The Doctor Dreams
Disclaimer: Doctor Who probably doesn't belong to a girl still in school.
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'The Doctor dreams. But his dreams are too few and too far between.'
A angsty one-shot on the Doctor's frequent visitors.
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The Doctor dreams. But his dreams are too few and too far between.
Outcast running shunning burning loving losing crying dying lying promising breaking killing losing losing losing lost...
Sometimes the Doctor dreams, but most of the time he just has nightmares. Memories of-
Sitting in a tree watching the other academy students playing and every now and then one of them would look at him and smirk.
Finding a TARDIS and running far, far away from the people that never really accepted him.
Being shunned and sent to earth, forced to regenerate and trapped like he always seemed to be.
The Doctor dreams of lying on red grass and looking up at a night sky covered with stars and planets and galaxies and it's beautiful.
But his nightmares are more like-
Watching as his home-planet burns and wishing that it didn't have to come to this but feeling a sense of satisfaction as the Dalek ships turn to dust.
Hurting and on fire as he dies for a blond-haired girl that pulled him out of the dark but she wants the old him back.
Watching as the blond-haired girl is pulled into the void but in the dark there is no Pete to save her.
The Doctor prefers to stay awake, because if he sleeps there are nightmares. And the nightmares take him back to-
Koschei torturing him and hurting him and his friends but he forgives him anyway but it's to late because he's been shot and he won't regenerate and it's Koschei and he's dying and there's nothing he can do.
Him burning but it's OK because he saved Wilfred and this is his gift to the girl that cannot remember without burning as well.
Coming back and he said five minutes but it's been 12 years and then he leaves for five more minutes and it's been 2 more years and he takes her with him but it's too late and the damage has been done.
The Doctor doesn't cry out when he's having nightmares. It's not as if anyone is going to help him. Help him escape from-
Forever they had said always they had promised and he didn't have the heart to tell her that she was already gone and that soon he will have to go as well.
Sending her back for the second time even though he had promised he wouldn't and killing whoever attacked the town he had protected for 300 years but it not being enough.
Having the chance to bring his people back but not being able to because it would be war and he's dying for good this time and there's nothing he can do.
And when he's awake it isn't much better. Because-
They saved him and he wants to scream no it's too much and I've had enough and I've done so much already and I just want to rest and I don't want to have to continue on saving the universe when I can't even save myself and please please please just let me go.
The Doctor still has dreams, though.
But these dreams are too few and too far between.
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I'm sorry. Just... wow. I wrote this?! Where did all the angst come from?! Please review, and you'll get a free happy feeling personally dedicated to you!