I'm so excited for this story! Today's my 16th birthday, so I wanted to finish My Previously Happy Ending and upload this first chapter as a birthday gift from me to you :) ENJOY!:)

I do not own Big Time Rush.

Chapter 1

"Where is she?" I screeched, bursting through the hospital doors. I vaguely heard Logan scream "Room 416" from across the street. I took off, nearly trampling a few confused bystanders, and ran straight into the elevator doors.

"Come on, come on!" I hissed, pressing the elevator button 100 times a minute and banging my fist against the cold metal doors. I lost the little patience that I wished I had and sprinted up the stairs instead.

I slowed down only long enough to catch my breath and fix my hair. After all, I couldn't see my girlfriend again, after all this time, looking winded. Or.. was it ex? She didn't actually mean it when she broke up with me that day, right?

"Here we go," I thought, marching into Serenity's hospital room.

I stopped in the doorway and drew in my breath There she was in all her glory. Her ebony hair fell softly against the white hospital sheets; her clear blue eyes looked up at me curiously and the lips that I had missed so much were parted slightly.

"Serenity," I breathed, taking a step towards her. At that moment, all I wanted was to hear her voice, to run my fingers through her hair, to feel her lips against mine…

"Do I know you?" I froze.

Not again.

Kendall, Carlos, and Logan came crashing in behind me, crawling over each other in an attempt to get in her room first.

"Serenity!" Carlos screamed; his outburst brought me out of my frozen state. He hugged her happily; she looked terrified.

"It's so good to have you back," Kendall smiled.

"What?" she asked. "Where did I go?" She looked at the nurse with dyed red hair and caramel eyes who was sitting at the foot of her bed with questioning eyes. The nurse gave her a small reassuring smile and walked to us.

"What's going on?" Logan asked her quietly.

In a hushed voice, she responded, "She's suffering from head trauma."

"Memory loss?" Kendall asked.

She nodded. "She'll be evaluated shortly. You're welcome to wait here."

Kendall and Logan sat in the two chairs; Carlos and I leaned up against the wall. I flashed a smile at Serenity when I caught her eyeing me suspiciously; but instead of smiling back, she quickly looked away.

Maybe she just didn't recognize me? I did cut my hair… She couldn't have forgotten me. I'm James Diamond! And she loves me! … Right?

"Hello, Serenity," a friendly looking woman sang. She had gray hair, pulled back into a bun, and friendly brown eyes. "I'm Dr. Tracy Verne."

"Hello," Serenity smiled shyly. She was so cute.

"How are you doing?" Dr. Verne asked as she pulled up a chair and took a small notebook and pen from her pocket.

"Fine, thanks." Dr. Verne glanced at the guys and me, smiling politely, and turned back to face Serenity.

"I'm going to ask you a few questions," she told Serenity. "Are you ready?"

Serenity nodded as Dr. Verne clicked her pen.

"What's your name?"

"Serenity Cooper." Wrong.

"How old are you?"

"16." Wrong.

"What brought you to L.A.?"

"I'm in L.A.?" What?

"What year is it?"

"2011." No!

"Sweetheart," Dr. Verne started, taking Serenity's hand in hers. "It's 2013. You're 17 years old."

"What?" she exclaimed, her eyes widening. "Where are my friends?"

"Here!" Carlos exclaimed.

"I'm sorry, but I really don't know who you are," she looked at him apologetically. "Where's Lizzy? Scarlet? Sydney?" She was toying with her charm bracelet nervously. It amazed me that, no matter what she went through, she never managed to lose the bracelet that the guys and I gave her for her 6th birthday.

"I'll call Lizzy," Logan said.

"You know her?" Serenity asked.

"I should," Logan paused to flash a dimpled grin. "She's my girlfriend."

Serenity choked on the water she had been drinking, managing to squeak out a "What?!" but Logan slipped out before she could ask any more questioned.

"Let's continue, shall we?" Dr. Verne asked. Serenity nodded slowly. "Where were you born?"

"Um, I don't know. I can't remember anything before my 6th birthday." Unfortunately, correct.

"What was significant about that birthday?" Serenity shifted uncomfortably, playing with her bracelet. It caught Dr. Verne's eye. "Where did you get that charm bracelet? It's very pretty."

"I got it for my 6th birthday," she answered. "But I can't remember who gave it to me."

"I can answer that," Kendall smiled, holding up his half of his bird shaped charm. Carlos, Logan, and I followed suit; her eyes widened as she quickly looked back and forth from our charms to hers.

She slowly got up out of her bed and cautiously stepped towards us.

"Serenity!" Lizzy's familiar voice shrieked.

"Lizzy!" Serenity exclaimed, snapping out of her trance-like state.

"Perfect timing as always, Lizzy." I huffed a frustrated breath and leaned back against the wall.

"Ohmygosh, you're back," Scarlet breathed a sigh of relief as she engulfed Serenity in a tight hug.

"I can finally breathe again," Sydney cried as she joined the circle.

"Was I really gone for a year?" Serenity asked quietly, wiping a stray tear from her cheek.

"Oh, honey," Lizzy sighed. "You don't remember?"

"This always happens," Serenity muttered, clenching her fists together. "I mean, one second, I think everything's fine and dandy. Then the next, these four show up and everything spirals!" She pointed an angry finger at Kendall, Carlos, Logan, and me as another tear slid down her cheeks.

