Disclaimer: I do not own „Twilight", Stephenie Meyer does and I'm glad she shared it with us… ;)
WHEN I'M GONE
Prologue - DARKNESS –
Around me, everything was dark.
I couldn't see anything, couldn't feel anything, couldn't say anything. As if someone had put me into eternal darkness.
My body felt numb, as if something heavy had been rolled over me, breaking every bone in my body, leaving me with this mess of an existence.
Was it like that, when you died? I tried to think about some place like heaven, something I've heard of whenever I went to church with my mom. My mom. Suddenly, I felt a dull pain at the back of my throat. As if I had to choke, but something held me back. I tried to figure out what it was, but I couldn't. I didn't feel my hands to lift them and feel whatever was causing the pain.
This couldn't be heaven. Could it be hell? I tried to remember, if I really believed in these things. I couldn't and gave up.
'What about opening your eyes?' A tiny voice in my head spoke softly to me. Opening my eyes? I tried to locate them, tried to know, how to open them, but I couldn't. And gave up again.
The darkness pushed me back and crashed down again.
Chapter 1 – WAKING UP –
The first pain at the back of my throat had been nothing compared to the pain that came towards me now. Sharp, hot like burning iron against my skin, against this limp body that seemed to be mine. I wanted to scream, wanted to scream for help, for somebody to cool the heat inside me. But I couldn't. I tried to open my eyes once more and this time, something seemed to happen. Suddenly, the darkness was gone, there was a bright light that hurt my eyes even more and everything crashed down on me.
Noises, that hurt my ears, this beaming light that hurt my eyes, something sticking in my throat, that kept me from screaming out in terror.
And then, it was gone. I coughed and sobbed, not knowing what to do first. Hands lingered at my head, stroking my forehead. They were cool and oddly comforting, but I was frightened, sunk into some kind of dull terror that I couldn't get a hand on. "Isabella…", a voice said near my right ear. Isabella? Nobody called me Isabella, at least not when I was around. Slowly, the terror subsided, leaving only the pain behind and the numbness in my head. "She's awake.", I heard someone mumble and I closed my eyes again.
I didn't recognize the voice. "Bella…", the voice said again, this time with urgency in it. "Please, open your eyes once more." I considered this, how bad would it hurt? But I obeyed.
The face above me was pale, with strange eyes that seemed to shimmer gold in the white light that came from a lamp that hang from the ceiling. The face's expression was concerned, yet it seemed to relax itself with some kind of relief. I looked into the eyes, should I say something? I wasn't sure, if I was able to anyway, so I kept my mouth shut. "Welcome back.", the voice, that seemed so unfamiliar to me, said. Back? From where? I narrowed my eyes, trying to remember whatever had happened. Had I been run over by a car or something? It was obvious now that I was lying in a hospital bed, the white ceiling and walls, the smell of illness all around. I exhaled deeply, realizing that it hurt a lot somewhere where my chest should have been, but where I only felt the numb body I had felt before. The one that didn't seem to be mine. Deep in thought, I had nearly forgotten the eyes that still looked at me. Curiosity in them. "Are you in pain?", the voice asked. I nodded slightly. "The…", my voice didn't obey to my will. I had to cough again. "Burn…", I managed at least and wanted to point at my chest, but something hold me back. I didn't want to see what it was, at least, I didn't really think I was able to move my head in the direction. "Your injuries are severe, but the doctor said you'll be 100% again." A cold hand rested against my cheek, I wasn't sure if that was what I wanted, but the coldness was comforting, so I didn't flinch back. I closed my eyes, wanting the darkness to take me with it again. I felt the hand go away and then the relief of the blackness surrounded me again.
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