Summary:
Renji is visiting the living world, going to school everyday with Ichigo. They've started a new school where they have to go by bus. Fluffy oneshot from Ichigo's point of view. Two version of the same story with different endings, point of view's and names. Rated T for language and a boy kiss. IchiXRenji.
So.. Yeah. This one I've planned a while but the idea came into my head a few days ago when I where going to sleep. Started writing it in school on a Swedish lesson.
Have had a major writing block even though it's just a oneshot. Made a little and then got stuck, talked to my muse, got of the block only to find another. It sure helped going by buss this morning with the guy that I've based it on in reality.
And don't hate me if it sucks, just tried a different writing method.
Also tried to keep conversation to a minimum.
Give it a chance, Kupo?
This is basically two versions of the same story with different endings and different points of views and different names.
Version two, Better than me, is a kinda emo story, and I'm sorry for that but I needed to get some emo-ness out of my system. You don't have to read that one.
Ichigo/Renji.
Yaoi, don't like, don't read.
Rated T for language and a boy kiss
Now I have warned you.
Enjoy.
Sorry if anyone is ooc.
Disclaimer – I do not own Bleach in any way.
Under My Skin
It's late. The snow falls outside my window in big flakes. Slowly, Silently. My hand goes through my orange hair as I close my eyes to fall asleep, but he keeps lingering in my mind. We've met a few times, talked a little.
He's really easy to talk to, he always has something fun to tell and he always makes me laugh. And when I laugh, he just keeps smiling.
He really has a beautiful smile. Every time I see him the butterflies in my stomach kills me. I don't even notice that I fall asleep as he whirls through my mind without him even knowing it.
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We're walking and talking. He laughs and talks but I have no idea what he is talking about. I can't focus, my eyes just follows the way his lips moves at each word, wondering about how those lips would feel against mine.
"Ichi..?" I shake my head and come back to reality.
"I'm sorry… What did you say?" Renji just smiles towards me, a smile witch send pleasant shivers down my spine.
"You're really fun when you do like that, you know that?" He says with a small laugh and I just turn away, my cheeks getting warmer as I blush. When I turn my head back again, he's awfully close. To close for my own good. I think everybody has a personal space, if someone get's inside that personal space you may feel slightly uncomfortable. My brain and body is screaming for him to get away, even though my heart screams for him to get even closer. He must have felt my insecurity because he is backing away, standing at an acceptable distance, close enough, but not so close he invades my space.
When we keep on walking I feel your arm brush against mine and I can't help a faint smile.
When you started talking again my gaze left your lips and fell upon your eyes instead.
You have such beautiful eyes.
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Why are you looking at me like that?
Why is that faint smile in your lips?
Did I say something weird? In that case I'm sorry, but I have no idea what either of us is talking about.
Is there something between my teeth?
Why did you close your eyes?
Am I really that hideous?
I'm sorry.
Wait. Why is your hand so close to mine?
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With a sudden rush of blood to my brain I realise that there's no space between our legs, jeans against jeans. (I can feel every bone in your leg through the fabric. You're so thin boy. Do you ever eat anything?) Your hand is so near mine that they're touching.
Suddenly you grasp my hand, without looking at me; face forward, eyes closed. Please don't do like this if you don't mean anything with it. If you're just fucking with me, then please let go. As you squeeze my hand I realise that maybe, just maybe, you're not. A weak smile form on my lips and I lean backwards, eyes closed. Just like yours are.
The bus is going fast. To fast or is it just my heart freaking with my head?
I guess it's just my heart.
I'm sorry, but it's my turn to get of and time for you to head back to Urahara's shop.
I'll see you tomorrow. Goodbye for now.
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Don't do like this. Please. Don't take my hand and then ignore me for a fucking week. You can't do like this.
I turn the lights off to once again get some sleep.
The blissful darkness is like balm to my soul.
Here, in the darkness, I'm safe, the darkness comforts me.
I'm all alone with my thoughts.
Even though a tear gently streaks down my cheek.
You're always in my brain, under my skin.
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I feel a hand around my wrist and I glance over my shoulder. My body freeze as I see your screaming red hair. No. no. nonononononononono. I can't. No. Stop this, unfair play. Don't ignore me and then just all of a sudden decide to show up.
"What do you want?" My voice is ice-cold, slightly trembling. Not my intension but I can't help it. I never meant it to be like this, not this way. A weight is pressing on my heart and I wish I was back in the darkness of my room. I pull my hand from your grip and then I run, hoping to get as far away as I possibly can. Unfortunate enough for me, you're so mush faster then me, and I soon find myself in you grip. Again. I turn towards you and before I know it your lips touch mine, light like a feather, and I feel my legs give in under me. Luckily enough, your arms holds me up. Your lips leave mine, all too soon if you ask me, but I just keep quiet. Your face is so close to mine, our noses are touching. Your arms are keeping me standing, and I just can't do anything.
"I'm sorry… For acting like this, for ignoring you. I just couldn't stand facing you, afraid that you would hurt me, turn me down. But then I realized it. I have to give it a chance. I need you Ichigo. Let me fix this." your voice is so thin it almost makes me cry again.
When you press your lips against mine again, desperately, I realise that maybe I've been under your skin to this whole time, without my knowing.
so yeah.
short and all.
version two is in progress in all it's emo-ness.
tell me what you thought of this one