"Whoa there, calm down," Sydney said, pulling Serenity's hand down. "These are your best guy friends we're talking about. And your boyfriend, might I add." The guys and I waved nervously at her.

"Boyfriend?" she shrieked. "I do not have a boyfriend!"

"Oh dear," Scarlet said. "This is a problem."

Serenity held her head between her hands and shut her eyes tightly. "I'm so confused," she whispered shakily. "Make it stop. Please make it stop."

"Serenity," I said quietly. Before I could stop myself, I took her hands in mine and looked into her eyes. "Serenity, it's ok."

"No, it's not," she answered furiously. Tears kept slipping down her cheeks, one after the other.

"Look at me," I told her gently. I pulled my half of the heart shaped charm out of my pocket and held it up for her to see. I matched it to the charm on her bracelet and turned it over to reveal my name.

"James?" she whispered curiously, looking from her bracelet to me.

"It's me: James," I smiled. She pulled her arms away from me and looked at the other guys.

Each of them followed what I did, matching their half of the charms to hers. Serenity repeated each name as the charm was matched.

"Dr. Verne," Serenity started to say, but cut herself off when she realized that she was nowhere to be found. Somewhere, in the midst of all the excitement, Dr. Verne had managed to slip out unnoticed.

"I'm sure you'll remember us soon enough," I told her.

"Really?" she asked.

"Positive," I shrugged. "I mean, we are Big Time Rush. We're kind of a big deal."

She raised an eyebrow. "Is that so?" She did not sound amused.

"Yes, ma'am," I answered, taking a step closer to her. "And I'm James Diamond."

"And?" she challenged, taking a step towards me.

"I'm kind of a big deal too," I whispered, my face just inches from hers. For a second, we just looked into each other's eyes and all that ran through my mind was "kiss her!"

But before I could get my chance, she scoffed and turned away.

"You can just feel the tension in the air," Sydney muttered. I shot her a look before turning on my heels and walking back to my spot against the wall.

"Sere, how old did you say you thought you were?" Scarlet asked.

"16," she answered. "Why?"

"And you don't remember coming to L.A.?"

"Nope."

"Do you remember getting a note from Cooper?" Serenity rubbed her arm and looked away.

"That I remember," she answered quietly.

"Boys, can I talk to you outside for a second?" Lizzy said suddenly.

"Uh, sure," Logan stammered before motioning for the rest of us to follow them out into the hallway.

Lizzy looked troubled and Logan obviously sensed something was wrong. He wrapped his arm around her shoulder, pulled her close to him, and planted a soft kiss on her temple. She sighed, closed her eyes, and rested her head on his shoulder. I felt a pang of jealousy watching the two of them. Had Serenity not gone missing last year, that could have been us. It was all my fault. She should have been safe. If only I had found her in that cave sooner…

"Serenity's memories only go out until right before we left for L.A.," Lizzy said.

"Yeah," Kendall answered slowly. "She just said that."

"That's bad, guys," she said.

"I know it's bad," I answered. "She doesn't remember me!" I ran my fingers through my short brunette hair and took a deep breath.

"She loved you, James," Lizzy told me. "She fell for you once and she'll do it again." I couldn't help but smile. She was right. If I could get her to fall for me before, I can get her to fall for me now.

"But you guys don't know the real problem. The real reason why it's so bad," Lizzy said quietly. She shook slightly when she breathed.

"It's ok, Lizzy," Logan told her soothingly. "You can tell us."

"Before we came here- before we met you guys," Lizzy trailed off. She took several deep breaths, as if she was having trouble finding the words, or the courage, to tell us. Logan rubbed her arms gently, patiently waiting for Lizzy to finish.

"Serenity was… she worried us," Lizzy finished.

"Worried you how?" Kendall asked.

Lizzy squeezed her eyes shut, took a deep breath, and then blurted out, "Serenity was suicidal!" As soon as the words came out, she clamped her hand over her mouth and her eyes were wide.

The world around me spun. I collapsed against the wall, shocked.

"Suicidal?" I whispered. "I knew she self-harmed once a year but.."

"Hold up," Lizzy said. "You know about her birthday tradition? She must have really trusted you."

"I caught her in the middle of it," I muttered, shaking my head. "Suicidal? She wanted to die?"

"But then we came to L.A. and she seemed to have found a reason to live," Lizzy said. "She was genuinely happy."

"Why are you telling us this?" I asked.

"Because now that Serenity doesn't remember coming to L.A.," Lizzy started.

"She doesn't remember her reason to live," Logan finished for her, seeming to realize where this was headed. "She might still be suicidal."

Lizzy nodded. "You guys should go home. Get some rest. The girls and I will stay and try to figure out what Serenity knows. I'll get back to you soon."

We reluctantly agreed and said a quick good-bye to Serenity and the girls before heading towards the elevators. Kendall gave Scarlet a kiss on the cheek and Carlos gave Sydney a big hug and a kiss on the forehead. Logan stopped to hug Lizzy and kiss her on the nose, before saying "I love you" and kissing her softly. "I love you too," she muttered into his lips.

"That could have been Serenity and me," I thought sadly. "That should have been us."

And so it begins... If you have any ideas for scenes or anything in the story, feel free to PM me and I'll do my best :) I need ideas ;) I hope you enjoyed! Review pleasee!:)