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I feel like another person today…

As I grip the edge of the bathroom sink for dear life I realize that the alcohol has done more than impair my balance. I'm strangely aware of myself. The reflection staring back at me is not the tomboyish 14-year old from before. Now four years later, in her place stands an older teen with long hair, swept bangs, fuller lips, and blood shot eyes—I barely recognize myself and the euphoria I'm feeling right now. I came here with a purpose, which I could not accomplish in a right state of mind; I wouldn't have the guts for it if I was sober. One beer and five shots later, I was ready to jump into anything.

I stumbled to the door and held myself in place when I heard Bra moaning on the opposite side and I finally remembered why I had stayed in the closet sized bathroom for so long when I didn't even feel the need to puke.

"Shit" I sighed to myself. It usually didn't take people this long to do the deed. I hadn't expected the blonde Bra lured out to have that much stamina. From previous experiences I know it takes her half hour to wrap things up, today it felt like she needed an eternity. Maybe he was lacking in the satisfaction department. I closed my eyes for what seemed like a moment trying to drown the noises coming from behind the door when it suddenly jerked open and I fell towards the muscular body that stood there.

"Sorry Pan, I didn't know you were in there" Uub said apologetically. I looked to the now empty bed behind him before I looked at him for the first time tonight. Unlike me he hadn't changed one bit—mentally that is, physically he was Greek god chiseled to perfection in all the right places, he had cut his Mohawk and re-grew his hair into a faux hawk instead. He had always been wonderful in every sense of the word, yet I couldn't figure out why I had ended our relationship almost a year ago. "I have no idea how you could fall asleep in here listening to Jake and Bra…while standing no less. I heard it all the way down the hall" he chuckled softly but it made my head pound, I didn't want to be alone with him right now, but I knew he probably had looked for us in the sea of bodies that were in the living room downstairs so I didn't push away. Uub went from being my boyfriend to care taker, always making sure Bra and I survived the night only to be murdered by our parents when they found out we had snuck out to go to a party. Still, his good intentions were never enough for me to forget to avoid any situation where he could get near me. I could tell he had been dwelling on what we had, I rarely did, and I didn't want to hurt him.

"I'm not ready to go home yet" I replied while trying to steady myself when I noticed he was holding my waist to keep me from falling, 'too close' I thought, instead he held me closer and tighter. "Haven't had enough yet?" Uub said a bit too solemnly for my liking—so he knew why I came to this ridiculous party. I didn't know a single person there, but I made it a point to get drunk beyond comprehension and mingle with most of the guys. I was desperate to find someone, anyone that would fill the void I've felt for the past year and a half…the same emptiness Uub failed to fill.

'I have to stop remembering'

I bit my lip trying to hold back tears, not in a million years would I had imagined that I'd be an emotional wreck towards a guy that might as well have been my other overprotective uncle—and I couldn't let Uub know that. I didn't know what to say to him, anything I said at this point would hurt him. I was drunk enough to have sex with the first guy that offered and apparently to admit it…

"Bra got in on some action" I smiled at him stupidly not knowing what else to do. "I think I deserve to as well" I let go of his shirt and I stepped back into the small bathroom, the place I seemed to have been cornered in the entire night, and as soon as I did that I regretted it, the action could be mistaken for an invitation. He followed in a few steps until he had me pinned to the wall, hands on each side of my face and his lips at the nape of my neck. "If that's really what you want I rather you use me than some low life that can get his way with you" his breath made shivers run down my entire body until a whimper escaped from me. How ironic, I thought the same thing when I had agreed to go out with him. But I also thought he would be the one to save me from the memories of the insanity I had live through.

He kissed my cheek and looked at me, through me with the blankest stare and after a moment held my hand to walk me out of the cramped space. Suddenly the memory of a warm body over me flashed before me and the craving I felt for him ate at my being again.

'I NEED to stop remembering'

"Ok" I said as I pulled his hand back to me.

The look of surprise in his face was followed by a small smile and then his lips against mine—soft and gentle, just as he was. Uub's hands trailed my bare thighs all the way to the hem of my dress and any second thoughts I had about this agreement between us dissipated. In less than a few seconds we were back to the wall while our tongues melted each other and my arms encircled his neck bringing him impossibly closer to me. It was then when he lifted my leg to his side that I felt him inside of me and the noises I made matched the ones Bra made earlier this evening.

I felt whole again and the thoughts running through my mind were only of him and me. Each thrust made me feel incredible and they were exactly as I had remembered from our previous encounters; Uub was steady, tender, and loving. The word 'sex' was too dirty and animalistic to describe what I was doing with him and knowing this instantly made me feel like the biggest bag of dirt in the world. How could I be using him, toying with his feelings, for my benefit?

I was panting now. "Uub stop". He looked at me with longing and didn't grant me my request. Instead he crushed his lips to mine and kissed me so roughly that I did not recognize him.

"We need to stop" my words came out breathless in the second I managed to speak again. I moved my arms from his neck to push his chest away with no success. "Not yet" he replied before devouring my lips again.

The lights in the bathroom seem to get brighter and I could barely open my eyes.

His lips were so rough on mine, as if he couldn't get enough and just when I felt the need for air he expertly trailed his lips below my ear lobe, down my neck and finally to my collar bone sucking lightly on each of the places .His rhythm picked up pace and the inside of my thighs burned each time his skin came into contact. My right leg was still lifted to his side when he picked me up from my bottom so I could in encircle his waist…letting him fill places deeper inside of me. My moans became louder as I gripped his shoulders with all my might. How could something make you feel so amazing and be painful at the same time? I didn't care. I didn't want him to stop.

"I wanted you so bad" he whispered in my ear before I felt his damped forehead against mine. I finally managed to open my eyes despite the blinding lights and was met with the bluest sapphire eyes. We were both close to climax and I refused to take my eyes off of his. My muscles contracted several times and then I felt it—a fulfillment that I had never felt before. Once he helped me off him I wasn't sure how I was going to stand—my legs had turned to Jell-O. He grabbed my chin and lifted it lightly so that I was looking directly at him and he shot me the smirk that I was so fond of. "You're out of practice Panny, I remember you having more endurance". I couldn't laugh; the joke only reminded me how long we had gone without seeing each other and it only made me feel like crying.

"I missed you" I was near tears and the sentence was barely audible to myself. "I missed you too" he kissed me once again. Short and sweet. 'Too short…' I thought. I grabbed his face ready to steal the longer kiss that I wanted. "Trunks…" I said before meeting his lips half way when he ripped my hands away from him.

"What did you just call me?" Uub's eyes were wild and angry. My heart hammered to my chest, I was at a loss of words. I couldn't believe myself and still I was a bit angry at Uub too; he was supposed to help me forget, not relive a moment that I held so dear yet could no longer have. "Answer me!" he yelled and it only startled me more.

"Did you and Trunks…" I cut him off; I didn't want to hear it. "Please don't tell anyone" I said in a whisper. I could feel the tears streaming down my face and couldn't trust my voice not to break if I spoke out loud. I couldn't even apologize while I watched Uub put his jeans back on and storm out of the bathroom. It was odd finding myself in this situation, I didn't know what to do…it wasn't like myself, but then again I'm not the same person I was then.