn't going to stop trying.
"You're going to remember me forever." He hissed before clasping his mouth onto hers forcing his tongue into her mouth making her feeble screams just a hum and that aroused him more. With one hand he tore at her plain cotton panties exposing her further.
A soft desperate whimper passed her lips as she felt his hand stroking her slit.
"Please!" She pleased, hoping that he'd see how much pain he was causing her and stop.
When he didn't comply Olivia seemed to find a new rush of adrenaline and began to fight back hard. He scratched, slapped, and pulled at her skin, leaving fresh marks all over her but she wasn't about to just give in and be raped because in her mind, she would never be a victim.
"Stop!" He screamed pulling her towards him, she knew the energy was slowly leaving her again and she found herself wondering if she'd stop then it would be over quicker.
"Good girl." He whispered as she started losing the will to fight.
It didn't take long for him to thrust his hard member into her.
"Ahhh!" She screamed coming to sit up bolt upright.
"Liv? You're ok." Elliot wrapped his arms around her but she screamed again, fighting and struggling till he had no other option but to let her go.
It took a few minutes for Olivia to realise where she was and calm down. She dropped her head into her hands and sighed, she was done crying, she had shed her last tear for Lowell Harris and had vowed to not cry again. So far, she was keeping with that vow.
"Liv?" Elliot asked after a few minutes.
"What do you want Elliot?" She asked into her hands not wanting to look at her heartbroken partner.
"Please talk to me Liv, please?" He was pleading, she was shocked, Elliot Stabler never pleaded.
"How many times do I have to tell you that nothing happened and I'm fine?" She asked desperately needing him to back off.
"You're lying Liv, if not just to me but yourself too. I've had enough. Sort yourself out or I'm going to Cragen and telling him everything." Elliot sighed before walking out of the dark room.
Olivia not only knew he was right but also meant every word of the threat he had given her too. Half heartedly she whipped out her phone, finding the number she had stored only four days ago when she had left Sealview. Finding it, she clicked the call button without a single second thought or hesitation.
"Hello Doctor Whitney." A female voice answered the line.
"Hi Michelle, its Olivia Benson." Olivia's voice shook as she spoke.
"Olivia! It's lovely to hear from you! How are you?" Michelle Whitney's voice echoed into Olivia's ear.
"Umm, well that's sort of why I'm calling you. I need to see someone confidentially without it getting back to the ears of anyone in the NYPD." She explained shyly.
"You know I'd do anything for you Olivia, how about we meet this evening in my office?" Michelle suggested.
"Thanks that would be a big help." Olivia replied.
"You're welcome, swing by at eight and we'll have all night if we need it." Michelle smiled and Olivia could only smile gently back though neither one of them could see it.
"Eight it is then, Thanks again Michelle."
"No problem Olivia, see you at eight, bye."
"Bye." Olivia hung up the phone and let out a breath she hadn't even been aware of holding.
She slowly made her way back down to the squad room, when she went to her desk she avoided looking at Elliot who was watching her intently.
"Ok?" He eventually asked.
"Fine." She replied still without looking at him.
"You need help Olivia." Elliot whispered.
"I'm fine now drop it Elliot." She hissed firmly.
"Fine." He shrugged not wanting to argue with her anymore.
She turned to her computer to make it look like she was doing some work but it didn't last long when Cragen called for her and Elliot.
"Rape vic in Mercy." He explained handing them a slip of paper.
"Ok." Olivia replied and she and Elliot made their way to the police Sudan in the parking lot.
She knew the second they were on the way that he would begin questioning her again.
"Are you sure nothing happened at Sealview Olivia?" Elliot asked as soon as the car was moving.
"Yes! How many times do I have to tell you that nothing happened for you to just drop it?" Olivia snapped.
"Sorry, it's just you haven't been yourself Liv and I'm worried about you." He explained softly.
"I'm fine and stop talking to me like a vic Elliot, I deserve more than that." She replied angrily.
"I'm not ..."
