Murder Makes Me Blush
It started with a smile that I gave without a thought
A smile that I thought about for nights with great distraught
A memory that made me twist, and turn in bed at night
That woke me up with tears of hate, which made nothing alright
I'd never thought so strongly about something before
But I'd never had a friendship that meant oh so much more
I'd passed it off as nothing, but it hadn't taken long
To figure out that something could ever be so wrong
He never gave a smile, but I kept mine on for show
Without anyone knowing, I'd fallen for Ichigo
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I never knew the word jealous till the new girl came to town
She'd had all the boys hearts, and I'd never felt so down
It worsened when I found who her new friend seemed to be
It broke my heart because he wouldn't even talk to me
It felt so strange and out of place that something could occur
Between that wonderful person and a girl that looks like her
"Smile," I told myself to hold on through and through
For his love I would not give up, I would have to pursue
It'd turn out in the end; I'd have to keep on going
I'd hide it well and let my personality keep glowing
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He's fast asleep, I know it, and it does make my heart break
He doesn't even realize what I'm doing for his sake
I'd ask for a kiss goodbye, but he cannot know I'm leaving
I feel like I'm a traitor, but I'm not, I'm not deceiving
He's slicing hearts and cutting romance that I've only dreamed
Though only kind gestures that's exactly what it's seemed
If this will save him, then so be it, I'll do the best I can
He may want to grow up, but he's a teen not a man
Maybe she would understand, and let him continue on
But I do not want him to go, and I do not want him gone
So I'll do what I do best, for the boy I love the most
I'll be gone without a trace, former friend and now a ghost
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I watch him and I gasp, but I do not say much else
Any worries I have for him, I keep to my self
His blood stained clothes and stern held face fill me with delight
To watch him fight like this makes me feel alright
He has come to save me, and for reasons I'm unsure
It's for friendship, right? His intentions are so pure
I have someone to protect me, but no one to hold close
I wish for so much more, a relationship to boast
But I've got more than her and that makes me feel so great
They may have met by chance, but they do not share a fate
I watched him slice and cut and my heart jolted with joy
For the kill I'm not sure, I hope it for the boy
Murder makes me blush, and it has for so long
I fell in love with death and it never felt so wrong
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oh wow that was kind of hard to write
I had the idea in my head but I couldn't get it down properly
Okay well anyways she and her refers to Rukia
In case you weren't able to tell…
Ugh maybe I'll do better next time
Hope you enjoyed it!