Darren was looking at Chris again, his hazel-infused eyes twinkling.
"I can't like him… I mean… It's just wrong, come on Darren, get a grip, he's your boyfriend on Glee, not real life... Your straight, remember" he muttered under his breath, making sure no one was in earshot. His brain was telling him no, but his heart ached for that beautiful piece of porcelain.
Chris turned round from talking to Amber, diet coke in hand as usual, and caught Darren's eye and smiled shyly.
"Chris, no, he doesn't like you. You're having a Kurt moment and you've made it all up in your head, give up and whatever you do DON'T tell him how you feel" Chris thought.
They were in Costa Coffee as friends, although Chris didn't know Darren was going too until a few minutes ago. Darren started to walk over to Chris, knowing exactly what to say as he'd planned this moment in his head a million times.
"Hey Chris, look, I was... Wondering if you'd like to... Come over to mine for pizza and we'll watch Starship together after we're done here… I mean only if you want to…?" Darren looked annoyed, he'd planned to tell Chris how he felt about him, but instead he invited him over as friends… 'It'll wait' he figured as he looked intently as Chris for a reply.
"Oh, yeah, Sure! I mean yes… As long as you don't go on about how you wrote all of the songs this time... Oh! And I choose the pizza!" Chris replied, with a mischievous smile on his face.
Chris had arrived at Darren's, pizza was ordered and diet coke had been served. They were sitting on Darren's old sofa, which was so comfy that they couldn't sit upright without sinking into it, so they were both up opposite ends, holding onto the arm rests for support.
"I love this song!" Darren exclaimed, shooting a look at Chris, knowing he'd be annoyed.
'The way I do' had just started in Starship and Darren really did love this song…
Chris looked back at Darren, their eyes meeting for a brief second, and then they both looked away quickly and sheepishly smiled to themselves, each making sure that the other wasn't looking.
"Erm Chris, I… Erm… wrotethissongforyousorry" It came out as a jumble of syllables.
"What?" Chris said, having not understood a word of that. Darren took a really deep breath and slowly shuffled himself up to Chris' end of the sofa.
"Chris, I wrote this song for you" He placed a hand slowly onto Chris' leg and looked him straight in the eyes and continued.
"Nobody knows you the way I do and I love you and I'm sorry if this comes between us as friends or if you hate me, I just had to tell you. It was killing me. I'm so sorry" Darren admitted, but he looked seriously worried about Chris being freaked out by the sudden and bluntness of him.
"Oh... Wow. But I thought you were straight… Look Darren, I love you too, I've loved you since our first episode, first moment I spoke to you, but I just can't be with you, think of the press, the hate, the everything, I'm sorry" Chris got up to leave. He put his hand on the door handle.
"I don't care, I just want you"
Chris turned round, a tear falling down his face and a look of longing in his eyes.