"Don't!" She threatened interrupting him from whatever he was about to say. "You've been questioning me and coaxing me just like we do with victims and I am not a victim, I don't want to be treated like one do I make myself clear?" She hissed.
"Crystal." He replied with a sigh.
"Good, now let's go and speak with a real victim." She replied climbing out of the now stationary car.
All Elliot could do was follow her, he was hurting for her as he knew something more had happened in Sealview than she was letting on. Fin was just as distant as Olivia was about it, he had just told Elliot that Olivia would tell him when she was ready to and until then he would just have to wait so he knew that something had happened, he knew that whatever it was had made Olivia change and become withdrawn and he couldn't help but see that she was acting just like a victim would.
After they spoke with the apparent victim to find out it was a one night stand that she had regretted they made their way back to the precinct in the police Sudan.
"I wish you could tell me what was going around in that head of yours." Elliot sighed as Olivia stared out of the window.
"I'm just tired El, ok? I'm just flipping tired and I look forward to getting to bed and getting some sleep." Olivia replied.
"You've been off till today Liv, how come you haven't been sleeping?" Elliot asked gently trying to coax her to open up to him.
"Nice try Elliot, I was in prison, sleep was hard to come by and I still hear clanging bars every night. I'll soon get used to being on the outside though." Olivia replied angrily.
"There's more to it that that Olivia, you know it and I know it." Elliot replied.
"Shut up! Just shut up!" Olivia snapped. "Pull over!" She screamed.
He didn't know why she screamed for him to pull over so he complied quickly.
"Liv?" He asked as she fumbled desperately with her seat belt.
She couldn't have gotten out of the car faster. Elliot dived out as he saw that she was walking away from him.
"Olivia!" He yelled wanting to her to wait for him but she wasn't in the mood to listen.
He ran to her and grabbed her by the arm. She panicked and punched him the side of the face.
"Jeez! Olivia what the fuck?" He asked as he clutched a hand to his cheek.
"Oh... shit... I'm... oh God... El..." She couldn't even manage a coherent sentence.
"I'm fine." He replied softly. "You however ..."
"Am fine." Olivia finished for him. "Absolutely fine but maybe you should get some ice for that cheek, I have somewhere I need to be."
He could only watch as she walked away. He knew better than to try and run after her but now, now he was more determined to find out what happened at Sealview.
He marched into the bullpen angrily, he had a vicious purple bruise on his cheek and he wasn't in the mood for anyone to mess him about.
"Victim or her family?" Fin quipped as he saw Elliot's bruised face.
"Olivia." He replied and he watched as Fin's mouth fell to the floor.
Elliot wouldn't have said anything had there been anyone else in the room but he needed Fin to tell him what he knew and to do that he had to be honest first.
"Shit, why?" Fin managed to ask.
"I was talking to her, and she made me pull over and jumped out of the car and I rushed after her, I grabbed her arm she punched me." Elliot sighed taking his own seat and staring at Fin.
"Jeez man, you must have said something." Fin replied knowing Olivia wasn't violent.
"I was asking her about Sealview ok?" Elliot snapped.
"Stabler..."
"No Fin! Something's wrong, something happened, please tell me what you saw?" Elliot pleaded desperately.
"Fine, when I got there she was handcuffed, arms behind her back. Her white top was up at her neck, her bra was gone in shreds and her jump suit was at her ankles and her panties were gone. That's what I found when I got there, he was on top of her and kissing her I don't know if he got to her or not Stabler because she never told me. I just helped cover her up." Fin explained shakily.
"Shit Fin it doesn't matter if he raped her or not, she's obviously affected by it either way." Elliot replied rubbing his face with his hands.
"I don't know Stabler, but if only I'd gotten to her sooner..."
"Don't start blaming yourself Fin. It's just downhill from there." Elliot interrupted.
"I don't know but whatever happened, she does need help Elliot." Fin replied.
"I know." He whispered.
I know loads of people have done stories about after Sealview but let me know if you want more of this one!