Ok, this is my first selfshipping fanfic so it might be kinda weird. By the way, Haou's a little ooc so I apologize if you notice something about him that you don't like.

August 31, 2010

Dear Diary,

Why did you have to look so attractive? I would've never bought you if it wasn't for your looks. Now I'm writing to you just like every other piss-ant in town.

Damn, I'm getting angry again. That's never a good sign. I just sent more after him.

Well, maybe I should elaborate on that. You see, I'm a fallen angel. Which means that technically, I'm evil. But my heart's in the right place. If my heart still exists, that is.

Shit, I'm getting sidetracked again.

When you become a fallen angel, you're granted dark powers. At first I was totally against them. I didn't want to use them, thinking I would hurt myself and others. Not that I care about other people. They're already too weak to be in this world. But one day, I got curious. So I used part of my powers to see what would happen. And it was a big dark scary shadow. And I thought I could control it, but I couldn't. It just went off by itself. And it made it's way to a boy that-amazingly-I care about a lot. And like I said before, I don't care about a lot of people so this boy is very special.

I can only imagine what kind of hell he's going through right now…

Haou slammed his diary closed, feeling so weak and ashamed that he even had to argue against the pros and the cons.

Though writing to it did make him feel better. It took some of the weight off of his shoulders.

"You're still stressing about it, aren't you?" Yohan asked sitting down across from where the brunette was.

"Who said I was stressed?" Haou asked a little more aggressive than he wanted to.

"You're eyes are brighter, you're clenching your teeth and you're gripping onto the bedsides for dear life."

Haou relaxed his jaw, and let go of the bed while taking a deep breath. He had just noticed how tense he was. "You're always getting into my business." That was his way of saying, "I'm sorry."

"You wanna fly around for a while?" Yohan asked accepting his apology easily. "I know that loosens you up."

The opportunity did sound addicting to Haou. "Fine, if you wanna go that bad," he said as he angrily stood up.

But Yohan could see right through him. Haou was just acting so it seemed like he wasn't the weaker one even though he knew he was.

Their black wings unfurled from behind their backs. Even though it looked very dark, to the human eye, it was velvet and beautiful. That's why they tried their best to stay away from crowds.

They slowly lifted themselves off of the ground and into the air.

Meanwhile, Judai sat on the far end of his bed and hugged his knees to his chest. He stared at the door waiting for the shadows to go away.

But thy didn't.

Judai had first started calling them the shadows when he was five. To him, it just looked like dark black smoke. So he called them the shadows.

The shadows leaked in the closed doors and started spreading out on the walls.

Judai gulped and watched as they got closer and closer to him.

Then his mother opened the door. Judai feared that it would let more of the shadows in but they curled back outside like it had been hurt.

"Judai, are you listening to me?" his mother snapped.

"Um, yes," he lied.

"What did I say?"

"To finish my homework?"

"School hasn't even started yet."

Judai's face flushed with embarrassment.

"I said, to get up, we're going school shopping."

Though he knew the shadows would follow him, it made him feel better to get out of the house.

He quickly got dressed and headed for the door.

"You're ready?" Mrs. Yuki said coming down the stairs.

"Yeah."

"Good. Let's go."

They got into the car and was on their way to the mall.

About halfway there, Judai saw two dark figures fly across the sun. He thought they were the shadows and hoped they would stay away just a little longer.

Back with Yohan and Haou, the two were starting to fly into the more crowded areas.

"Haou, I think we should head back," Yohan stated. "The sun's getting brighter and people are starting to stare."

"Well you're the one who wanted to come out here," Haou said still hiding the fact that he loved the feeling of walking in the air.

Yohan rolled his eyes as the two turned back around and headed home.

They made it back to their unknown territory.

Their wings shriveled back into their shoulder blades.

"Thanks Yohan." Haou smiled. But then he corrected his sentence. "For-um-telling me about the crowd. And, and how they were staring. Yeah."

Yohan stifled his laughter. When he finally gained control, he said, "You know, school's coming up."

"Yeah, so?"

"We have to go."

"Why?"

"We can't go on in life with no education."

"It's not like we'll need it. We're angels. We can do what ever we want."

"That's what made us fallen angels. Doing whatever we want. Do you want to continue being evil?"

Haou hung his head in shame. "No," he mumbled.

"Then we're going to school."

"What school are we going to?"

"A boarding school called…" Yohan searched his brain trying to find the name. "Duel Academy."

"Sounds boring already."

"Haou," Yohan warned.

He groaned.

Yohan gave up and decided just to leave him be. So he leaned back on the bed and turned on the TV.

But Haou started worrying about that boy who was being haunted by the shadows. What was his name again? Oh yeah, Judai. But this time, he kept his face neutral so Yohan couldn't detect anything.

Yeah…I don't have anything to talk about this time…I think that means I'm sick…or maybe close to death -_- help…

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