I remember leaving for Christmas holidays. You held me close and said to me, "You'd better love me when you get back!" and kissed me. I left the Great Hall toward the Hogsmeade train station.
I don't know what happened over the holidays, but you seemed less enthusiastic about our relationship when I got back. You didn't put any heart into our kisses, and you were always the one that broke away from them. I saw you less and less.
Finally, a Hogsmeade weekend was announced. A perfect chance to be with you, something that didn't happen very much anymore. I gave you a look that said, "as usual?" but this time, you shook your head no. I walked over to ask you to explain.
You told me that you were in love with somebody else, that you didn't think that we could work much longer. You told me that you already asked someone to come to the Three Broomsticks with you.
I ran up to the girls dormitory and cried, something I hadn't done since you insulted me right in front of my less-than-friendly face almost six years ago.
And I remember why you insulted me. "'It's Leviosa, not Leviosa!' She's a nightmare! Honestly! No wonder she hasn't got any friends!"
We all remember it today as "The Charms Fiasco."
I sat on my bed and cried all morning on the day of the Hogsmeade trip. You had obviously told someone that I never came down for breakfast, because Lavender came up and tried to comfort me and persuade me to go to Hogsmeade with her and Parvati and Padma. I told her no. I wouldn't be able to stand seeing you with someone else.
So I sat in the dorm until I finally heard more noise in the common room, some three or four hours later. I checked to see if you were back yet. You weren't. I went back upstairs.
Some time later, I suddenly heard cheering in the common room. I came down to see what was going on, but by the time I got to the landing, whatever had happened was already over. You were just standing there, with your arm around his neck and your other hand holding two bags full of Honeydukes sweets.
You never went to Honeydukes with me.
The crowd was receding, and I noticed that it was mostly around you and him. I wondered what you could have been doing.
I heard whispers of "I can't believe they did that!" and "That was disgusting!" I suddenly didn't want to know what you did. But at the same time, I realized exactly what you did. I walked over to you.
"I don't believe you two! You actually-" "-Frenched, we know," he finished my sentence for me. "But in front of all of Gryffindor? You must be mad! Malfoy will know by Tuesday!" "We've done it loads of times before!" I realized that I was in defeat. I sighed. "Fine, you win."
So that was why you weren't enthusiastic. That was why you pulled away every time. That was why I didn't see you as much. That was who you loved.
You loved him. There's nothing wrong with that. You still love him. There's still nothing wrong with that.
Just remember, I always loved you. I still do. Don't forget the good times we had together during that four-month period...
I close my eyes,
And dream of you and I,
And then I realize,
There's more to love
Than only bitterness and lies,
I close my eyes...
A/N: It's been updated, one minor error has been fixed! Also, a note to my reviewers:
I don't know what happened over the holidays, but you seemed less enthusiastic about our relationship when I got back. You didn't put any heart into our kisses, and you were always the one that broke away from them. I saw you less and less.
Finally, a Hogsmeade weekend was announced. A perfect chance to be with you, something that didn't happen very much anymore. I gave you a look that said, "as usual?" but this time, you shook your head no. I walked over to ask you to explain.
You told me that you were in love with somebody else, that you didn't think that we could work much longer. You told me that you already asked someone to come to the Three Broomsticks with you.
I ran up to the girls dormitory and cried, something I hadn't done since you insulted me right in front of my less-than-friendly face almost six years ago.
And I remember why you insulted me. "'It's Leviosa, not Leviosa!' She's a nightmare! Honestly! No wonder she hasn't got any friends!"
We all remember it today as "The Charms Fiasco."
I sat on my bed and cried all morning on the day of the Hogsmeade trip. You had obviously told someone that I never came down for breakfast, because Lavender came up and tried to comfort me and persuade me to go to Hogsmeade with her and Parvati and Padma. I told her no. I wouldn't be able to stand seeing you with someone else.
So I sat in the dorm until I finally heard more noise in the common room, some three or four hours later. I checked to see if you were back yet. You weren't. I went back upstairs.
Some time later, I suddenly heard cheering in the common room. I came down to see what was going on, but by the time I got to the landing, whatever had happened was already over. You were just standing there, with your arm around his neck and your other hand holding two bags full of Honeydukes sweets.
You never went to Honeydukes with me.
The crowd was receding, and I noticed that it was mostly around you and him. I wondered what you could have been doing.
I heard whispers of "I can't believe they did that!" and "That was disgusting!" I suddenly didn't want to know what you did. But at the same time, I realized exactly what you did. I walked over to you.
"I don't believe you two! You actually-" "-Frenched, we know," he finished my sentence for me. "But in front of all of Gryffindor? You must be mad! Malfoy will know by Tuesday!" "We've done it loads of times before!" I realized that I was in defeat. I sighed. "Fine, you win."
So that was why you weren't enthusiastic. That was why you pulled away every time. That was why I didn't see you as much. That was who you loved.
You loved him. There's nothing wrong with that. You still love him. There's still nothing wrong with that.
Just remember, I always loved you. I still do. Don't forget the good times we had together during that four-month period...
I close my eyes,
And dream of you and I,
And then I realize,
There's more to love
Than only bitterness and lies,
I close my eyes...
A/N: It's been updated, one minor error has been fixed! Also, a note to my reviewers:
hp paddy: Thanks, I will use it!
Teeny Bash: I'll write more, as soon as i get out of my disgusting block!
Marcus1212: Sorry, I've never been comfortable joining e-mail groups! Thanks, though!
Starry Veil: I'm so glad you like it! Don't be sorry, all of my friends ranted about it, too! ;)
Thanks for being nice for my first one!